Tuesday, September 25, 2018

September 25th, 2018 Shopping Style

September 25th, 2018 Shopping Style

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, I enjoyed a wonderful workout, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I like to grocery shop in small trips. I made a store run yesterday afternoon for a few things--and as I was shopping, I was thinking-- how could my shopping be more efficient? I quickly dismissed the idea of changing my grocery shopping style after considering five different reasons.

#1- I'm a bargain shopper. I might need to visit a couple or three stores to get the best deals. I usually don't make those trips all at once, just as long as it's during a particular sales week. #2- I live alone, so there isn't a need to be stocked up for anyone else. #3- My food plan works well by having a few choices available, then preparing what I'm in the mood for on a particular day. #4- If I have too much, I usually let some things go bad--and I hate throwing away unused groceries. #5- I live literally two minutes from the stores I frequent. All things considered, I believe my shopping style works for me at this time.

Glad to clear that one up in my own mind. Well, here's the thing--finding ways to work more efficiently has been on my mind a lot lately. This is part of the process.

I'm up early today in order to drive a colleague to the airport then get back in time for my morning radio show.

My food for breakfast and lunch is in place and ready--I'm ready and about to launch into this Tuesday!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Monday, September 24, 2018

September 24th, 2018 Difference Maker

September 24th, 2018 Difference Maker

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I took mom out for her weekly dinner and shopping trip last night. She overcame her fear of the motorized cart at Walmart--tried it out and did well. We only knocked over one display, so it was a win! My phone had died and was back at my apartment on the charger or I would have grabbed a video of the experience.

I had some time to reflect over the weekend on last week's goal intensive workshop. What's interesting to me is how I've applied the same techniques to certain things in my life over the last ten years, accomplishing big things, yet, I allow obstacles to keep me in other areas. What's the difference? The good news is that I'm giving the difference the time and attention it needs.

I've often mentioned how I can compartmentalize things into categories of "non-negotiable" and at the same time, other very important things don't seem to reach that status very often, or ever. I will not sacrifice my abstinence from refined sugar--that's a non-negotiable for me, yet, I don't apply the same status to accomplish three or four workouts per week. The challenge for me is to expand my focus-- that reads like an oxymoron (you're welcome Michael in Vegas). Isn't focus supposed to be dialed in? This applies to expanding the list of things I get "dialed in" about.

Maybe this dynamic exists because certain goals certainly require more energy than others. Our daily source of energy is finite. So maybe-- the answer starts with evaluating energy usage. Where am I "leaking" energy? I mean, really--we all get the same amount of time, right? 

"I wish I had more time!" I've said that many times. If I think about this very common, stand-by phrase, and evaluate it closely, I can see where it is a victim minded thing to say-and in that, I'm relieved of responsibility to do anything toward changing certain things because, "hey, I just don't have the time right now."

When I look at the things I've accomplished over the last decade, I realize how I made room--I realize how I immediately changed the priority list to accommodate these new and important things. The difference starts there, I believe. Energy usage-- and how can I make the most efficient use of my time in order to break down obstacles and move toward goals that, until now, have been shelved?

I'm starting my Monday with a decent night's sleep. Talk about a difference maker, right? Maybe that's where it all starts? It's like we work our way backward in order to effectively move forward.

I'm learning. The learning along this road never stops, thank goodness! 

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Sunday, September 23, 2018

September 23rd, 2018 Rooney

September 23rd, 2018 Rooney

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Finally, I made time for a haircut yesterday. My eyebrows... oh wait, have I shared about my eyebrows? My eyebrows need their own blog. Anyway-- they received their quarterly trim, too. It might seem small and insignificant, but doing things for ourselves, like the salon trip yesterday, feels wonderful and has a bigger impact than just looking human again. When I feel good about me, I'm much more likely to do well in other areas of my continued care and wellness. The eyebrows... oh my, we need another paragraph...

Do you remember the late, great Andy Rooney's eyebrows? He became attached to them--these giant out of control eyebrows became a trademark for Rooney. I don't know if that's the perspective he held, but I do know that CBS and 60 Minutes certainly had a hair and makeup department--and they never touched his eyebrows. Or so it seemed. Maybe they did and his were actually much worse!! Anyway, I write all of this with much respect and love for Andy Rooney. Also, I write this to say, in twenty-years, my eyebrows just might make it into the Rooney league. 

My youngest daughter lucked out--she got her mom's eyebrows. My oldest, uh--got mine. Sorry Amber! I somehow feel like I should pitch in for her eyebrow waxing, trimming, and shaping appointments.

No more rogue eyebrows poking me in the eye. That's happened. At least, not for another few months when I'll need to do this dance again.

