I started the day by browsing through some of my archives and a few of my old "On The Go Videos" when I came across this one:
I'm going to do more of these "On The Go" videos. I had so much fun making those!
I was taken back to that day and all of the emotions experienced. It was tough and I wanted to quit several times--but I kept pushing, even when I slowed to a crawl, I refused to stop. Transforming feelings of defeat into positive feelings created through perseverance and triumph is what happens along this road when we choose to never give up. I'm so thankful I haven't given up. I came very close to throwing in the towel not too long ago and if you've read this blog regularly over the last three or four months, you know what I'm talking about. Now, those negative thoughts and feelings have transformed and I'm choosing a whole new perspective. It feels good to be so alive, aware and present.
My workout this afternoon at the YMCA was solid. I set the resistance to six, which is three times what it was when I re-started taking extraordinary care sixty-some pounds ago. This increased resistance makes me work hard to get the same time. I had to raise it because the initial setting was becoming much too easy. Remember when I first walked back into the Y? I seriously wanted to stop after five minutes. Not anymore.
I spent some time tonight with a friend, enjoyed a different kind of dinner (see Tweet below) and watched a live stand-up comedy show for the first time in a very long time. It's hard to watch stand-up performances as a "civilian." My brain watches it differently, looking for structure, audience/performer chemistry, delivery techniques and other technical things--and of course I'm mentally writing tag lines. It made me want to do stand up again. I've decided to do a stand-up show, possibly next Spring--with all proceeds going to charity, likely the local domestic violence shelter. We could call it "Stand-Up Against Domestic Violence." This isn't the first thought in this direction, I've actually ran it by the theatre director where our studios are located and he was very supportive of the idea. I don't plan on jumping back in full force like I once did--but somehow I must find a way to workout this side of me.
I'm struggling with getting enough calories to take me to at least 1200 net after exercise burn. I was 159 short today. I'm still trying to adjust to the idea of eat more-lose more. It's a very tough dynamic for someone like me to embrace.
My food today was very good:
Three whole eggs prepared with olive oil, large peach! 338 cal. pic.twitter.com/HErgqisQhY
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 2, 2014
My pre-workout tweet didn't twit. I was saying how climbing on this makes me feel like Iron Man. pic.twitter.com/Pgx97Lenw7
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 2, 2014
Pizza burger! 6oz 93/7 lean beef topped with sugar free marinara & mozzarella. Baked sweet pot fries, tomato. 485 cal pic.twitter.com/Cdig1RiHmC
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 2, 2014
Chicken breast (5oz), black beans (3/4 cup), rice (.5 cup) 449 cal. pic.twitter.com/TbsmyHQSgM
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 2, 2014
Scrambled eggs (3 whole) and swiss. 280 cal. Still 159 calories short of 1200 net, after exercise. #lastfoodofday pic.twitter.com/W5F451KHgM
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 3, 2014
Thank you for reading and your support,
Strength,
Sean
