Wednesday, October 5, 2016

October 5th, 2016 It's Reckless

October 5th, 2016 It's Reckless

We need to talk. I cannot keep up this schedule. I can't. If I describe it beat by beat, it runs the risk of sounding like I'm proud of it--and I'm not. Running on empty isn't impressive. Where my recovery is concerned, it's reckless. I made a point to stay extra aware today--but my goodness, too many of these in a row and I'll be in trouble quickly.

There's more to write about this--there's more to sort out, more to change... but as of this writing, for the second night in a row, I'm handling on-air weather coverage. And this right here--very important for me to mention, I'm not complaining about my job. I love my job. I love what I do. I'm a very lucky man to get to do what I get to do for a living. And seriously, weather coverage two nights in a row is rare. This just happened to hit at the same time I'm running on too little sleep, because of it.

I rented a car today in order to transport mom to her doctor's appointment in Oklahoma City. Yes, my car is still out of commission. It was in the shop for nearly three weeks before the shop decided they hadn't a clue what was wrong with it--because they couldn't get it to do what it does after running awhile--and the computer diagnostic stuff apparently isn't able to communicate with mine. I've got to suck it up and get a different car. Anyway-- about this rental...it's a tiny little Toyota Yaris. Good thing I'm at a healthy weight--because seriously, at 500 pounds I couldn't have fit in this thing.

Okay--I've got to get my head back into these storms and my on-air stuff. Mother Nature, geez--have some mercy!

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget. I remained abstinent from refined sugar. I stayed connected with the contacts I lean on for support. I was available to and offered support to others. I exceeded my water goal. I took three cat naps-- a 15 minute and a couple of tens--and I hit some strategically positioned cups of coffee--one before driving to mom's, one right before mom and I left Oklahoma City and another leaving Stillwater late tonight as I headed home.

I'm telling you--protecting the stability of my recovery plan is extremely important. And that's what it is-- a recovery plan. It isn't a maintenance mode "diet." I can't forget that. I can't get reckless, or I'll wreck. And I don't want that to happen again.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean
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2 comments:

  1. KarenOctober 6, 2016 at 7:03 AM

    Sean, I hope that you'll be able to look at career options and job assignments (same company, different company?) that will match your health requirements vs the current job assignment. Your current assignment seems a mis-match for your health requirements.

    Sleep is at the bottom of Maslow's Hierarchy of needs. Even before a secure job. https://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Maslow%27s_hierarchy_of_needs.svg

    If you do nothing and go sleep deprived, your body will stop you cold. Maybe not this year, but in the coming years. Falling asleep while driving, errors in thinking and judgment, addictions, burns, chronic and acute illnesses and surgery all have happened to my friends and co-workers who choose not to sleep or modify work assignments of habits (with work approval of boss man or boss lady) or to over extend "helping" family.

    Know how many times we begged them, BEGGED them to get sleep talk to a counselor, talk to their boss? A lot. Many times we'd talk to them. It could have been avoided. I wish they hadn't been martyrs and put themselves last. No blue ribbon of awesomeness, just dealing with the fall out from their own illnesses. Which was worse for them than setting a boundary around sleep and taking action earlier.

    Glad you are aware. Please take swift action. Corrective, then preventive. This goes very far past basic weight maintenance into basic levels of health and safety. If not for you, for those who work and drive with you. Onward.
    I know you'll take acton. Please do so sooner, not later or after your body stops you.

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  2. AnonymousOctober 6, 2016 at 3:07 PM

    You have a great job that suits your personality. I do hope you can workout a healthy schedule. Radio is a 24 hour business. Is there no one normally on duty during the late hours? Do the other radio personalities at the station also report on the weather some nights? Is the radio station on a tight salary budget?

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