I'm eating breakfast as I compose this post. How did it take me years and years before discovering the magic of avocado toast. I read somewhere, someone referring to it as a "millennial" thing. Really? Wrong!! I'm certainly not a millennial. I just love the combination of textures-the crunch of the Ezekiel toast, the creaminess of the avocado--the salt and pepper... I just love these things. But what's interesting to me is, how I can be all about these but at the same time, not feel compelled to compulsively overeat on 'em. It's not a trigger food for me. Good thing, because if it were it would have to go on my trigger list. And that would be a very sad day. Apples, too--never binged my face off on apples, or eggs...or anything currently on my plate.

I enjoyed a nice date night last night. The next few Saturday's include work stuff, mainly independent of the radio station, so I made sure to make time for last night. It was a good experience!

I'm planning on a doing some personal work on my goals this afternoon. The workshop with Gerri included worksheets Gerri put together for us. I plan on working the worksheets later this afternoon.

Mom's looking forward to getting out this evening for dinner and a shopping trip. The changing season and temps have her in "must get cold weather clothing" mode. I guess we'll do a little shopping for her.

I hope your Sunday is an amazing one!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Saturday, September 22, 2018

September 22nd, 2018 A Few Notches Above

September 22nd, 2018 A Few Notches Above

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I slept in very well this morning. It felt amazing. It's kind of put me in a rush to get to the studio for a few things and then to a hair appointment, but I don't care. That deep-restorative rest was worth every extra minute.

The week behind me was an absolute gift. I'm so grateful for Life Coach Gerri Helms and everyone who came along for the 4-day/4-hour goal workshop. I love being a part of something special. When I get to work with people who are making their way through and discovering their pathways through and around long-standing obstacles, it is incredibly fulfilling--"special" isn't even the word, it's a few notches above.

I'm looking forward to a great day today. The sun is shining and I have an opportunity to give myself some time I need to explore my goals and action plan.

I hope your Saturday is full of sunshine too--actual sunshine or at least the "sunshine" you create--or better, a combination of the two!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Friday, September 21, 2018

September 21st, 2018 Chipping Away

September 21st, 2018 Chipping Away

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

One thing I've learned over the years is how most things don't change completely overnight. Some things do--but those things are usually the ones beyond our control. The things we work on--the intentional focus and attention toward better things take time to get firm; to develop and evolve, and that requires patience. My schedule and making sure I'm rested and ready for any particular day is one of the foundational things I'm working toward because it supports everything else.

I'm stubborn though--so breaking through to better habits and behaviors takes time! Writing this blog in the morning instead of at night was one move that'll help. Now--I must install some others!

I was doing some chores way too late last night--the laundry and such, also a store trip for some items I desperately needed (apples!) As I'm shopping, I'm thinking--on a work night when the alarm is set for 4:15am, I have zero business shopping anywhere around 10pm!! But there I was. It's okay for right now and today, but at least I'm looking at things instead of denying things. And truly, I'm chipping away at denial--and that means getting an unobstructed, or at least a better view of the truth. That right there is a big part of making changes.

Yesterday's Featured Tweets:


Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Thursday, September 20, 2018

September 20th, 2018 Fortifies

September 20th, 2018 Fortifies

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

When I write, "I stayed well connected with exceptional support," it means I'm communicating with people each day--some who have much more experience than me, some who are just getting started, and some who are close family and friends. I learn from each person. If I'm seeking support or giving support, the bottom line effect is often the same, it strengthens my day--it fortifies my daily practice.

The times of greatest struggle are the times when I decide to "go it alone." That natural inclination is interesting when I think about it, born from the "I got this" mindset--or a combination of that and the "they wouldn't understand or relate," mindset. Both of those mindsets aren't true. I don't "got this" and people do understand and relate. Isn't it amazing the stories we're capable of creating, believing, and living?

Today will be rather challenging-- I didn't sleep the best or long enough last night, but still--this work day demands my attention. Part of my self-care will be a refresher nap this afternoon. While I'm making this transition to a better schedule, I've had to reframe my head chatter about the occasional naps in the afternoon. Some days it's absolutely necessary. Could I survive without? Yes, certainly. I could make it through. But again, self-care--very important.

Tonight is the action plan portion of the 4-day, 4-hour goal intensive workshop I'm co-facilitating with Life Coach Gerri. It's really helping me identify some key things that will help me as I move toward the goals I visualize accomplishing. A part of that is crafting a better schedule to go along with this daily practice. Writing in the morning instead of at night is just one action in this process.

Have an amazing day!!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

September 19th, 2018 One Of Those Days

September 19th, 2018 One Of Those Days

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Last night was all about obstacles in the special workshop I'm co-facilitating with Life Coach Gerri. It felt nice to share about mine--past and present. I didn't sleep very well last night and considering the schedule I've created this week, that's not a good thing! This is one of those days when an afternoon nap will be a critically important element of my plan.

