What's Going On With Me?
Several friends have expressed concern
for me lately and I sincerely appreciate their inquires. I thought
it best to update anyone else who might be concerned: After two
sleep labs and a new cpap machine, my body is still rejecting the
therapy. This constant state of exhaustion has taken its toll on me
in several ways. It's affected my job, my weight loss, my attitude
and emotional well being—basically, it's wreaked havoc.
It's now
affecting my voice, and for someone like me who makes a living by
speaking—that's pretty scary.
I've done okay with food because I
know eating more isn't the solution to the issue, even when
you're too tired to care most of the time. As far as exercise goes, I
haven't lately. Why? Aside from the obvious exhaustion, the lack of
rest has had an effect, as if I were staying on my feet constantly,
causing extreme swelling to my right leg with lymphatic issues
(something that, thanks to weight loss, hasn't been an issue in over
4 years). This effect has left me very cautious about putting too
much pressure on it for fear of skin breakage. That hasn't happened
and I'm doing whatever I need to do to keep it from happening.
I
received a facebook message from a reader who asked, “You're
obviously struggling because you're not posting regularly, so how can
you “coach” others in your group with Gerri?” Great question, a
fair question indeed. First of all, Gerri is the certified life
coach in our group. I am a “coach” too, based exclusively on my
personal experiences along this road and my ability to communicate
and effectively encourage and offer support, as I've done with
hundreds of people over the last five years. My struggles with this
medical issue hasn't affected my ability to relate to group members,
offer suggestions, inspire and motivate in my unique way. The group
helps me too, especially with the support and guidance of group
members—and of course Gerri Helms, one of the best life coaches in
the business.
My goals and plans are wonderful and they're still valid,
waiting, if you will, while I attend to my immediate health concerns.
I'm taking care of me and doing it the best I can with self-
compassion and a realistic approach. I'm scheduled to see a
specialist tomorrow afternoon and I'm looking forward to finding
solutions to my health concerns.
Thank you for reading and for caring,
Sincerely,
Sean
