Thursday, November 15, 2018

November 15th, 2018 Hence The Name

November 15th, 2018 Hence The Name

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I got some good rest yesterday. I felt much better later in the day. I was still not feeling 100%, but good enough to believe I'm not coming down with anything--and that's a good thing. I don't need that right now! I feel well rested and ready for my Thursday.

I stayed in all day and evening, too. No exercise for me yesterday and that was okay. I got what I needed.

I picked the URL to this blog on the night of September 15th, 2008. I'm not a big fan of it now, years later, and I cringe a little while typing it out when someone asks for the address. "losingweighteveryday dot blogspot dot com" doesn't reflect what this blog has become for me. Had I known, I would have selected something different--but I couldn't have known at the time. I was on a mission to lose weight and I was committed to posting about it every day, hence the name.

What can I do about it? Well--I know it can't be changed, I've checked. But--I can use another domain name (I have a couple parked--that I've never used) to host this blog. I may do that soon. That might be a Christmas gift from me to me. I'll let you know!

I'm tempted to write much more this morning as a follow up to yesterday's post but I simply don't have the time this morning. I will, soon. It'll be more about how this thing here is more about a daily practice in recovery instead of a diet.

I'm planned, packed, and ready for a good Thursday. I'm the "local celebrity" bingo caller this evening at an elementary school fundraiser. This will be the fourth school to request my bingo calling services. It's for a good cause, so I don't mind at all. It'll be fun! I give it my all when I do these--and I think word spreads--"hey, let's get Sean!"

I have many things deserving of my gratitude this morning. Working through those things and focusing on gratitude prompts each day has been a big plus for me lately.

I better run.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Wednesday, November 14, 2018

November 14th, 2018 Best Option

November 14th, 2018 Best Option

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I wasn't feeling my best yesterday morning but I ignored it and felt better throughout the day. I had a good evening last night complete with an earlier dinner and another 5K walk on the indoor track at the YMCA. This morning, however, I'm not feeling well at all. I was awake a lot during the night and as I made it upright this morning, realized why. I haven't taken a sick day from work in a while and I don't like to do that, but it's the best option for me this morning. I'll stay home and take care of me today.

January 2011-YMCA
Speaking for the hospital's Lose To Win kick-off event














The indoor walking track at the YMCA overlooks the gym floor. As I exercised last night and the night before, I couldn't keep from looking down at the gym and remembering one of my favorite speaking opportunities from years ago. It's hard to believe it's been seven years since that special night. I used some visual aids for that event. I came out wearing an outfit from my 505 pound days. I had two assistants, one on each side, holding up my pants as I pushed a grocery cart containing a representation of the pounds lost; 275 pounds of Velveeta. I made it to the microphone and dropped the big clothing before launching into my speech. It was memorable for me and many of those attending. To this day, I still run into people who bring it up in conversation. 

I look at that gym floor and the pictures and I'm reminded of how fun that was, but it also reminds me of how much I had to learn and experience well after that night. 2011 contained several big and small speaking engagements, including several for YMCA of Oklahoma, Kansas, and a big one for YMCA USA at their big mid-states conference in Kansas City. That year concluded with the release of my book, Transformation Road--and honestly, I believe my mindset was there's no turning back now. 

Of course, we both know how things unfolded. I did turn back. It was an important turn, too. I'm truly grateful for the entire experience. I needed it in so many ways. A good and powerful humbling clears away a lot of things, opening up opportunities for the most transformative kind of growth process. 

To this day, I stand 100% behind every perspective, tip, trick, and experience shared in those speaking engagements and in my book. Those things are still valid. Things I discovered about me along the way involved a better understanding of my personal truth of food addiction and compulsive over-eating. There will be another, very different book one day- I assure you.

The truth helped shift me away from a good diet plan of action into a plan of recovery. It's still a work in progress--and it always will be, because no matter who we are, who we think we are, or what we've experienced or think we know, we're all at the same place with a personal daily plan of action. A practice to help us through one more day. There's always more to learn along this road.  

In the foreword to my book, philosopher Ralph Marston wrote, "Truth is powerful. The more you seek to hide from it, the more forcefully it asserts itself, until you eventually cannot deny it. The moment you put truth on your side, all sorts of possibilities open up to you." 