I'm keeping today's edition--at least what I'm writing this morning, short-- opting to post a couple of excerpts. This first excerpt comes from February 2009. I totally forgot about The Great Escape. The second excerpt comes from November 2017.

From February 20th, 2009: The Great Escape-
For too many years I felt imprisoned by my obesity. I guess I always realized that there was a way to escape, but the escape plan seemed too unlikely. Maybe impossible is the word. Maybe not impossible, I mean, really I knew it was possible, but escaping was just something I dreamed about and talked about when no one was looking or listening.

Like a prisoner behind bars, I just accepted that there were things I couldn't do as a 500-pound man, things I probably never would do, or so I thought.

I tried to escape several times, but I allowed my emotions, my fears, and my habits to drag me back like guard dogs at the gate. And just as an escapee gets extra time, I'd get extra pounds after every unsuccessful attempt.

Escaping from the prison of obesity forever isn't something that can be done without careful planning, understanding, and opening your mind to learn. Writing about my feelings and experiences every day and trying to grasp a thorough understanding of what hasn't worked and why, and what can work and why, is like studying the blueprints and guard assignments of the prison.

As I go from 505 pounds to a healthy weight, I'm breaking down every obstacle that stands in the way. What's amazing is, some of those obstacles, the psychological hang-ups--have lost their power over me like a guard giving a prisoner a wink and looking the other way.

And when I tell people “you can do this too,” it's like we're a group of prisoners planning our great escape. The teamwork and accountability to each other is a key element in seeing daylight here.

Unfortunately, not everyone will make it out this time. Some will get caught by emotions, stress, and a deep seeded belief that escaping is nearly impossible. But for those of us who do, our letters and stories of hope from the outside can serve to inspire the imprisoned and help them understand the blueprints and guard assignments a little better for future attempts.

I've been the one caught by the guards so many times. And when I would settle back in my cell, I'd just accept it for a little while, forgetting about the freedom others speak of, not wanting to hear about what was possible...just focusing on what I perceived as nearly impossible.

I was waiting for the right time to make my run.

Then one day I realized that I had to escape now or else die too young within those stone walls. I didn't have time to wait for “the right time” to magically happen. My time had to be now regardless of the emotional and psychological hurdles that stood in the way.

I'm navigating this escape plan with guidance from those that have gone before me. I'm always studying past escape attempts and analyzing where and why they failed. I can see daylight from here my friend, and it looks so good it makes me want to cry tears of joy.

Let's go for it!

November 10th, 2017: Bigger Points
This blog means so much to me and I'm so grateful for what it's brought me over the years. I guess I'm feeling a little nostalgic tonight. It's been an amazing 9 years. It's become a big part of my daily "rails of support" even on days when I don't have much to say--no weight loss philosophy or personal epiphanies to share--there's plenty of that stuff in the archives, and I'm certainly not done sharing in these pages--but, even on a day like today, to simply give thanks for this day--and for all I've been given--and just be-- just be okay--is a blessing to me.

I could write details about the maneuvering I've done and the choices made to keep the plan intact--but those things aren't the biggest points. I could share about the obstacles and challenges--and that old pull to dive into the food in pursuit of something it doesn't contain...oh yes--I could write 50,000 words on that topic... but not tonight--because it isn't the point.

Acceptance, embrace, peace, and calm. Those are the bigger points.

I wish those things for anyone and everyone as they work toward finding their own unique "You Plan." It's a fragile thing, those things because they require daily practice--and they do because they're not an automatic-guaranteed type deal. Anyway-- I said no philosophy or epiphanies tonight, so I'll stop now.

This is a diary--and I can share whatever I desire--whatever I need to share. I don't know. 

Maybe I'm missing my little brother tonight. Perhaps I'm thinking about my dad, whom I haven't spoken to in some time-- or maybe the sadness on mom's face as she kissed her sister goodbye-- a sadness she carried back to her room when I took her back tonight-- I don't know. 

Maybe nostalgic wasn't the right word. I don't know. For whatever reason, just feeling emotional tonight. I'm feeling it. I'm not eating it. And considering my years of experience with the fruitless pursuit of emotional eating, that's one thing I'll consider a miracle.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

September 18th, 2018 Don't Know

September 18th, 2018 Don't Know

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Good morning! I woke with a grateful and optimistic attitude. I've discovered how, when I practice visiting my gratitude list, things go better--I feel better.

Creating my vision board for the goal intensive workshop I'm doing with Life Coach Gerri has been a really good thing for me to see. It's more than a "dream board," it's a positive reminder of the goals I'm very capable of accomplishing with a committed action plan, an action plan that's broken down into doable steps and actions each day, an open mind for learning, and patience for the process.

