I managed myself well today. I had a good and productive day at work, I made sure to get my exercise in at the YMCA and dinner finished, both before the weekly Tuesday night support group conference call. The call was right before play rehearsal again tonight, so there wasn't much room to mess with this schedule. I had to stay on top of it.
And strangely I did.
It really made me think. Managing myself better comes down to importance level. How important is it to me? Do I have too much slack? When I do, I often take advantage of the slack and that's when my schedule gets very inefficient. But when every minute counts, I proved to myself I could do it.
I mean seriously--I left work at 4:30pm (Today's schedule was a split shift 6am-10am, nap from 10:30am to Noon, lunch--then work 1pm to 4:30pm) had to run a couple of errands--was on the elliptical at 5pm--but only after I called in my chicken and squash order to the Mexican place closest to my apartment, for later pickup after the workout. I left the Y, picked up the chicken and squash, made it home--made the guac fresh--prepared the plate, enjoyed dinner--then got on the weekly conference call support group--then made my way into rehearsal...left rehearsal, making it to the store for fruit, then finally getting back home.
Had I not managed better, I wouldn't have had a workout again today and I would have been eating dinner at 10:40pm. I've done both of those things many times before. Glad I proved to myself that I could choose differently.
I relied on that nap and a lot of coffee. And I'm okay with that today.
What I think of when I look at this picture may not be what you think. I'm not thinking about how "Post-Workout Cool" I'm so desperately trying to look. I'm not thinking why do I still have my name-tag on? I'm not critiquing every little flaw...like seriously, are my lips crooked??? I think my lips are crooked. I'm kidding. But seriously, they totally look crooked in this picture. I don't care if they're crooked or not--must have been how I was holding my face. Yeah, that's it.
What was my point? Oh yeah-- what I think about when I see this photo. I immediately notice the seat belt. And I can't help but go back into the 500 pound memories of when my seat belt didn't fit. I never wore a seat belt at my heaviest. It's the law, too--and still...It wouldn't reach around me. The idea for a seat belt extension for my personal vehicle never occurred to me back in my heaviest days. I just accepted that I wasn't at all protected in the event of an accident.
Have I told you how I believe in guardian angels? I've had a few, I'm certain. After all, I've had six collisions with deer. Three of which were head on at 70 mph/112 kph. No seat belt, ever--back then.
It's such a strange thought to even imagine not clicking it. It's just an automatic thing now. It's something I don't even think about, I just do it--and it feels good. It feels safe. It feels normal. I suppose it's something I've taken for granted for quite some time...until I see a picture like the one above and immediately I'm drawn to the seat belt and how absolutely cool IT is. To be able to wear it so automatically is a major blessing.
My Tweets Today:
Dark roast with sugar free hazelnut creamer (1 tblspn per cup) 2 cups. Good morning! It's good. How's yours? 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/pAEM96jA4Z— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
My favorite omelet. 3 whites, 1 whole egg, w/116g avocado, salt and pepper. 252g cantaloupe & 68g strwbrrs. 415 cal. pic.twitter.com/IY3enS6UOl— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
Midday coffee. Dark roast w/sugar free hazelnut creamer (1tblspn). 1 before lunch & 1 to take back to work. 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/VqfFqal0Gh— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
2 cups water with lunch. Alternating between gulps of water and sips of coffee. #wateraccountability pic.twitter.com/OXfNpEOQ5l— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
Flatbread (90 cal) pizza w/portobello mushrooms, 1/2 serving sf tomato basil & 3slices mozz. 4oz banana. 343 cal. pic.twitter.com/oKqYVadTPH— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
Between now and workout time, this shall disappear down my face. 4 cups water. #watertracking #wateraccountability pic.twitter.com/Ms5qXVui5I— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
Bigger bottle= Easier to hit water goal. Workout starts now. 4 more cups. #wateraccountability Exceeds #watergoal pic.twitter.com/QEZUQHigE2— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
Whoa... #feelsgood #endorphinparty #naturalhigh Pushing level 19 still working for me. #goodsweat No weights tonight. pic.twitter.com/j41jbRnFri— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
Chicken (6oz) & Zucchini Tacos w/sr cream (15g), avocado (118g total on plate) & lettuce. Avocado tostada. 594 cal. pic.twitter.com/OPAnOGNp8S— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
To go after-dinner dark roast w/sugar free hazelnut creamer (1 tblspn). 30 cal. pic.twitter.com/fjSSMLqNFv— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 30, 2015
43g natural almonds & a liter bottle refill. 4 cups water exceeds #watergoal by 48oz! The almonds: 250 cal. pic.twitter.com/asgfNMPqZA— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 1, 2015
A little fast fruit run... pic.twitter.com/FOAg8ABqBf— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 1, 2015
150g strawberries. I'm possibly getting slightly obsessive about measuring my #lastfoodofday to nail 1800. 48 cal. pic.twitter.com/SwQfZR6Rqp— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 1, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,