The last time I was this nervous going into a stand-up gig was opening for Sinbad in front of 26,000 people in an open air stadium. I was only eight months into my comedy career when I landed that job. I wasn't ready. I stressed over it relentlessly. Tomorrow night will be fine. It's actually a good sign to be this aware and on edge. I didn't stress this much over big auditions! I must remember, some of my best performances came after feeling this way.
What I'm doing tomorrow night is very different. Nearly all new material--not one shred of weight related self-deprecating stuff, so it's very experimental for me. It's a really good thing I have another experienced comic in the show. What's the worst that could happen? I mean, really? I'm not doing this for a living. I have nothing to lose. I'm simply working out material in front of an audience. If it goes well, bonus. If not, no loss--I'll write some more, edit and do it again next time.
This stand-up thing is a direct result of the epiphany I had May 15th. Finding our individual 'Happiness Code' has everything to do with exploring the things that make us uniquely us and bring us joy--then nourishing those things. It's truly one of the secrets of happiness. Although my brain is screaming "what have you gotten us into?"
The new water accountability element has worked very well today. I've consumed 10 cups of water. That's a rarity! The bottle of water this morning filled me up, so much so, I didn't take a second cup of coffee. So there's something, perhaps it'll cut down my coffee consumption. As a coffee lover, I'm not sure this is a positive!
I voiced a radio commercial for Domino's Pizza today. Then I started craving pizza. It wasn't a serious, I need to reach out for support type craving, just a simple, that sounded delicious, type thing. I decided to make a nice low cal version as a small afternoon meal using a plain gluten free wrap, sugar free marinara, fresh mushrooms and two slices of mozzarella. These super thin gluten free wraps bake up really nice! It was all the flavor I wanted and well within my calorie budget. It was perfect!
I'm so obsessed with my set list and material for tomorrow night, I've made this an off day for exercise. I have a one track mind at the moment. I'm constantly thinking about my set, fleshing out ideas and rearranging things. I'm likely over-thinking it just a touch. It'll be fun, I'm sure of it! I plan on celebrating the conclusion of tomorrow night's show with a good workout, likely a 5K in the park. The exercise, combined with the relief of the show being behind me, will feel incredible, I'm sure.
Okay--time to rehearse some more.
My Tweets Today:
Sugar free hazelnut creamer in my coffee plus a bottle of water (2 cups) Only one coffee this morning. 30 cal. pic.twitter.com/QpD8LJl0ea
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 10, 2014
Three whole eggs & one egg white prepared over-hard, pineapple (6.7oz), yellow golden delicious apple. 401 cal. pic.twitter.com/fj6sRtgdyZ
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 10, 2014
Another two cups water (4 cups so far) and an orange. 80 cal. pic.twitter.com/xB12cHB8yl
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 10, 2014
Ham & cheese omelet. 2 whl eggs, 2 egg whts, 2oz ham, 1 slice sharp cheddar (.8oz), small Honeycrisp apple. 369 cal. pic.twitter.com/S8QX5NTNwW
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 10, 2014
Bottle 3. 6 cups so far. pic.twitter.com/YHg5PSA7Ce
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 10, 2014
This might be a record for this early in the day. After this- 8 cups total. pic.twitter.com/1mSyVbymMy
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 10, 2014
A few things... pic.twitter.com/0X7SDx8gnc
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 10, 2014
Voiced a Domino's Pizza radio commercial at work today. Power of suggestion? Maybe. My version: 255 cal. pic.twitter.com/D7pbkaJ02h
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 10, 2014
Pizza: Plain gluten free wrap (110 cal), 1/2 serving sugar free marinara (35cal), sliced mushrooms (10cal), 2 slices mozzarella (100cal).
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 10, 2014
Beef stir fry and fresh cut and baked sweet potato fries...it's what's for dinner! pic.twitter.com/Q6SFXNSarq
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 11, 2014
Beef (4.5oz) stir-fry w/whl green beans, squash, onions & mshrms in evoo. Fresh cut sweet potato fries. 586 cal. pic.twitter.com/7vywtoFmmm
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 11, 2014
This will make 10 cups today. I'm over-achieving on this deal. :) pic.twitter.com/lqbNZDF8bU
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 11, 2014
Fresh pineapple (5.1oz). #lastfoodofday 71 cal. pic.twitter.com/KuJPtjKsQB
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 11, 2014
Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean
:) I've been praying for you about tomorrow. :) I suggest that, just for tomorrow,you go easy on the water...or you may have a whole new source of comedy material. snicker. sorry.
ReplyDeleteThank you very much, Deb! It turned out to be a wonderful experience. I appreciate you!
DeleteI know you will enjoy it and do great regardless. Congrats on all that water!
ReplyDeleteAlati, thank you! The show was awesome! I've been drinking a bunch!
DeleteLove, prayers and Good Energy being shot your way Sean. You will do great tomorrow night. This is the "stepping off a cliff in order to know you can fly" kind of anxiety you may be feeling. We will be waiting to hear all about it tomorrow!
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That is exactly the kind of anxiety it was. Literally--almost physically ill earlier today! It turned out to be an amazing experience!
DeleteIncredible! How much healthier your meals look including the water.
ReplyDeleteGreat attitude and prospective on your big night. Looking forward to your post how it went.
Thank you, Jon! I really put some effort into my food! It went very well! I was so relieved!!
DeleteAfter reading about all that water you were drinking, dang if I didn't drink more too! LOL
ReplyDeleteIsn't that interesting, Gerri? The increased water has had to be an intentional move, for sure. It'll do us both a lot of good!
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