Wednesday, May 22, 2019

May 22nd, 2019 Willingness

May 22nd, 2019 Willingness

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

As the storms continue and the flood waters continue to rise, the news stories keep coming--horrible stories of people losing their lives to flooding, mostly. The National Weather Service and the Transportation Department make urgent pleas for media to constantly remind drivers to never "try to make it," across standing water--"turn around, don't drown," is the mantra--and we (media) say it constantly, but still--some don't hear it or heed it, to tragic consequences. The more stories I see and report about on the air, the less I'm inclined to complain about how the weather has affected my schedule lately. I'm safe, I don't live anywhere near a flood-prone area, and we've dodged the most violent storms. I have a lot of reasons to be grateful.

I'm staying connected with my plan, with others, and with my job--and right now, that's been about the best I can do.

Irene (known as Nana to our grandkids), Allen, and Noah came over early yesterday afternoon for a little while. Their power was recently restored after a huge outage and they needed to retrieve their things from my freezer. Coming home to their visit was a blessing. Every time I see Noah or any of my grandkids, I notice how quickly they're growing. It's a reminder for me to make more time for spending time with them. Noah will be six years old in early July--and my goodness, that doesn't seem possible.

Too many times, I would minimize the importance of the day or moment.  The rationalizations would come fast and easy, ready to let me off the hook long enough to lose sight of the big picture.  The enormity of the “rest of my life” would indeed make the moment seem small and insignificant, but beware:  These moments where the integrity of our iron-clad decision is compromised are huge.  The choices we’re making create physical and mental consequences.  The mental impact comes first, the physical impact comes when these days and moments of “insignificance” are compounded over time.  Your transformation is too important.  The strength of your resolve in this day and moment is paramount.  And it's not the resolve to "just do it," because if you're like me--addiction doesn't work that way because will power isn't a good defense. Instead of "resolve," I like "willingness." The strength of your willingness to build the structure of "rails" around your plan is key. This is very important because you’re extremely important.


Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Tuesday, May 21, 2019

May 21st, 2019 Aftermath

May 21st, 2019 Aftermath

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The aftermath of the storms here in Oklahoma continues to take its toll. Widespread flooding has affected thousands. The city where my youngest daughter and three of my grandkids live just had their power restored after more than 24 hours without electricity or water. I'm so glad it's been restored. The kids are doing fine. I offered for them to come to my place, but they were okay--and happy now that it's back on.

I didn't sleep well last night at all. It was a short night of rest. A tight schedule this afternoon didn't allow for a very long nap, either. I think a 30-minute nap is almost worse than no nap!

But--all things considered, it's been a really good day. The sun shone today. It was picture perfect weather, a huge contrast to yesterday's mess.

I'm going to bed early tonight. No threat of storms, so I'm seizing the opportunity! Good dinner tonight, by the way...


Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Monday, May 20, 2019

May 20th, 2019 Long Night

May 20th, 2019 Long Night

Yesterday was a 5-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, I enjoyed a good 30-minute elliptical workout, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

It's ten minutes until 11pm and I just got in from work. It's been a long night of weather coverage. We're experiencing significant flooding, however, we dodged the most severe storms in our state. Grateful for that!

My brain is done for the night. Looking forward to writing a long update blog post tomorrow. The alarm comes early in the morning, I'm hitting the pillow!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Sunday, May 19, 2019

May 19th, 2019 Much More Time

May 19th, 2019 Much More Time

Yesterday was a 5-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Today's workout on the new elliptical at the RecPlex was fantastic. I must spend much more time at that place! Cutting it short tonight--dropping in bed!

Mom and I spent some time together this evening. Our weekly outing to dinner followed by a nice drive and conversation was a good one.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Saturday, May 18, 2019

May 18th, 2019 Too Fast

May 18th, 2019 Too Fast

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

This day, my goodness--long one. It started early with a location broadcast that was immediately canceled followed by covering weather at the studio--and then tonight, I did a last minute gig playing music for a wedding reception. The person the wedding party originally hired had to cancel at the last minute. I'm not a fan of eating dinner at midnight, but I did. I kept it simple--did a breakfast for dinner type thing. I'm usually better prepared. I did grab some cheese and a banana as a holdover--and was going to grab some almonds too, but the convenience store was out of every kind except flavored almonds with, you guessed it: refined sugar. I skipped the almonds.

