Friday, February 22, 2019

February 22nd, 2019 Different Ways

February 22nd, 2019 Different Ways

Yesterday was a 6-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I enjoyed a good elliptical workout, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Yesterday was a good day in a few different ways. I felt like I was catching my breath and calm. It's been an interesting week with different stressors, so to find that was a good thing.

I had a short visit with mom before my workout last night--then made the decision to enjoy a meal out. I've cut way down on the number of meals out in the last month or so thanks to the star system I started using to "grade" my daily practice. Fajita chicken tacos made sense last night--right before my Thursday night support group conference call.

I worked on assembling my standup set after the call last night. My friend Wade Tower and I will perform a stand-up show tonight at a local restaurant. It's a fun way for me to exercise that part of me. It's just for the joy of doing it. The last time I did one of these there, it was a packed room--so we're hoping for the same tonight. Tomorrow night, I'll be speaking in front of an audience too--except it'll be at a special banquet for Big Brothers/Big Sisters of Oklahoma. They've asked me to share my story and experience with their incredible program. I'm honored!
Wade and I met at a gig 7 years ago and we've worked together
a few times since. He's a talented singer and comedian!
We enjoy pointing at each other





















My morning foundation routine is complete, my food is planned and packed for breakfast and lunch, and I'm about to walk out the door into my Friday. Before I go...

Another 8-week session of the private support group I facilitate starts next week. The opportunity to join our group comes around once every two months. We only have a couple of openings this time. If you have interest and questions, email me right away and I'll reply with answers to your questions: transformation.road@gmail.com 

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
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Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Have you listened to the unabridged audio version of my book? Get yours today!

With a donation of $20 or more to The Daily Diary of A Winning Loser, You'll receive the entire unabridged audio version of my book, Transformation Road-My Trip To Over 500 Pounds and Back-narrated by me on mp3 disc!! This includes shipping. Increased donation increments of at least $20 will include an additional mp3 disc of the unabridged audio version, perfect to give as a gift!
Also, the two-hour recorded YouPlan Workshop is available for a minimum $25 donation.

To donate, send an email request to transformation.road@gmail.com, and I'll send you a secure invoice.

Thursday, February 21, 2019

February 21st, 2019 Certainty

February 21st, 2019 Certainty

Yesterday was another 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I personally prepared all my meals, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Mom was very happy to be out of the hospital and back at her place yesterday. The staff at the nursing home were happy to see her, too. The uncertainty for a few days was replaced with certainty; she's going to be okay.

I've found that maintaining a balance with my food and exercise requires that I'm mindful of my emotional and stress level balance, first. When things are going smoothly in the non-food & exercise areas of my life, I feel empowered and confident. When life throws a curve ball or two, and suddenly things aren't as harmonious--that's when my awareness level must be on the highest setting.

I've given myself quite a bunch of self-study in this area of balance. My conclusion centers around one of the basic human needs: Certainty. 

When things get bumpy and out of sorts, the first thing that goes is the comforting feeling of certainty. My deeply ingrained reaction to the loss of certainty is to replace it as quickly as possible--if not with certainty, with something that gives me the illusion of certainty. For me, obviously--it's always been food.

Of course, it's only an illusion of certainty. A bag of double cheeseburgers never gave me peaceful certainty in the middle of turbulent times. It only gave me an illusion of certainty within the amount of time it successfully distracted me from the reality at hand. After the distraction, the uncertainty remained--but worse; compounded with self-loathing over the binge.

One of the biggest realizations for me was found in taking responsibility for my part in creating uncertainties. It's the, my own worst enemy deal. I don't create every uncertainty in my life, but I've certainly been responsible for a good share. Being mindful of my behavior and actions and how they can potentially upset my balance of certainty is a critical awareness to maintain each and every day. 

Nobody is immune to this certainty dynamic. How does anyone like me get through the loss or weakened state of uncertainty without taking a tour of every drive-through in the area?

