Monday, January 27, 2020

January 27th, 2020 Taking A Toll

January 27th, 2020 Taking A Toll

Since our last edition, I've maintained the integrity of my food plan boundaries, I've remained refined sugar-free, I've met or exceeded my daily water goal, and I've stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The challenges mom is facing right now are taking a toll on her. She remains in the hospital. Just today, they moved her from the critical care unit to a regular room. Four things are happening: A bad UTI, too much co2 in her lungs, reduced kidney function, and an excessive buildup of digoxin (heart medication) in her system. Three of these four things can and often create hallucinations, severe brain fog, and dementia-like symptoms. Mom isn't herself right now. She's angry, combative, non-cooperative, and mostly, she's scared because she doesn't understand what's going on. Her frustration level came out tonight when she was trying to formulate words and couldn't. She screamed, "I can't speak!!" Keep in mind, I can count on two hands how many times in my life I've heard my mom scream.

I've never seen her like this. She's recently ripped out her IV, tried to rip out other things attached to her, and she's thrown her breakfast across the room. This isn't her. I sincerely hope and pray it isn't dementia. As soon as these issues clear, she may very well go back to being her regular self. I've been handling things in a fairly calm way until she started begging and pleading for me not to leave her bedside. That was almost too much. It was again earlier tonight.

The doctor said she'll remain hospitalized until her kidney function numbers get back into an acceptable range. Hopefully, the treatments they're following for the other three things start making a profound positive impact as well.

Your prayers, thoughts, positive energy--whatever you can spare, is greatly appreciated.

As for me, I'm getting by. I'm doing my best to take good care. I'm definitely not getting enough sleep, my meal plan schedule is tilted most days, and I'm feeling emotionally vulnerable most of the time. My intentional actions in response to all this have been to stay in even more contact with incredible support friends, personally preparing all of my meals (I don't know why--but for whatever reason, the weighing and measuring everything gives me some kind of secure feeling--hence the temporary hold on dining out), and taking some time off from work. I must say, my colleagues at the radio station have been super-supportive--and the owner of the company has been above and beyond generous with the time I've needed to take care of things in order to be there for mom and to be here for me, too.
A fairly recent photo of mom and me

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  1. I'm hoping and praying for the best for your Mom.

  2. Praying and sending loving karma to you and your mom. I'm so sorry for your whole family. Stay strong.

  3. sean, thinking of you and especially your mom during this very difficult time. xxxxx Dawn


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