The way back into town from the reception was dicey. I was driving on muddy roads in the middle of a thunderstorm. I almost lost control of the car. I wasn't driving fast--or at least I didn't think I was driving fast--but obviously, I was driving too fast for the conditions. I'm home, safe and sound. Grateful.

Super tired and headed to bed. No alarm will be set. I shall rest!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Friday, May 17, 2019

May 17th, 2019 Separate Power Source

May 17th, 2019 Separate Power Source

Yesterday was a 5-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I had a good elliptical workout at the RecPlex, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

If I had kept this diary prior to September 15th, 2008, it would have revealed someone desperate for some kind of life-saving solution.

One of the biggest and scariest thoughts I had back then centered around the idea that life will always contain stressful and emotional situations. These things may change in shape and size and with consequences big and small, but they will always be a part of a balanced and normal life.

It was a scary revelation because I had decided, concretely, that I couldn't in any way, shape or form--lose weight successfully unless everything was smooth sailing, every day, every week and so on.

I accepted, as fact: When the rain starts pouring, I start eating.

This perspective afforded me an endless supply of excellent excuses for why "now isn't a good time."

A "perfect time" is a myth. If I had waited for the perfect time, there's a good chance I wouldn't be alive today.

When someone asks me, what clicked on September 15th, 2008? It was truly the realization that if I was going to survive, I had to remain consistent come what may. I had to walk in the rain and not be afraid. I had to make an iron-clad decision that this time was going to be different from any other previous attempt.

No longer could I allow my resolve to be hard wired into the ups and downs of life. My resolve for the intentional actions of my daily practice required a separate power source.

For me, Day 1 was the start of my parallel streams philosophy. I just didn't know what to call it back then.

I found out what happens when I plug my importance level/resolve back into the ups and downs of life. My lifestream and fundamental elements stream crossed one another, and it didn't take too long for these to tangle in such a way, I felt more lost than ever before--and regained 164 pounds of my initial 275-pound weight loss. 'member that?

The turnaround from relapse/regain had to start with untangling the two streams and then adding additional measures to keep them separate, including more traditional practices in recovery and stronger accountability/support tools.

Dr. Marty Lerner, PhD, one of the world's leading experts on food addiction recovery, foreshadowed this entire experience in his review of Transformation Road, printed on the very first page of the book. He wrote: "Although incorporating some suggestions that run contrary to some recovered food addicts, Sean's experiences are worth learning about and considering."

Important questions, in my opinion, are: Where are we plugged in? Do we have a separate power source? The ups and downs of life provide a constant flow of energy, but if we're relying on it as the controlling power source of our day to day practice, we might be in for a back and forth ride.

How do we plug into a separate, more consistent, "come what may," power source? It's really a spiritual question, isn't it? That part is up to you. It's all up to you, actually. But as far as the intentional actions designed to help maintain a separate power source, I'd say it starts with outlining a few non-negotiable things. Making a daily "foundational" mental/emotional practice important can be a major difference maker. Simplify when you need to simplify, but hold the line on the non-negotiable parts.

I've witnessed people who are experiencing consistent positive progress through some of the most challenging times of their lives; through chronic pain, major life changes, serious health challenges, and unexpected happenings--and every single one, I have no doubt--can relate to this "separate power source" idea. When they say, "this would have derailed me once upon a time," and now it isn't, they're clearly plugged into a separate power source. The natural up and down flow of life isn't responsible for their progress anymore. 

These people, they're not super-human. They're just like you and me. They just utilize a consistent "back-up generator" for those times when the constantly flowing power of life gets inconsistent or temporarily goes out. Don't give up.   

