A Good Sick Day
Today was another sick day for me. But it was a good day. I thoroughly medicated my sore throat with plenty of Cepacol Lozenges and hot honey-lemon tea. I had eggs, chicken soup with extra chicken and jello today. I may not have had enough calories, in fact, I'm sure I didn't. I was sticking with what I had on hand and what wouldn't be too rough on my sore throat.
I'll once again face the scales tomorrow morning. I've had a couple of days to reflect on the past four years and you know what? I'm okay with whatever the scale says. Considering I've had a decent string of days food wise, it might even be down a few pounds.
I'm very lucky to have experienced all I have along this road. I've learned so much in the past four years, and combined with incredible support, I'm in a much better position now than it might have been otherwise.
I could have just stayed astray and quickly returned to over 500 pounds, instead of gaining back only 59 of 275. I'm very fortunate. Oh--it very well could have happened, it does all the time. But I have many friends, much support and I've learned too much along this road to ever go back. I once heard a recovered drug addict say "recovery is a buzz kill." I get that completely. These truths we see can't be unseen. They can be ignored, and still they're always there asserting themselves even more when we try to go the opposite way. It's great news for people like me. It's a very good thing.
I'm a little behind on returning facebook messages and emails sent to sean@transformationroad.com If you've recently sent one, please know I'll be replying very soon, and thank you for sending it my way and for your patience.
I've been taking this time to quietly assess where I am, where I want to go and what I'm going to do to get there. And I can tell you, I'm full of some exciting ideas. Some short term, some long. And all supported and made possible by my continued recovery...and the bottom line is, that's the most important thing... My recovery.
I've proven I can maintain when everything is sailing along beautifully. Learning to take the curves of life and still maintain control, is a practice; a pursuit of emotional balance. It's often been said that when we take care of our inside, the outside takes care of itself. I believe that. I've lived it. I've ignored it. And I'm living it again.
I must get some good sleep tonight. I hope you do too.
Thank you for reading, goodnight and...
Good Choices,
Sean
Glad you have some time to sit and think. we learn more from failure than we do from success...so forward, right?
ReplyDeleteyoung man, you caught yourself..you start each moment with the option/choice to improve the moment before. Never Give Up is the mantra that our mutual friend continually says. He's right. If we give up, the advesary..(IE Weight) takes control. The appetite takes control..The waves of self doubt take control. We were given such great knowledge, power, and a range of emotions to deal with all that we are given. it is up to us to learn how to process it all. I'm so thankful to have been introduced to your blog all those years ago, and seen (via computer screen) your transformation. I wish you continued success in good choices in your journey. continue to be a shining example to your girls and show them how to problem solve and get back on that horse..Never give up!!!
ReplyDeleteso glad you are doing better ...not just the sickness you have had the past few days but the over all journey. Thanks for being an inspiration :D
ReplyDeleteYou are Awesome Sean.
ReplyDeleteBig Hugs to You
Sheilagh
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Excited to hear your new ideas! Best of luck with the self-assessment!
ReplyDeleteAll things happen for a reason! Maybe that is why you have been in bed sick. You needed that alone time to think, & re-group yourself. "Nip it in the bud my friend" It's a new year, a new day & you can be a new Sean! Our mind is such a powerful thing, that can either help us be a solution to the problem or be a problem for our solution. Get the right mind set....and work at it one day at a time.
ReplyDeleteTake care,
Paula xx's!
Sean-
ReplyDeleteIt's great to see you are still blogging! I used to follow you back when you were still heading toward your goal. Several years later it is great to see that you managed to mostly keep it off. Thanks for the inspiration; it's part of the reason why I'm back in the blogosphere despite the embarrassment of having to start over again. Best of luck!
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Dude, you caught yourself and that's key. For me, it's an ongoing situation and I just need to keep looking and dealing with life as it comes up. I have nowhere near the loss you've had, but I've gone from a high of 200 to a low of 133, and maintained for a year-plus at 135 (last seen on December 3, 2012). This holiday season was rough for varying reasons, including my own health. I lost my grip, and Monday I weighed 149.
ReplyDeleteToday I'm on the 145-side of 146. I'm on track, not wavering. I know you can do this, you know you can do this. You'll get back to where you prefer to be in short order :)