In my opinion, it comes down to the ability to compartmentalize certainty. And doing that requires taking a personal inventory of things we're grateful for in our lives. In this exploration--this inventory, we can find certainty where we weren't looking. And then we can believe that all is not lost because we have something, several things, perhaps, that are certain in our lives. Instead of feeling like everything is total chaos--we can find peace in some areas and that helps us deal with the uncertainty in other areas.

My gratitude list is long and that helps my uncertainty list feel a little shorter.

There will always be issues upsetting the balance of certainty. Serenity, right? God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can,
and wisdom to know the difference. Things I cannot change--things out of my control create a measure of uncertainty. Courage to change the things I can create measures of certainty.

I've written before about the importance of keeping my lifestream and fundamental elements stream running parallel and not letting them cross. Losing certainty in certain areas can create turbulence within the streams. When the forces of uncertainty are pressed and we're holding our fundamental elements stream steady, it's not easy. Dropping the fundamental elements stream, effectively allowing the lifestream to come crashing down across, might seem like a very natural thing to do--and considering the circumstances, we sometimes experience, it might also seem completely excusable.

But why would I drop something I'm immensely grateful for having in my life, especially in exchange for the chaos and uncertainty of whatever we're passing through at the moment?

In keeping steady the things for which I'm most grateful and finding the certainty in the things I can, it will only help me in dealing with the uncertainty of most anything else. The illusions of the contrary will not fool me into believing otherwise.  
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My morning foundation routine is complete, my food is planned and packed for breakfast and lunch, and I'm about to walk out the door into my Thursday. Before I go...

Another 8-week session of the private support group I facilitate starts next week. The opportunity to join our group comes around once every two months. We only have a couple of openings this time. If you have interest and questions, email me right away and I'll reply with answers to your questions: transformation.road@gmail.com 

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
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My Twitter: SeanAAnderson
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Instagram: SeanAAnderson
Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Have you listened to the unabridged audio version of my book? Get yours today!

With a donation of $20 or more to The Daily Diary of A Winning Loser, You'll receive the entire unabridged audio version of my book, Transformation Road-My Trip To Over 500 Pounds and Back-narrated by me on mp3 disc!! This includes shipping. Increased donation increments of at least $20 will include an additional mp3 disc of the unabridged audio version, perfect to give as a gift!
Also, the two-hour recorded YouPlan Workshop is available for a minimum $25 donation.

To donate, send an email request to transformation.road@gmail.com, and I'll send you a secure invoice.

Wednesday, February 20, 2019

February 20th, 2019 Better Outcome

February 20th, 2019 Better Outcome

Yesterday was 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I personally prepared all my meals, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

We could not have asked for a better outcome from the testing mom underwent yesterday. It was such a relief to get the news. The issue that prompted the major concern and scare turned out to be caused by minor things that can be easily corrected. Thank you to everyone who added mom to their prayer list over the last couple days. I'll be headed to the hospital soon to pick her up and return her to the nursing home where her care will continue. Mom is naturally a nervous person and I must say, she was exceptionally worked up with uncertainty going into yesterday's procedure. It was nice to see her more relaxed, smiling, and relieved! Whenever the doc says, "there was an area of concern on the cat scan," it starts the mind racing with all kinds of stories. 

I haven't slept well the past few nights. Even last night wasn't the best. I didn't get my exercise session in yesterday either. I must get three more sessions in by Saturday in order to hit my four-session goal for this week. I'll do it, I'm certain.

Yesterday was a really good food day. I even broke out of my normal routine for lunch and tried something new. (Included in Tweet below) It was fantastic! One of my food plan goals of late is getting a little more creative at lunch time. I never thought I'd say it, but I might be growing weary of lunch tostadas. They're good, I love 'em--but trying a few different things would be a positive thing. I keep plenty of variety at dinner time--but breakfast and lunch tend to be more routine.

I completed my morning foundation routine and I'm well into my Wednesday. I hope yours is a good one!
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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Have you listened to the unabridged audio version of my book? Get yours today!

