tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3126474537687051974.post7567242423309073222..comments2024-02-16T23:48:54.987-06:00Comments on The Daily Diary of a Winning Loser: August 8th, 2015 Did It Choose You?Sean Andersonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07973189725254566966noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3126474537687051974.post-60416628004390248622015-08-11T05:34:32.504-05:002015-08-11T05:34:32.504-05:00Kerstin--I'm so glad you tried it! Keep trying...Kerstin--I'm so glad you tried it! Keep trying! It's worth the effort, I promise!!Sean Andersonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07973189725254566966noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3126474537687051974.post-36875220227205475142015-08-11T05:33:25.532-05:002015-08-11T05:33:25.532-05:00There were a couple of emotional events that reall...There were a couple of emotional events that really shook me. After maintaining for a year and a half, I went through a really tough breakup. I was also depressed because of the lack of movement in my career--this disappointment was a combination of things. I wasn't in the position I had hoped to be 1.5 years post book release. I hadn't developed this career I so passionately wanted to-- All of my high hopes, dreams and expectations started to fade into a reality I couldn't stand. <br />BUT-- Here's the deal... predating all of this WAS an overconfidence.<br />I was overconfident to the point of abandoning all of the support and accountability structure I had leaned on throughout my weight loss. That year and a half of maintenance was fueled by a simple cocky statement of "I'm never going back," and that statement was backed up by a shaky trek of managing my food and exercise habits in the worst, most unstable way. It was bound to unravel. And it did.<br />As soon as the above mentioned storms started brewing--and all of the emotional turmoil started--I was in deep trouble. My experience was to run to food for comfort--and that's exactly what I did...to excess.<br />And the more I did, the worse it all became--compounding into this poisonous existence that sent me scrambling and hiding--isolating and eating, depressed and scared.<br />If I had maintained the accountability and support structure I had while losing weight--and made those things important--had I a shred of humility and gratitude for all I did have-- I could have made it through that time without the regain/relapse.<br />I still stand behind every word I wrote in my book. It's a good recipe for coming to terms with and losing the weight--but then what? It's what wasn't written about the after effects that's missing from it...things I still needed to learn and appreciate. <br />Book number 2 will be a hybrid of both--what was in there and what was missing--the elements of true recovery.<br />And it's interesting...I'm single now--went through a breakup last year--no worries. I'm still working hard everyday at my job--and I feel great.<br />My expectations for a career of some sort are different now. It will develop naturally and organically and it will if I put forth the effort required...It's not some given entitlement, as I might have treated it before.<br />And the bottom line--and the most important--My self worth and identity today, doesn't depend on anything that fluctuates. weight, success--no matter the state of these two, I'm okay--I'm a great person regardless--I love myself on a level I never did before...and this allows me to experience life with a whole new perspective.<br />And I treat my recovery with the same reverence as an alcoholic in successful recovery treats their sobriety. It's that important to me.<br />That was probably way more than you wanted! LOL :) Sean Andersonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07973189725254566966noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3126474537687051974.post-71678843337521669152015-08-10T16:08:50.349-05:002015-08-10T16:08:50.349-05:00Just a quick note on the omelette, I tried your su...Just a quick note on the omelette, I tried your suggestion of cooking it more slowly and it was better. Alas, there is still room for improvement so I think I will keep practicing :) Thank you!Kerstinhttp://deardietmonster.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3126474537687051974.post-28283695660542138032015-08-09T18:20:01.329-05:002015-08-09T18:20:01.329-05:00Sean, so awesome that you're now at maintenanc...Sean, so awesome that you're now at maintenance, could you talk about what happened to trigger your regain last time? Was there an emotional event that blasted you out of your groove, or did you get overconfident and think you didn't need to be diligent any more, or something else? One day I hope to be where you are now, and I learn so much from your musing. Nataliehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05104693042948517678noreply@blogger.com