When I'm trying something new--anything really, my brain will often try to hijack the actions needed, replacing them with doubt or alternative ways of creating the outcome I desire. I guess it does that as a"I know what to do" type of response. But honestly, when it comes to growth, accomplishing certain goals on my list, and any kind of change required to move in that direction, I clearly don't know, or I would have already done it. An open mind to new-to-me techniques and being okay with not needing to know "the how," is critically important. If I do the actions, the how reveals itself along the way.

The first night of the goal intensive went really well. Tonight it's all about obstacles! Oh my, it's going to be a good night.

Work has been intense lately for various reasons. I'm practicing a diligence at the studio--a focus that's on a level I haven't had in some time because right now is a critical time. It's important for me to compartmentalize my energy each day. When I'm "on the clock," I must be productive and time managed. This tighter focus has helped me see where I can apply this practice in other areas of my life.

Anyway-- I better get going. Another day is in front of me!!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Monday, September 17, 2018

September 17th, 2018 Productive

September 17th, 2018 Productive

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Gerri and I had a very productive work session yesterday as we continue to prepare for this week's goal intensive teleconference line workshop. There's still room for you! Email me right away if you want details on how to join us! It's simple. transformation.road@gmail.com

Gerri coached me years ago through the process of writing my book, Transformation Road, and also at several points along the way over the last ten years. I'm very grateful she's coming out of retirement for this special event! It's fast-- 4-days and 4-hours, but it will be powerful!

I spent some time last evening with mom and Noah. Mom and I made the trip to pick up little man for dinner and a store trip. It wasn't a long outing but it was quality time together. Quality over quantity! He's growing up incredibly fast. Every time we get together with him we notice signs of his continued learning. 

We dined at a Mexican place--and for me and my food plan, it works very well. I prepare chicken fajita and sour cream crunchy tacos--oh my, always satisfying, delicious, and easy to log into MyFitnessPal! 

Today will be an involved workday at the studio before tonight's workshop. I have a couple of special projects to complete plus a midday taping of the cable access TV show I host for the school district. Staying on point with my schedule will be today's challenge with appointments at 11am, noon, and 2pm. My big goal today will be an exercise session this afternoon after work and before tonight's workshop.

My food plan is set, my morning foundational routine is complete, and I'm ready to make this day work well.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Sunday, September 16, 2018

September 16th, 2018 Things Change

September 16th, 2018 Things Change

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

On September 15th, 2008, the same day I started this blog, Lehman Brothers went bankrupt. It was the financial crash of 2008. I discovered this yesterday and found this shared date rather interesting. That day was a pivotal day for many people.

I thought about the choices and behaviors creating 505 pound Sean and how on September 15th, 2008, it all arrived at a pivotal moment. Lehman Brothers, I'm sure, gave much more thought to their choices and behaviors leading up to that day. The road to recovery for me (and the economy) hasn't been a straight line but the trends in the charts and graphs look very promising ten years later!

I guess it's all an example of how there's hope for better days. No matter how deep, no matter how lost, no matter how disconnected we feel, there's hope.

Things change. The truth asserts itself until change happens with or without our intent or action. Usually, if the change occurs without our intent or action, it isn't pleasant or even the least bit desirable. This is where my mantra, slogan, or whatever you want to call it, came from: "I'm Choosing Change Before Change Chooses Me."  Because let's be honest, change is constant--it's coming one way or the other, right?

I sincerely enjoyed every single congratulation and word of support I received about yesterday's 10th Anniversary, or, uh-"blogiversary," as it's called in the blogging world. Thank you!! I'm grateful, humble, and I appreciate your kindness!

I'm working on the goal intensive workshop today with Life Coach Gerri. I'm so excited about her coming out of retirement to work with me again. She's one of the best and that's what makes this workshop extra-special. I'm co-facilitating and co-presenting, however, I'm also a student of this workshop. I'll be working on my goals right alongside you.  If you're interested in this four day-four hour goal intensive workshop, let me know as soon as possible so we can get you registered and ready for tomorrow evenings first session!
The 1-hour workshop sessions start on a secure conference call line at 7pm central/8pm eastern/5pm pacific each night this week, Monday, Tuesday, skip Wednesday, then again Thursday, and Friday.
Here's a promotional video!

If you're ready to once and for all take action toward smashing obstacles and accomplishing goals, I want you in this 4-day/4-hour workshop!
Text/call with questions: 580-491-2228 Or email me: transformation.road@gmail.com

Okay! I'm ready for a good Sunday. I plan on doing a little bit of work at the studio--then working a good amount of time with Gerri on the workshop, and then, I'll be spending some time with mom this evening for dinner and a store trip.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean





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