With a donation of $20 or more to The Daily Diary of A Winning Loser, You'll receive the entire unabridged audio version of my book, Transformation Road-My Trip To Over 500 Pounds and Back-narrated by me on mp3 disc!! This includes shipping. Increased donation increments of at least $20 will include an additional mp3 disc of the unabridged audio version, perfect to give as a gift!
Also, the two-hour recorded YouPlan Workshop is available for a minimum $25 donation.

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Tuesday, February 19, 2019

February 19th, 2019 Mom

February 19th, 2019 Mom

Yesterday was 7-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I personally prepared all my meals, I did the elliptical workout, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The call came in from the nursing home about 11am yesterday morning. Mom was having a serious bleeding incident and they weren't sure what was going on. They had called the ambulance and was notifying me that she'd be on her way to the emergency room within minutes.

I quickly checked out from work and made my way to the hospital to meet her there. The uncertainty of the situation kept my brain in a hyper-horrible worrisome thoughts mode. The doctors and staff acted quickly, got her stabilized, and started the process of finding out what exactly is going on. There's some kind of internal bleeding happening in her low abdomen. The cat scan revealed an "area of concern" for the two doctors evaluating the results. Mom is in the hospital and this morning the tests, including a scope, will continue to search for exactly what's going on. Your prayers and positive energy would be greatly appreciated.

My main focus yesterday and now is on mom. At the same time, for someone like me, I must be very careful with my daily practice. It's emotional and uncertain situations like this that can quickly send me spiraling toward the food in a futile effort to change how I feel.

I made some reach out support calls and texts, said some prayers, kept family and friends informed about what was going on, and I made a commitment to stay within the boundaries of my practice.

By 1pm I was hungry and searching. I had eaten 42g of almonds earlier but now I was missing lunch. We were in a waiting mode in the ER, so I made my way to the cafeteria and really couldn't find anything I wanted to make work. I decided to try a vending machine (danger-danger!!) for some salsa flavored tortilla chips--something of a hold-over until later, but after spending the dollar, the ingredients list contained refined sugar--and that immediately disqualifies it as an option for me. I gave it to the nurses' station. At this point, I decided to simply wait until I could get home and prepare something. I drank water and was fine.

I scrapped my original swimming plan for yesterday evening but still got in an elliptical workout. After visiting with mom and the nursing staff, I ran out to the nursing home for a few things she needed, like her cpap machine, then made my way to the RecPlex for some exercise while mom visited with Amber back in her room. It worked out well.

I'm headed to work for a little while this morning before I go back to the hospital with mom. Again, your prayers and whatever positive energy you can muster this way would be greatly appreciated.     

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
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Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Have you listened to the unabridged audio version of my book? Get yours today!

With a donation of $20 or more to The Daily Diary of A Winning Loser, You'll receive the entire unabridged audio version of my book, Transformation Road-My Trip To Over 500 Pounds and Back-narrated by me on mp3 disc!! This includes shipping. Increased donation increments of at least $20 will include an additional mp3 disc of the unabridged audio version, perfect to give as a gift!
Also, the two-hour recorded YouPlan Workshop is available for a minimum $25 donation.

To donate, send an email request to transformation.road@gmail.com, and I'll send you a secure invoice.

Monday, February 18, 2019

February 18th, 2019 Get-Together

February 18th, 2019 Get-Together

Yesterday was 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The original plan included a swim yesterday. I made the decision to not do that yesterday and I was okay with it, the week is early. I haven't enjoyed time with Noah in a very long time, so mom and I invited him along for mom's outing last night. Oh my goodness, that little guy is fun! Kristin met up with us at the restaurant, too. It was a wonderful little get-together!

I did my usual fajita chicken tacos. One of the great things about being a semi-regular at this particular restaurant: They've memorized my on-plan order. It's an order of ala carte ingredients--then I prepare the tacos at the table. I started saying my order and the server completed my sentences. Uh, yes--exactly, thank you!












