The Daily Diary of a Winning Loser: September 1st, 2016 Truly Scared

September 1st, 2016 Truly Scared

It was to be a routine gallbladder removal surgery for mom. Today was the day. Originally scheduled for 10:30am, some delays pushed it to 1:45pm. I made the trip this morning and spent some good time with her before she headed into surgery. Other family members would be there when she was done, and I had things I had to get done back home, so I left.

My phone rang less than three hours later. The first words said to me: "Stay calm, and listen..." Mom was having serious complications and had been put in ICU. She couldn't breathe well and her vitals were suggesting horrible things.

After ruling out a few other things, a blood clot in the lungs was the likely culprit. By this time, Mom was on a ventilator and heavily sedated. Amber and I arrived at the ICU just as they were conducting a CT scan. The results came back negative. No blood clot!

The likely reason for the complications: Mild heart failure. The plan is to gradually take her off the ventilator starting sometime early to mid-morning. Until then, she's out. In fact, she'll likely not remember anything since before the surgery.

I was truly scared tonight.

And there's so much more I will write about this, later-- the emotions, the thoughts--I just don't have time tonight. It's super late.

What I can tell you is this-- I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained abstinent from refined sugar, I exceeded my daily water goal and I stayed connected with great support.

Speaking of great support--a sincere thank you to those sending best wishes, concern, and prayers.

Continuous Accountability Live-Tweet Stream:

#morningdeal done✔️ 20 push-ups-20 squats-2 cups water. It's fast coffee time-running behind! Eeek!! pic.twitter.com/CdhrSrLvL1
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

2 tbsp half & half in this dark roast. 3 tbsp in refill to-go, soon. 100 cal. pic.twitter.com/ahUExQ6wKw
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

Breakfast in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/KsNFwZEawC
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

Avocado omelet. 2 whole eggs-2 egg whites with 106g avocado. 6.1oz apple & 120g red grapes. 508 cal. pic.twitter.com/K6kZLI9nIE
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

Yesterday's cup, today's travel coffee to-go. 3 tbsp half & half. 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/VojHOIkDPK
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

2 cups water #watertracking Holdover until later lunch- 2oz cheddar cheese cubes and approx. 4.5oz banana. 292 cal. pic.twitter.com/ymIpZLrqs6
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

2 cups water with fast lunch #wateraccountability pic.twitter.com/lADXPHCpHA
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

Lunch in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/DNWfxnKXun
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

2 chicken tacos w/approx: 4oz chicken, tomato salsa, easy-easy sr crm-approx 2 tbsp, lettuce & 14g cheese. 442 cal. pic.twitter.com/GIvv0nczAu
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

Three tablespoons half & half in this after lunch cup of coffee. 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/Yd80ENzpix
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 1, 2016

3 cup water bottle exceeds #watergoal Approximately 4.5oz banana #holdoveruntildinner 72 cal. pic.twitter.com/rfPuyEq1xW
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 2, 2016

2 cups water with late dinner #wateraccountability pic.twitter.com/lWbhukDeY8
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 2, 2016

Dinner in MFP... pic.twitter.com/EXCX2kn1qs
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 2, 2016

4oz & 5oz bone-in pork chops, small baked potato with approximately 3 tbsp sour cream. 3 tomato slices. 616 cal. pic.twitter.com/XOvx19akYK
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 2, 2016