Yes, sir. That's powerful stuff right there.

I'm sitting here in bed, using my laptop to put this post together and feeling absolutely crummy. I'll use this day to rest and recuperate from whatever is going on. I'm grateful for my colleague Gayle this morning, she's filling in for me today.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Tuesday, November 13, 2018

November 13th, 2018 Worthy Of Enthusiasm

November 13th, 2018 Worthy Of Enthusiasm

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

When we're "in it" we're not "out of it." My prayer each morning is for the willingness and strength to remain "in it." It, being, my personal plan of recovery. It's always a work in progress but if I remain willing to be in it instead of out of it, there's progress.

A support friend of mine recently mentioned how I don't post as many pictures as I once did. We were talking about the recent decline in the number of people reading this daily diary. I immediately rattled off a few reasons for posting fewer pictures, the big one being: If I focus too heavy on pictures it might take away from the message I'm trying to share. More pictures, to me, seemed to lean toward more of a diet mentality with all the food pics and side by side comparison photos and such. I'm deeply passionate about this not being a diet. The key for me over the years hasn't been dieting--the key for me has been a perspective based on an imperfect but still mostly effective, perspective of recovery. A diet is temporary. Recovery, one day at a time, is something that can last, long-term. Breaking or cheating on a diet is accepted--it happens. Breaking or relapsing from recovery carries a much greater sense of consequence. The importance is in creating a personal and unique plan that fits well enough to actually enjoy, a plan worthy of enthusiasm.

And that's what he mentioned, "enthusiasm." I'm not quoting because it was a phone conversation and I can't remember his exact words--but he mentioned how my enthusiasm for the process each day was something that brought him "along for the ride" and ultimately helped inspire him. The pictures help show that enthusiasm for the process--for the day to day road we're traveling.

He made an excellent point. I am enthused!! When I have a good day, I feel great. When I'm staying connected with support and with my plan, I feel better. I'll share more photos.

I had planned on attending a support meeting last night but it was canceled because of the wintery weather we received yesterday. I shifted into an alternate plan for yesterday evening-- the store for some fish, a workout, a short visit with mom, and home to prepare a good dinner. The workout was a 5K walk inside the warm YMCA on their indoor track. I listened to some inspiring stories while I walked--it was a really good experience. In the name of enthusiasm, I even snapped a bathroom mirror selfie.



















Yeah... that was my primal, "let's do this" roar!! It was a fantastic, brisk, and thanks to the material I was listening to, inspiring walk.

I experienced some really good support exchanges yesterday, too. It was nice! A good day, indeed.



















Today, as a broadcaster, I'll host a local bakery in-studio. They're bringing a bunch of food--every single thing, not on my food plan. And that's okay. This isn't the first time. It's an annual event right before Thanksgiving. I'm comfortable and enthused about what my plan brings me each day. I wouldn't trade my continued recovery for any of their offerings. As a broadcaster, I'll do my job well and promote their amazing creations. And they are amazing. For a lot of people, it's not a big deal to occasionally indulge in these things, especially at holiday time. For me, however, remaining abstinent and true to my daily practice is imperative for the peace, stability, and continued maintenance I live each day.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Monday, November 12, 2018

November 12th, 2018 Overflows

November 12th, 2018 Overflows

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The weekend was a good one! What made it good was a balance. I made time for things important for my self-care, I made time for others in support, and I made time for family. I did a little work, too, but not as much as other busier weekend schedules--and that was a good thing.

Mom and I made our way over for a visit last evening with my youngest daughter, Noah, Oliver, and Phoebe. My goodness, it was cuteness overload! There's no better reminder of why I do what I do each day than spending time with my grandkids. My daily practice helps keep me well so I can have the best chance of being in their lives for many years to come.

My disease is a selfish one. All the years I was "in the food," I wasn't thinking of the long-term consequences. I wasn't thinking about how much the food-focus was slowly killing me and how it was taking away from the ones I loved each day. I was simply serving my food addiction and compulsive overeating behaviors. For me, the daily practice I now make important frees the mental space I need in order to consider very important people and things in my life. Food is part of my life but it isn't my life. 



