My morning routine is complete. I'm ready for a good Monday. My food is planned and packed for breakfast and lunch--and dinner is planned. I will be at the RecPlex later today for a good workout!

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
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Instagram: SeanAAnderson
Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Have you listened to the unabridged audio version of my book? Get yours today!

With a donation of $20 or more to The Daily Diary of A Winning Loser, You'll receive the entire unabridged audio version of my book, Transformation Road-My Trip To Over 500 Pounds and Back-narrated by me on mp3 disc!! This includes shipping. Increased donation increments of at least $20 will include an additional mp3 disc of the unabridged audio version, perfect to give as a gift!
Also, the two-hour recorded YouPlan Workshop is available for a minimum $25 donation.

To donate, send an email request to transformation.road@gmail.com, and I'll send you a secure invoice.

Sunday, February 17, 2019

February 17th, 2019 Shoving Life Under A Blanket Of Food

February 17th, 2019 Shoving Life Under A Blanket Of Food

Yesterday was another 7-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I personally prepared all of my meals, I did another fantastic 30-minute elliptical workout, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The plan was to swim yesterday but I waited too late. I was reminded that the pool closes an hour before the facility closes. Oh yeah, that. I quickly made a pivot in the plan and jumped on the elliptical. I'll get there earlier today!

It's okay to have a day that doesn't go exactly how I envisioned and STILL take extraordinary care. Deciding the fundamental elements of my plan shall not be sacrificed, come what may, is by far one of the most important decisions I make each day.

Life will always contain stressful and emotional situations. They may change in shape and size and with consequences big and small, but they will always be a part of a balanced and normal life.

It was a scary revelation because I had decided, concretely, that I couldn't in any way, shape or form--lose weight successfully unless everything was smooth sailing, every day, every week and so on.

I accepted, as fact: When the rain starts pouring, I start eating. Avoiding the internal dialogue of my auto-pilot mode was and remains an important part of this daily practice. It is, because...

Some of the most powerful words are never spoken because they come in the form of affirming thoughts. I always eat when I'm stressed. I always eat when I get emotional. "That," (insert whatever "that" is, here) makes me want to eat." 

This perspective afforded me an endless supply of excellent excuses for why "now isn't a good time."

A "perfect time" is a myth. If I had waited for the perfect time, there's a good chance I wouldn't be alive today.

When someone asks me, what clicked on September 15th, 2008? It was truly the realization that if I was going to survive, I had to remain consistent come what may. I had to walk in the rain and not be afraid. I had to make an iron-clad decision that this time was going to be different from any other previous attempt.

No longer could I allow my resolve to be hard wired into the ups and downs of life. My resolve required a separate power source.

This realization that if I attached my consistency to the ups and downs of life, I might forever be stuck on a merry go round of yo-yo dieting, was profound.

Allowing myself to become the victim of life's circumstances time and time again, was super convenient. It didn't require me to get real or take responsibility for my extraordinary care because I was placing that responsibility on the randomness of life. I had to change my perspective or die young at over 500 pounds.

I decided to choose change before change chose me. Because one way or another, a change was coming...and quickly.

This realization gave birth to my parallel streams philosophy.

For me, Day 1 was the start of my parallel streams philosophy, I just didn't know what to call it back then.

The "Lifestream" is everything happening in our day to day lives. The Life Stream includes the ups and downs, the challenges, the victories, the disappointments, The hectic schedules, the family dynamics, the workplace dynamics, the bills, the stress, the joys, the blessings, the expected and the unexpected, the good, the bad...It's life.

The "Fundamental Elements Stream" are comprised of the elements of my personal plan. I say "my" because our plans might be very different. Mine is customized to fit my personality, likes, dislikes, strengths, weaknesses, and sensitivities.

My fundamental elements stream includes my personal/spiritual morning "me time," the most peaceful part of my entire day. My fundamental elements stream also includes maintaining the integrity of my calorie budget, remaining abstinent from refined sugar, logging everything in MyFitnessPal, getting regular workouts and staying connected with one on one and group support interactions and of course, writing and publishing this blog, every day.

