Thursday, March 25, 2010

Day 556 This Isn't A "Show" and Letting Go of Insecurities

Day 556

This Isn't A "Show" and Letting Go of Insecurities

I've been thinking about tomorrow all day today. I have two speaking engagements at Conoco-Phillips. It's a private engagement for their employees. I'll be talking about my weight loss experiences. It's very important for you and anyone that will hear me speak to understand something. I'm not a weight loss guru or an expert of any kind. I don't know everything and I'm far from perfect. But I do have a story to share! And it's a story that will identify the keys to my success along this road. I have a nervous excitement building about this event and this energy is a good thing. My stage experience is primarily stand-up comedy, and some of my most memorable and enjoyable performances included this pre-show nervous energy. It's normal. And the great thing about this? This isn't a "show," this is as real as it gets. And that realness makes it a thousand times better than any stand-up performance I've ever given.

My best days are the ones that start with a solid foundation, a routine of what I know is right and good. For me, it means getting up shortly before 4am, and I really don't like that---but it's imperative for a great start. And a great start makes all the difference in the world. I woke up, did my morning non-weighted strength training exercises, prepared coffee and a good breakfast, wrote my blog page, showered and dressed and was on the air by 6am. When I take the time for this routine, I have a better show and a better attitude that carries me throughout the day. It doesn't happen everyday, but it should. I like the powerful confidence I felt today. Good choices indeed. I need to make those choices on a more regular basis! I've heard consistency is a vital element along this road...hmmm, where have I heard that? ;)

I toured our new broadcasting studios today. The construction crews are very busy and far from finished, but oh boy---it's looking incredible. I wouldn't be as excited about this change if I were still over 500 pounds. Why? Because these new studios are window front studios, kind of like the Today Show. People will be able to stand on the sidewalk and watch us work. I'm not uncomfortable with that idea anymore. I would have hated it before this transformation. I look forward to it now. They've even painted the window with my name and the name of the KLOR morning personality. Very cool, very cool my friend. We'll be like zoo animals on display. We'll try to behave in our exhibit, I mean studios.

I've decided to NOT wear my too big sport coat to the speaking event tomorrow. I'm not even going to wear an over-shirt. If you're a regular reader of this blog, you know all about my psychological hang-ups and body image issues. I've written about them many times, and perhaps you understand too, maybe you have the same issues. I spent my entire life trying to dress in a fashion that would best present my 500 pound self. That's a very hard habit to break, even though I'm lightyears from that old appearance. I still want to put on that over shirt, or wear a shirt that's just a little too big and baggy. But no---I'm not letting myself off the hook on this event. I'm dressing casual and comfortable in normal fitting clothes that, despite what my crazy imagination conjures up, best showcase my transformation. There self, take that!

They will be video taping the event and I've requested a copy. I also hope to have pictures to post from the event. I'll of course share as much as I can right here in these pages.

A reader yesterday asked if I was still doing 1500 calories a day. I'm actually doing 1800 now. Every now and then I fall below that number, but never below 1500. Thank you for asking!

Thank you for reading. Your support is so wonderful to me. Goodnight and...

Good Choices,


  1. I worked in preschool downtown once where my room faced a wall of windows with cars and buses and people walking by constantly. We called my room the fishbowl because people always peered in. I found it to be something I could ignore BUT the kids often were distracted by it and the room had a slightly chaotic feel no matter how many calming activities I provided right before nap and such. LOL at least you are grown...hope no one flashes you mid sentence.

  2. Personally, I think you should be on Dr. are an inspiration to us all. You don't have to be a guru or specialist .. Something worked for you and maybe it could work for others (it's working for me..who knew?)

    Have a great day.

  3. It'd be great if you could post in on your blog somehow.

    Enjoy the experience!

  4. Good luck with your presentation! I'm glad you won't be wearing your security blanket.......I have mine on today..It's been a rough start. I am going to own the bad choices and move on, have taken some new steps to see if I can break the pop addiction. Thank you so much for all your updates, they are so encouraging.

  5. How great... another notch on your belt towards being a motivational speaker. I know it will go fine... I hope you are able to post some video excerpts of it here. That would be so cool!

  6. Good for you regarding your choice to wear non-big-guy clothes! Decisions like that will help you to change your body image, little by little.

    Now, go knock 'em dead. And, while your're at it, break a leg!

  7. Thanks for the reply Sean!!! Love the're #1 on my RSS feed!!! Keep up the great work!!!

  8. Sean,

    I did some reading of your very early posts and it's amazng to read them knowing what you have achieved since then!

    You are gonna knock'em dead!

    Can't wait to read about it :)

    Diet Buddy Girl

  9. I can't wait to see how the speaking went. I know you will be fabulous.

  10. I started doing that a while back...not wearing overshirts.
    The first time I did it I was still wearing my coat...but the second time was at a girl scout meeting and I about freaked out doing it but did it anyway.
    You will be fine.
    YOu will feel beyond naked...but you aren't..really.
    Good luck tomorrow.

  11. be great if you could post a link to the video

  12. You are going to do great Sean. You have a wonderful story that has given hope and encouragement to so many people. I know they will all benefit from it. I'm glad you're not a weight loss guru. I'm glad you're real. Hugs!

  13. I hope you have a great time at your event! I'm proud of you for sticking with a normal shirt - I know that's a big mental victory you!


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