Noah loves reading. That makes me smile big! He took me to his room where I asked about his favorite toys and he told me, "video games, books, and dinosaurs." Books? I don't remember those being in my top three as a five-year-old. He asked, "next time will you take me to the library?" Uh, yeah, of course!! My goodness, my heart overflows for this little man.

I don't think I had a picture with Courtney and all three of her children until last night. It's hard to wrangle them all together at one moment sometimes.



















Oh my, these precious babies! Po Po is wearing Noah's Pikachu stocking cap because I'm cool like that.

Mom and I enjoyed a good dinner out after the visit and finished our evening with a fast run around Walmart. Yesterday evening was a nice finish to a good weekend.

Today should be a decent Monday. My food is planned, my morning foundational routine is done, and I'm visualizing a good one.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Sunday, November 11, 2018

November 11th, 2018 Respect And Honor

November 11th, 2018 Respect And Honor

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

This is a special day. Veterans Day to me is met with enormous gratitude for all who have served our country. My dad and both my grandfathers served in wartime. They witnessed their friends perish on the battlefields and in the Pacific--and somehow, they survived against the odds of fate. They bravely fought and survived. I think about how their actions in battle very likely saved others. All who served deserve exceptional respect and honor, today and always.



















I remember watching war movies as a kid and not being able to process the level of bravery it must take to face the circumstances these men faced. When I grew older and learned of my dad's and my grandfather's service, I was immediately filled with a sense of gratitude, respect, and also enormous pride to be the son and grandson of these brave men. It meant a lot to me because I didn't feel brave at all, ever, but knowing that somewhere deep in my DNA there might be this level of courage and bravery, somehow gives me a measure of hope for challenges in my life. My challenges will never be on the level they faced during wartime. I'm grateful. I'm proud of these men close to me--and proud of--and quite honestly, in awe of all those who served. Again, if that's you, thank you.

I'm enjoying my food plan lately. I've made changes, as you know if you're a regular reader, and it seems to be going well. I've made changes to my list of trigger foods and I've discovered how I can be satisfied with smaller meal portions. The ongoing struggle in the exercise department continues, however, I'm focusing on the long-term and this enables me to not be so self-critical in the moment. As long as that perspective doesn't enable me to not change, I'll be okay. I am making changes, action plans, and looking at things differently--and I'm listening to, watching, and learning from others. Keeping an open mind, fresh for a change, is a big plus along this road.

I do not know it all. I've never known it all. My daily practice isn't and has never been perfect--and that's okay. One of the biggest positive things is admitting that fact--because then, I'm/we're in a position to grow and evolve. And isn't that what this road is all about? Progress, not perfection?

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Saturday, November 10, 2018

November 10th, 2018 Best Decision

November 10th, 2018 Best Decision

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Yesterday's funeral service for our friend and long-time broadcasting colleague, Illene, was beautiful. I think there were things many of us discovered about her that we didn't know. Fascinating things about her life experience and how her remarkable brain worked on a unique artistic frequency. She was an exceptional human full of love and compassion for everyone she met. When she asked, How are you doing? She really wanted to know. I think that's a rare quality in this world. She had "it," beautifully.

The spread of food available afterward was beautifully presented in the fellowship hall of St. Andrews. I surveyed the choices and made the decision to wait and eat later. I certainly could have enjoyed some veggies, cheese, and a few other things--but having checked my production work prior to making the trip, I was more interested in getting back to the studio and focusing on finishing the day. Gayle (She's the morning show host and program director of the station across the hall from mine) did the driving (I was so grateful) and in-turn, I grabbed the two of us some coffee for the return trip.

It's weird really. Upon our return, my focus wasn't on food. Instead, I organized my production work in a neat little stack--mentally prepared the order of importance, and methodically went about getting things done. I kept reminding myself to break for a late lunch-- but I just kept working until it was done. Maybe it was the Starbucks coffee--not sure, but I was neither hungry or the least bit concerned about food. I don't recommend this, by the way. It was an unusual schedule circumstance for me. Keeping a good meal schedule helps keep me balanced. If I get too hungry, it can become a trigger for not so great choices. But occasionally, when the schedule calls for it, I seem to be able to adjust my perspective enough to be okay. I did send a text to my primary support contact as a way to "bookend" my plan of action. That always helps!