I've also referred to my fundamental elements as my "rails of support." I've set my accountability and support measures on high. When someone makes a comment in the direction of, "you're so strong" or "you must have amazing will power," I typically thank them and smile, but I know, truly, I'm not that strong and I don't have giant amounts of will power. What I have are solid rails of accountability and support--and I'm holding onto those rails, each day. They guide me, step by step.

The fundamental elements stream runs parallel, just below the lifestream. The lifestream is running in the foreground and the fundamental elements stream is running in the background--like a computer's anti-virus program.

I've written countless paragraphs within the archives of this blog all about the "lifestream" and the "fundamental elements stream" and how they must run parallel to one another without crossing.

If we allow life and all of the energy it takes to maneuver, to negatively affect our ability to maintain consistency in the daily elements of our extraordinary care, then it always will. The frustration of inconsistency will be a common theme if the lifestream is allowed to dip down into the fundamental elements stream on a regular basis.

And if we get too carried away, making the fundamental elements all-consuming, then we run the risk of it crossing up into our lifestream. And that's when it isn't any fun and we dread what we're doing every day.

I've had several challenges where I really had to remember the power of this "parallel streams" philosophy. I've discovered, when life demands more attention, we don't have to let go of the elements giving us our success, but we can scale back the amount of energy it uses to operate those fundamental elements. Identifying what is non-negotiable each day and what isn't becomes an important question.

In that place, we're in a position to discover ways we can act on life instead of reacting to life.

Some of the biggest, most important things I'm learning involve handling the things of life in more direct ways with real support and real solutions instead of the shallow support and temporary solution that comes with shoving life under a blanket of food.

We don't sacrifice the integrity of the elements, we just do what we can do.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
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Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Have you listened to the unabridged audio version of my book? Get yours today!

With a donation of $20 or more to The Daily Diary of A Winning Loser, You'll receive the entire unabridged audio version of my book, Transformation Road-My Trip To Over 500 Pounds and Back-narrated by me on mp3 disc!! This includes shipping. Increased donation increments of at least $20 will include an additional mp3 disc of the unabridged audio version, perfect to give as a gift!
Also, the two-hour recorded YouPlan Workshop is available for a minimum $25 donation.

To donate, send an email request to transformation.road@gmail.com, and I'll send you a secure invoice.

Saturday, February 16, 2019

February 16th, 2019 Something Better

February 16th, 2019 Something Better

Yesterday was a 7-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I personally prepared all of my meals, I did a wonderful 30-minute elliptical workout, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Getting back on the elliptical felt wonderful last night. I've returned to max-level 20 on the machine recently and oh my, let me tell you, the difference between resistance level 15 and 20 is significant. I'm sweating and pushing through, mentally and physically, within ten minutes on level twenty. The mental/emotional benefits are far greater than the physical. The endorphins are powerful things.

I sometimes listen to music during my workouts and at other times, a good podcast. I've recently discovered Conan O'Brien's podcast, Conan O'Brien Needs A Friend. Constantly smiling and occasionally laughing while doing the intense elliptical routine changes the workout into something better. I suppose it's because the focus is redirected--I'm not focusing on the burn in my legs or the sweat on my brow, my brain is focusing on the content I'm feeding it. One time, I remember showing up at the gym without my earbuds--oh my, that was the longest and most brutal workout for me, because all I could focus on was the physical energy needed for the workout. The brain is fascinating; so powerful, isn't it?

I plan on getting back to the gym this afternoon for a good swimming session. I'm not meeting my goal of four workout sessions for the week, but I'm okay with this considering the circumstances of the week. Fourteen trips to the gym in a four week period is a tremendous change compared to the previous several months.

