It's an incredibly good feeling to be at peace with something. I'm in a position along this road where my acceptance has allowed me the most sincere peace. It's acceptance of my abstinence from sugar, it's acceptance of a committed exercise schedule, it's acceptance for not using food to buffer emotions--it's an acceptance of good things and this, coming from me--someone who has had what seems like an inability to accept good things in my life. To finally feel worthy of good things--and to not immediately try to self-sabotage my way back into chaos, is truly the most wonderful transformation within me.
I'm an affected individual, there's no doubt, all of us are to a certain extent--some more than others. To finally be able to feel some space between me and those deeply ingrained reactions fueled by an inaccurate perception of self, is incredibly liberating.
When I allow my brain to explore the dynamics of it all, I quickly realize the magnitude and how this is about one thousand times more than just weight loss. It goes much deeper than dropping pounds and all the euphoria surrounding weight loss success. To feel worthy of good things, to once and for all embrace and love me as I am, regardless of anything or anyone else and to view myself without judgement and condemnation...oh my-- My friend, this is what it's all about. To get here, to this mental and emotional place where obstacles are swiped away from our path to freedom, is the most beautiful experience.
Discussing the fundamentals and surface issues along the way is important, of course-- because the commitment to these--a steady treading of sorts, gives us the balance to go deeper along the way.
When I get excited about this journey, it's not always about the most obvious things, like smaller clothes and slimmer profiles. It's about the deep stuff. It's about the transformation of the inside, not the outside that most excites me. Because it's this transformation that lays the foundation for all other transformative experiences to happen and stay that way.
Today was an exceptional day for many reasons. It wasn't perfect, never is. But it was positive. I experienced an amazing workout. We had a wonderful conference call support group. I'm simply feeling happy and it shows in just about everything I do these days.
My Tweets today:
Coffee, I really like you. Not to get weird, but sometimes I lovingly gaze at your pic. Hey,Where RU going? 30CX2=60C pic.twitter.com/NMUGuvzPe0
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 16, 2014
3 whl eggs & 1 wht prepared over-hard, thin tip steak (2oz), pear, pineapple (4.2oz), 10 white grapes. 527 cal. Big! pic.twitter.com/Amvqd1hzf9
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 16, 2014
Beef, jalapeños, pineapple, swiss, prov. & mozz w/sugar free marinara on Joseph's Pita. Pear & ten grapes. 551 cal. pic.twitter.com/YBXEbm6Q6d
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 16, 2014
Time to move this body to the hip, hip, a hibbity hop, to the beat, yo, you don't stop. #workouttime I'd be an awesome 80's rapper. Word.
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 16, 2014
Fajita chicken (5.5oz), grilled shrimp, dry tostado shells (2), guac w/sr crm, salsa with sr crm. Lettuce. 499 cal. pic.twitter.com/Wgwn91WYqH
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 17, 2014
Fresh strawberries (165g) #lastfoodofday 53 cal. pic.twitter.com/5KTPrWUuAE
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 17, 2014
Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean