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Thursday, May 16, 2019

May 16th, 2019 Zero Percent Chance

May 16th, 2019 Zero Percent Chance

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Our local RecPlex just installed brand new cardio equipment. Oh wow, it's good stuff! I made my way in this evening for a long-overdue round on the elliptical. This brand new elliptical is much more challenging! It was good. I kept listening to my most inspiring musical selections right into the grocery store after the workout--and I was groovin' up and down the aisles, feeling fantastic all over. In that mental and physical state, there's a zero percent chance of me selecting an off-plan item. It was a good reminder of how we can condition how we feel by what we do--what we "feed' our brain and bodies directly and powerfully affects our daily practice. Needed that.



Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Wednesday, May 15, 2019

May 15th, 2019 A Wonderful Thing

May 15th, 2019 A Wonderful Thing

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I waste too much lettuce. I buy it fresh, I use some--then I leave the rest, revisit it a few days later, and toss it because it's all yucky. I'm sure there are many tips for keeping lettuce longer--but I think my solution tonight was a good one. Eat it all! I enjoyed preparing dinner tonight and it started with a big ole bowl of lettuce. Press play on the Instagram post below to see the salad assembly.

I'm so glad I went to the doctor last week. He prescribed the perfect combination of meds. To be out of that pain is a wonderful thing.

I'm feeling well enough to give some good thought to reconnecting with a reasonable and consistent plan for exercise. I'm feeling rather positive and motivated--and that's good. Now--time for action!

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Tuesday, May 14, 2019

May 14th, 2019 Still Committed

May 14th, 2019 Still Committed

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Today was the best day so far in my trek to getting past this sinus infection stuff. I'm still committed to taking all the medication! My doctor stressed the importance of finishing the prescription.

I was up until almost one am last night covering strong storms. They developed unexpectedly--well, I suppose there was a chance, but I'd written off the possibility until I heard the crack of thunder, checked the radar, and realized I needed to do something. It made for a tiring day today. I'm headed to bed early for a change. I need a good night's sleep! 



Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Monday, May 13, 2019

May 13th, 2019 Variety of Ways

May 13th, 2019 Variety of Ways

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

It feels like two steps forward, one step back with this feeling better stuff. I felt great yesterday afternoon and evening, then this afternoon, not as well. I took a nap, woke, and felt better. The medicine is clearly working--doing its thing. I'll keep it up.

I made time for Noah's t-ball game tonight. I love watching him out there. It brings such joy watching him be joyful. He had a great hit tonight too and scored a run! Go, Noah!




















You can always tell when I find something on sale, like the top sirloin of late, or the red grapes that made it into my food plan for all three meals today. It was a good food day.

When I share food pics like this I run the risk of coming off like it's all about the food. When I share pictures contrasting 500-pound me versus healthy weight me I run the risk of coming off like it's all about the scale and physical transformation. But those things aren't what it's all about.

It's about food sobriety. When we're giving food sobriety the reverence it requires, those things take care of themselves. Do I have a good "program" in traditional recovery? No, to be frankly honest, I don't. I'm working on strengthening my personal program. How we feel about ourselves, what we believe about ourselves, what we're missing inside--what we didn't get, what we don't give ourselves--all of it creates an emotional and spiritual deficit, a hole if you will. To not stuff that hole with food is to be sober. We can give ourselves enough rails of support to be sober "enough," and still not have a good program of recovery--and that's what people in recovery circles call being "dry." A lot of times, I fit the "dry" description much more than the "recovery" description. Often times, that empty feeling is pinned on circumstantial or in the moment things and happenings, but really--in my opinion and experience, it goes deeper. Much deeper. This is why I'm making weekly therapy sessions important right now.

And in answer to some questions I've recently received via email, it's why I'm not doing more than I'm doing at the moment. "Why are you not releasing new episodes of your podcast?" "Why don't you expand your one on one and group mentoring/coaching clientele?" "When will you do another live YouPlan Workshop?"  These are all things I love and things I want to do more of, in time. Right now, I'm doing what I can do. I'm careful not to over-extend myself. I think that's smart. And truly, the work I'm doing right now is helping prepare me to be better at those things.

The learning never stops, nor should it. I'll never have it "all figured out," all I can hope for is to have a good, solid daily practice of food-sobriety and a more solid grasp on recovery. One thing you can count on here is I'll share it along the way, in a variety of ways, just like I've done the last ten-plus years.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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