I'm excited about doing a stand-up show next Friday with my friend, comedian and singer, Wade Tower. We've booked it for the 22nd at a local restaurant. Ground Round Grill and Bar will transform into a comedy club from 9 to 10:30pm. I think it's important to do things that bring us joy. Working out material with a microphone, an audience, and generating laughs, brings me immense joy. The opportunity to catch up with Wade is a fantastic bonus.

My morning foundation practice/routine is complete. I'm about to prepare a good on-plan breakfast followed by getting ready to attend a funeral with Kristin. Kristin lost a dear friend of hers earlier this week. I knew him too and he was an incredible person. Marty Ladd passed way too young, in his mid 60's. He was loved by many in this community--very fitting that his funeral is being held in Robson Fieldhouse.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
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Instagram: SeanAAnderson
Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Have you listened to the unabridged audio version of my book? Get yours today!

With a donation of $20 or more to The Daily Diary of A Winning Loser, You'll receive the entire unabridged audio version of my book, Transformation Road-My Trip To Over 500 Pounds and Back-narrated by me on mp3 disc!! This includes shipping. Increased donation increments of at least $20 will include an additional mp3 disc of the unabridged audio version, perfect to give as a gift!
Also, the two-hour recorded YouPlan Workshop is available for a minimum $25 donation.

To donate, send an email request to transformation.road@gmail.com, and I'll send you a secure invoice.

Friday, February 15, 2019

February 15th, 2019 Help Me Land

February 15th, 2019 Help Me Land

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I personally prepared all of my meals, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

For some reason, yesterday was much harder, emotionally, than in previous years. I'll always miss my little brother Shane, but yesterday was a hurting/missing. I felt on an emotional edge most of the day. It hasn't been quite like that in several years. I made direct support reach outs critically important yesterday. They're always important, but on days like that, even more.
It was a good food day.
 



















Mom was also missing Shane more than normal yesterday. I always make a good visit with her important on Valentines Day. We visited for a little while, talked about Shane--and that helped too, reminiscing and laughing over the good times. Mom loved her card and flowers. She was feeling much better too and that was a wonderful thing. Her spirits were high after getting her hair fixed--and that helps, too.















I prepared a good Valentines Day dinner for my Valentine last night. It received rave reviews from Kristin, so yay me!! 


My sweet Valentine!
















I was feeling much better by evenings end.

One of the messages I received from a support friend yesterday was a good reminder about how the intensity of feelings subside, pass, and change--and to just ride 'em, feel 'em, live 'em, and allow them. Very true. It's hard to do this most of the time. I cannot count the number of years I would simply stuff down emotions with food. Now, the urge to do that still pops up every now and again and when it does, that's when I must turn the auto-pilot off and start doing intentional actions to help me "land" and be well. Sometimes we gotta be talked through that landing procedure!

My emotional stew yesterday, I believe, was intensified because lately the thought of being the last surviving brother has crossed my mind a lot for some reason--and I'm not sure why. Shane passed first, then my half brother Danny, then my other half brother, Chris. I didn't have relationships with Danny and Chris, I wasn't raised around them, but Shane was different, we were raised together and very close. All three of them died devastatingly young and although I certainly could have died just as young from the pressures of carrying around 500 pounds for almost twenty years, I somehow didn't. I don't know. I do know I'm grateful to be here. Very. Anyway, it just strikes an emotional chord with me for whatever reason.

I intentionally waited to post this until some break time at work, considering the late night last night. I did get up in time for my morning foundation routine. I packed and planned my food for the day and I'm grateful that the emotional edge of yesterday has passed.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
MFP Username: SeanAAnderson
My Twitter: SeanAAnderson
Facebook: www.facebook.com/seananderson505
Instagram: SeanAAnderson
Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Have you listened to the unabridged audio version of my book? Get yours today!