I made a store trip on the way home to grab what I needed, arriving at my apartment a little before 6pm. I prepared "lunch for dinner," some tostadas (big surprise, I know!). At this point, I basically just relaxed--took a mental break if you will. I enjoyed my on-plan meal while watching part of a documentary on Netflix. I canceled my dinner and Bohemian Rhapsody plans and informed Mom that I would not see her until Saturday afternoon. I still wasn't completely convinced of a plan for the rest of the night, but I was certainly preparing myself to make the best decision for me. Normally, even late like this, I'd grab a short nap in the name of "doing things later tonight," but really, I didn't want to do anything last night. I decided my bed looked really inviting. I ended up in bed by 7:30 and fell asleep quickly. It was the best decision. It also might be a record early bedtime for me on a Friday night.

I was awake at 4:30 this morning, feeling well rested and ready for a good Saturday. I completed my morning routine without the rush from the thought of I got to get ready for work- it was great.

I have a two-station "dual" location broadcast today from 11am-1pm from the grocery store that books us on a regular basis. I like these broadcasts because they work very well for the client, first of all--and for me personally, it provides the opportunity to shop while I work!! Basically, I'm getting paid to grocery shop the best deals around--and they give me the employee discount at checkout as a nice little "thank you" bonus! I'm hoping they have more Zestar apples in stock. I'll tell you, those recently became my absolute favorite apples!!

I'm preparing a good on-plan breakfast soon, getting some things done for me this morning, and organizing my thoughts and schedule for today. I'm planning on making it a good one. 

One thing that's really bugged me lately is how something has changed in the way this blog is visibly distributed. I think Facebook has changed something, I'm not sure-- all I know is, the readership of late has dramatically dropped by several hundred a day. Since you're reading this-- you found it--that's good, I'm glad. I'm not too worried because I must always, first and foremost, write this blog for me--regardless of who else does or doesn't read what I share. This is something I've made important from the Day 1 post over ten years ago when I wrote:  "I look forward to this blog. I believe it will help me stay on track and maybe along the way it will inspire someone else to stay on track." It certainly helps accomplish that for me. And occasionally, I hear from folks who share with me how it's helped them--and that's a beautiful thing. It's a gift returned to me and I don't ever take it for granted or lightly in any way, shape, or form.

When I see others referred to as "weight-loss influencers," people with a couple years in, enormous personal progress, and a million followers--first of all, I check myself--and realize, I'm truly happy for them--but also, it makes me question my social media savvy. I do feel like I have a voice and an important point of view along this road and naturally, I'd like to share it with more people. I've just never been technically savvy on the approach. I'll think about that. In the meantime, I'm well. And truly, for me, that's all that matters. One day at a time, right?

Sincerely,
Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Friday, November 9, 2018

November 9th, 2018 Woke Willing

November 9th, 2018 Woke Willing

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

As I hit the pillow last night, I felt good about the day. I accomplished some things. I did make it to the grocery store and that helped me prepare a good meal last night. Making sure I have what I need when I need it is always an important element of my plan.

I stayed well connected yesterday. Support friends become lifelines in moments that would otherwise send me reeling back into the food. There are certain truths along this road. One is, if ever I start thinking I have this all figured out and I can go it alone--that's the beginning of the end. It's happened that way every single time. It doesn't matter how long I have behind me. It doesn't matter how much experience. It doesn't matter how well I maintained my daily practice yesterday. Each day requires a reset that starts with my humble declaration of needing help and guidance to get me through another day. Of all the things I've learned and experienced along the way, this realization about the fragility of it all--and how I don't simply "got this," is likely the most important. All I got is my willingness to continue this daily practice. Today, I woke willing. 

In my experience, it's critically important to take pause for not only deciding on your on-plan approach in particular circumstances but also pausing to remind yourself of the importance of you and how your plan boundaries are set to ultimately take extraordinary care of you. Clearly defining those boundaries has been paramount to the consistency of my plan.

Maintaining the boundaries of our non-negotiable elements fosters growth in every other area of this process. When we disregard those boundaries, it stunts our growth and the result is often: We feel stuck and feel like we're doing the same thing over and over.

If consistently maintaining the boundaries of our plan is what brings growth and a natural evolution of the plan--and that consistency is what brings about positive progress, then we must first look at the plan--and make sure it's something we can maintain.

If it's too extreme, we're setting ourselves up for disappointment.

If we start small and with simplicity, and it's something we can work with inside the boundaries of the plan--that's when something magical starts happening. The challenge becomes the action of releasing judgment for what we might perceive to be an imperfect or incomplete plan--when all we're trying to do is get started from a place where consistency is the focus--and trusting that this approach will allow for a natural evolution of our plan. On the opposite side: If we decide we can't move forward unless everything is perfect within some elaborate "ideal" plan, we're setting ourselves up for a serious struggle with starts and stops.

One of the biggest threats to my consistency is emotion/stress levels.

One thing that's really helped me in this area is to examine not only my current state of mind and emotion but also my expectations for food at any particular moment.

Do I expect it to take me away from and improve emotional/stressful circumstances?

Or do I expect it to simply provide energy and nourish me physically?

Looking at my own expectations pushes me in the direction I need to make more progress toward handling things in ways that truly work, instead of me constantly relying on and believing that escaping into the food will help.

The food does provide a temporary reprieve from the circumstances at hand, but it's never improved the things I avoid, ever. In fact, when I turn to food for these things, it compounds my issues. I try to remember that often.

My continued recovery depends on the daily practice of my plan. I must always stay connected with support. The act of seeking and giving support is paramount. I can't do it alone. I don't know anyone who has done it alone in any kind of long-term sustainable way.

I often refer to the different elements of my plan as my "rails of support." I hold onto those rails every day. If ever I wake and say, "look, no hands," get ready to witness a hard fall.

My best advice is: Consistency Beats Intensity.

And the number one way to achieve consistency is by way of simplicity. Keep it simple!!!

Simple, simple, simple...It is crucial to maintaining consistency. We're the ones who make the rules--if we keep the rules simple to follow--then our chances of maintaining consistency goes up dramatically. And as we develop along the way--we can get as fancy and as specialized as we want and need, when we're ready.

It's a natural evolution of good choices. Not a sudden and dramatic change where we expect to be a completely different person as soon as we wake up to our pre-determined start day.

Don't be afraid to start small. Starting small and simple is a path to sustainable and consistent positive results. If you'll apply the patience needed for this approach and forget about the time it takes, you'll discover something amazing. Your "You Plan" will evolve in a very natural fashion. Your consistent positive progress will make your positive visualizations more believable because you'll clearly see where this is headed!! And where you're headed is a place where freedom lives. All kinds of freedom; physical, emotional, psychological, and more!

My focus on consistency isn't long term. It's today. I want to make today a good day. I want to hit the pillow tonight, knowing that I gave it my best shot--my honest to goodness, best. Not perfect, mind you--rather, the best I could do today. I want to do that again tomorrow. It feels good!!

Big-time accomplishments are not done all at once. It's a collection of much smaller accomplishments contributing in a positive way to the bigger goal ahead.

Set small, doable goals--and hit them square with everything you can. And acknowledge your accomplishments along the way. Feel good about you!!! You'll get back some wonderful results in return.

This whole thing is really the age-old tale of the tortoise Vs. the hare. You remember who won that race? The consistency of the tortoise beat the over-confidence and intensity of the hare.

You get what you give. Just try to make sure what you're giving is something you can keep giving--something doable for you--something sustainable, something to get excited about!!!

Surround yourself with support. Be kind to you. Remember: This isn't about perfection, it's about progress. One of the biggest barriers can be that voice inside our own head--the mental chatter speaking negatives and untruths. You can shut that voice down when you take it slow, steady, small, and simple. You'll gain consistency and lose weight.