With a donation of $20 or more to The Daily Diary of A Winning Loser, You'll receive the entire unabridged audio version of my book, Transformation Road-My Trip To Over 500 Pounds and Back-narrated by me on mp3 disc!! This includes shipping. Increased donation increments of at least $20 will include an additional mp3 disc of the unabridged audio version, perfect to give as a gift!
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Thursday, February 14, 2019

February 14th, 2019 Shane

February 14th, 2019 Shane

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I personally prepared all of my meals, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I'll be getting back to exercise schedule today. These 4-star days keep me, but I want more! I'm giving myself some love and compassion considering this week's challenges--and that's required me to lower my expectations for the week. Weeks like this will happen occasionally.

Today would have been my little brother Shane's 42nd birthday. It's hard to wrap my mind around the fact that he's been gone for eighteen years. As much as I want to believe that I've worked through the grieving process, this day often reminds me that I'm not sure I've ever fully worked through it all to a place of peace. I love and miss Shane, horribly.
 


















My morning routine is complete, my food is planned and packed, and I'm headed for the door within minutes.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Wednesday, February 13, 2019

February 13th, 2019 Structure

February 13th, 2019 Structure

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I personally prepared all of my meals, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The strep test yesterday came back negative. The sore throat, coughing and general crud symptoms are running their course. I do feel much better this morning. I now know I'm not contagious and I'm headed back to work. I'm looking forward to getting back into the structure of the workday.

I prepared three good weighed and measured meals yesterday.
 














I found an excerpt from the archives that I wanted to share this morning. The point of the excerpt is how consistency isn't about being strong with loads of will power. It's about building a supportive structure for each day.

Every once in a while, I hear it: "Congratulations, you look great. You're so strong," or a similar quote. I accepted a version of this today from someone who I ran into at the grocery store, whom I hadn't seen in years. I don't think they're remotely aware of the relapse and regain period of this journey. I gracefully accepted the compliment with a "thank you, very much! I feel great too!"

Accepting a compliment and saying thank you instead of first listing off all of the reasons you believe their perception is inaccurate--is tough to do. It's important to embrace, though. I've found the urge to discount or immediately deny compliments have faded, but I still feel a little twinge in that direction. Old habits die hard.

Are we not worthy? It's not that, really. Yes, we are worthy. But I tend to examine things a little deeper, especially this notion that I'm super strong along this road. I have a tremendous amount of respect for the fragility of peace. It can be wiped away quickly. One day at a time is the truth.

Let me explain, please.

And keep in mind, I'm not discounting my success and where I am or what I'm doing. I'm simply offering perspective to this compliment I seem to attract every now and again.

Am I strong? Or have I just learned and put into practice the power of structure? Without the support structure of my fundamental elements, I'm not strong at all. If you're a regular reader of this blog, you know exactly what happened when I abandoned my "rails of support." I gained back 164 pounds. I suppose I don't do anything small.

The message here is to build your system. Find what works for you. Lean on the elements you need to keep you motivated and focused toward your extraordinary care. Never underestimate the power of support from others. When we try to do this alone is precisely the moment it gets super hard. Perhaps I'm strong at building my support structure. But on my own, I'm not strong at all. I'm affected, I'm complicated and most of all, I'm human.

But if I see you out and about and you offer me a compliment like the one described above, I'll not disagree with you. I'll gracefully accept your compliment. And if you're searching for the same strength, I'll encourage you, too. Because it's in you, I know it is.

It truly isn't about building up enough strength to go it alone. It's about strengthening your rails of support. Build your support structure. Don't be afraid of accountability measures, just make sure they're designed to hold you accountable to something you can sustain long-term.
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My morning routine is complete, my food is planned and packed, and I'm headed for the door within minutes. I'm grateful!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
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My Twitter: SeanAAnderson
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Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Have you listened to the unabridged audio version of my book? Get yours today!

With a donation of $20 or more to The Daily Diary of A Winning Loser, You'll receive the entire unabridged audio version of my book, Transformation Road-My Trip To Over 500 Pounds and Back-narrated by me on mp3 disc!! This includes shipping. Increased donation increments of at least $20 will include an additional mp3 disc of the unabridged audio version, perfect to give as a gift!
Also, the two-hour recorded YouPlan Workshop is available for a minimum $25 donation.

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