Our entire broadcast company will gather today to lay to rest our friend and colleague, Illene Ozment. We will join her family and friends in Stillwater for the service. There will be a dinner immediately after the service. As far as my personal plan goes, I will survey the choices and decide to eat or wait, depending on what's available. I know the boundaries of my plan. I'll remember those.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Thursday, November 8, 2018

November 8th, 2018 Snooze

November 8th, 2018 Snooze

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I straight up overslept this morning! I have just enough time for my morning routine today. It wasn't in the quiet and relaxed fashion I prefer, but it's accomplished. The snooze button is not my friend!

Yesterday was a good one. I had an opportunity to visit with my youngest daughter, just the two of us yesterday afternoon, and that was great. I'm so proud of her. We rarely make the time to simply have a good conversation--and we did that yesterday. It felt great.

The opening night of group calls for the holiday session of my accountability and support group was a good experience too. I ended up preparing a late dinner, opting to keep it simple with a "breakfast for dinner" option. It was either that or a store run (which must happen today) and I didn't want to get out too late.

Throwback Thursday Picture from eight years ago:

 










Wow. Eight years ago. Really? Time moves quickly, doesn't it?

Going into the archives for today's edition, I found a post I want to share again. I hope it resonates with you:

I did a quick grocery run tonight after my group support calls. I really enjoy the act of making sure I have what I need when I need it. I feel most connected with my food plan when I'm in the store doing the shopping. I'm the same guy that many times carried a very different perspective into the store and I'm still capable of going into a store with a completely different perspective if I relent on the daily practice that helps keep me well.

I think a positive trip depends on the intention and expectation I carry through those automatic doors. If my intention is to buy things supportive of my plan with the expectation that it will provide what I need in order to maintain the integrity of my food plan in the coming days, then it's a completely different experience. If my intention is driven by the gravitational pull of compulsive over-eating and my expectation is that it'll somehow "fix" something or fill a void of some kind, then I'm off the rails and to the races, straight into a depressive cycle where the expectations are never met. Food is not a fixer.  

An exchange with a reader from the archives:

"I have never been able to not go off the wagon with food choices when I'm out of my routine. Say like a birthday, holiday, etc....and the much bigger problem for me is it's an opportunity to go nuts for a few days after that too. It takes that long for me to reel myself back in. Or another one is something happens to me that upsets me and I've always used food to numb myself. I can't figure out how not to. So what I'm saying in the long version is how do I gain those tools? It's just not happening for me."

My reply:

Thank you for sharing your struggle. You're not alone.

One thing that's helped me is making sure my plan is something I enjoy--in other words, I'm loving the foods I "get" to eat, every day. It isn't something I dread. What happens is, when my perception and expectation of what it means for me to be "on plan," is something I can easily live with, I'm less likely inclined to take a vacation or holiday from it. There's no desire to flee from deprivation into an anything goes type situation--because I don't feel deprived.

Now-- here's the rub:

Even with this "I'm loving it" plan in place, what you described still happens...

My abstinence from refined sugar may have very well turned off the "binge switch," those biochemical reactions in the addictive part of my brain--but what it doesn't stop is, my natural inclination to seek comfort in excess food when times get stressful and emotional. It takes a separate action plan to deal with that.

And it doesn't stop it to simply say, "excess food doesn't solve anything--it doesn't help resolve issues--it isn't a fixer--it's simply a temporary diversion--a distraction from our real experiences..." Does it help? The only help it provides is that temporary distraction from whatever is weighing heavy on our minds at any given moment. BUT AGAIN-- saying that, processing it, agreeing with it 100%, still doesn't stop the tendency to dive in when we're feeling those things.


One thing to remember: Feelings have a beginning and an end. Whatever it is, will come and go--weigh heavy, then subside--be on the forefront of your consciousness and then fade back into your sub-consciousness. When you're feeling like buffering your emotions with food--remember that this will pass...the moment will evolve and change...and in the meantime, while it's pressing: Find support asap!!!!

This is the most critical element I've discovered along my path: Building your support and accountability structure is imperative to your success. Find someone to be a support text buddy/friend. When those feelings start welling up and the obsessive food thoughts come flowing into your head--tell on 'em!!! Don't keep them exclusively in your head--because if you do, they'll typically win, almost every time. 

Share what you're thinking--get it out in the open...When you "tell on 'em," it has a powerful effect.

What happens when a playground bully is exposed to authority figures? They typically turn into little angels. Same dynamic. When we expose those thoughts by bringing in our "support team," something powerful happens---suddenly we're not facing it alone...suddenly our resolve to maintain the integrity of our plan is strengthened--often times, just in the nick of time.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Wednesday, November 7, 2018

November 7th, 2018 Years Later

November 7th, 2018 Years Later

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

A colleague of ours passed away yesterday morning. She was in the sales department. She was the longest employed person at our broadcasting company, starting in 1979. I worked with her for the better part of twenty years. Actually, my first encounter with Illene O. came when I was somewhere around seven or eight years old. I participated in the Stillwater Summer Art program for which she was the director. Couldn't have known the two of us would work together professionally for so many years, years later. She was an amazing human. Seventy-three is too young. Rest in peace, Illene.

We all gathered for a special meeting yesterday afternoon to talk about her passing and to share our fondest memories of her.

Tonight's Week 1 support group calls marks the beginning of a brand new 8-week session. This group means so much to me. It's small, dynamic, diverse, inclusive, supportive, non-judgemental, compassionate, and it works. We have members at all stages--from just getting started to maintenance mode and everywhere in-between. I have two spaces available for the Thursday night group call I've created for this new session. If you're interested--this is your last chance to let me know. After this post, I'll not mention the groups again until late December, right before the start of the next 8-week session. My email for questions and to request a registration: transformation.road@gmail.com

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Tuesday, November 6, 2018

November 6th, 2018 One Way Or Another

November 6th, 2018 One Way Or Another

Yesterday: I maintained the integrity of my reduced calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

You never know how dependent you've become on something until it's taken away. MyFitnessPal had what seems to have been a system-wide outage yesterday afternoon and evening. I didn't realize the magnitude of the problem until after driving myself nuts trying to log in. I don't normally log in with every use--it's on my phone, I pull it up, it's open and ready--simple. When I opened it up last night, I was logged out. The app was prompting me to sign in. No problem, right?

Every attempt to log in was met with the dreaded "invalid username or password" message. Then, thinking maybe I forgot the password, I did the "forgot my password" link--only to get another error message. I repeated this maddening process about twenty-seven times before I stopped. At one point I chose the "log in via Facebook" option--and that connected me to an old account I had set up just previous to the established account I've maintained every day for the past four and a half years. Streak was at zero days--nothing was in there...I about lost my mind. I logged out of that account and tried one last time to connect with my SeanAAnderson account. When that failed once again, I had to stop. I did two things at this point.

A quick search on Twitter for MyFitnessPal revealed how an entire world of MFP faithful was experiencing the same thing. Some of the manic Tweets were hilariously written--and it made me smile big, even laugh at the situation. Okay, I wasn't alone. It wasn't just me.

I also resigned myself to letting it go for the night with hopes the issue would be repaired come morning. It was. Thank goodness. The whole ordeal really made me look at how dependent I am on that app for logging my food. It was an opportunity for me to imagine; come to terms with, the idea of using a different logging method--and being okay with the lost data, if it had come to that.

The most important thing about this issue is that I keep logging my food one way or another.

I wrote down my half & half for my late afternoon coffee and my dinner ingredients--was able to log in this morning and complete yesterday's entry--and all is well, but had it not been--I still must be okay.

I was seriously stressed last night over something I couldn't control. At the same time, I had to ask myself--What can I control? The answer was-- regardless, MFP fixed or not, I will still log my food each day one way or another. I'm glad the glitch is fixed. I'm also glad I had the opportunity to give it some deeper thought.

The idea of losing a technology that helps support a fundamental element of my daily practice isn't a barrier to my daily practice. It might have been an inconvenience, but I would have found another way.

Other than that, it was a fabulous Monday! Mom wasn't feeling well last night, so we canceled our trip to see her brother on his birthday. I had another reason to make the trip, an appointment with some support friends, so I delivered his birthday card solo.

Today is poised to be a productive day. The new 8-week session of the accountability and support group I mentor starts tomorrow and Thursday. We still have two spots available in our group for this holiday filled session. If you're interested in joining our team--let me know! Send an email! transformation.road@gmail.com 

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean





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