Since our last edition: I've maintained the integrity of my food plan boundaries, I've remained refined sugar-free, I've met or exceeded my daily water goal, I've enjoyed some good walks, some bodyweight strength exercises, and I've stayed well connected with exceptional support.
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
courage to change the things I can,
and wisdom to know the difference.
What is true and what can I do? The serenity prayer and those two questions help me connect with a measure of serenity each and every day. I write, "a measure" because if it were 100% serenity right now, I wouldn't be a human, I'd be a robot. I'm not a robot. Connecting with what is true helps me develop a strong gratitude list. There's much for which to be grateful, even during these times, right?
Waking up to missed calls and voicemails from mom's nursing home is never good. My mind often goes to the worst-case scenario. I took a deep breath and called them back. Mom fell again this morning. She's too weak physically to get up and around on her own, but she tends to forget that too easily. She's okay except for some bumps and bruising. No broken bones and no hospital trip.
After mom wasn't showing signs of improvement earlier in the week, they switched her antibiotic and it seems to be working well. She has much less brain fog it seems--and perhaps that's an indicator of the UTI gradually clearing.
Mom and I enjoyed a good "through the glass" visit last evening. It was a good long visit complemented by video chat connections with a lot of family members, including grandkids, her sisters, brother in law, and brother. Mom didn't suggest I sneak in for a fast hug like times before--and that showed me how, for the moment, she has greater clarity and more understanding of why these precautions are necessary right now. Considering the isolation of it all, she seems to be holding up really well in terms of her spirits and perspective.
My prayers are with so many during this unprecedented time in our history. How quickly things have changed for everyone. I can't even imagine the challenges facing those who are on the front lines of this pandemic--the doctors and nurses--the patients and families. The nasty element of isolation this virus requires--it's so sad. The stories, the news--part of keeping some kind of balance has quickly become managing the amount of news and information I'm consuming. I'm staying connected with reality, every day, but also allowing myself to take "mental health breaks" to simply enjoy a video chat with family and/or friends--or watching something that makes me laugh and smile.
I took extra time preparing my meal this morning. This slowing down and connecting with the process of planning, chopping, mixing, weighing and measuring, logging it in MFP, and creating the plate--then snapping an accountability pic and sharing that information publicly, gives me a measure of peace and calm. It isn't the food that comforts me, it's the slowing down; connecting with the boundaries of the process that helps. All the times in my life when I was "in the food," I couldn't eat fast enough--oftentimes so fast, I'd get sick and even if I didn't get sick, I'd shovel it in so quickly there was hardly ever any enjoyment--and this pattern would "inspire" me to eat more and more in a relentless search for what I believed it would give me.
I hope and pray I don't ever again forget the real and profound sources for mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual comfort. I know it isn't found on my plate or in the fridge. But that doesn't really matter. The disease of compulsive overeating/food addiction doesn't give a flip about what I know or don't know.
It's never what we know that counts, it's always what we do. At least that's what I've witnessed and continue to witness in the lives of those with longterm recovery. I'll continue keeping my mind and ears open and learning from what they do and how they make "it" important each new day, come what may.
View this post on Instagram#whatsfordinner 268g fresh catfish filets, rinsed and coated with 42g yellow cornmeal- then oven “fried” on a baking sheet with olive oil cooking spray. 208g red potato slices baked on the same pan with olive oil cooking spray. Approximately 6 seconds olive oil cooking spray for the meal. #dailypractice #foodplan #weighandmeasure 624 cal.
View this post on InstagramKind of an unusual #whatsfordinner I was going for fast and simple. This was it. Pita Burger. Joseph’s Flax-Oat Bran-Whole Wheat Pita with 6oz 96% lean ground beef, 33g red onion, 18g mustard, 16g refined sugar-free ketchup, and 31g dill pickle slices. Good burger! With a side of 5 leftover chicken wing drummers! Strange combo, perhaps, but it works really well tonight! #dailypractice #foodplan #weighandmeasure 661 cal.
View this post on Instagram#whatsfordinner Big 8.4oz salmon filet, baked- seasoned simply with salt and pepper, atop a bed of 134g sautéd onions and 2.1oz sliced mushrooms (I’m obviously out of mushrooms or I would have used wayyy more!), 240g fresh cut sweet potato fries, baked on the same pan with approximately 4 seconds olive oil cooking spray. #dailypractice #foodplan #weighandmeasure 683 cal.
View this post on Instagram#whatsforbreakfast 2 whole eggs scrambled, 115g simply potatoes diced potato and onion prepared with approximately 3 seconds olive oil spray and topped with 1 slice muenster. Sprouted grain Ezekiel toast topped with a generous 98g avocado, mashed and seasoned simply with salt and pepper. 12g refined sugar-free ketchup, total, atop eggs and potatoes. #dailypractice #foodplan #weighandmeasure 584 cal.
View this post on Instagram#ilovemyfruit A BIG bowl of fresh baked cinnamon apples. Logged it all in MFP, however- I’ll eat half now- and save the rest for later this evening. They’re good hot- and still good cold! Prepared quite simply: 16.4oz sliced Envy apple slices generously sprinkled with 12g organic ground cinnamon-then, baked covered with two tablespoons water, at 425 degrees for 20-30 min, depending on the firmness you prefer. #dessertapple #foodplan #weighandmeasure #dailypractice 273 cal.
View this post on Instagram#whatsfordinner Tried something different: Supreme Sloppy Joe Pitas! Not bad! 2 Joseph’s Flax-Oat Bran-Whole Wheat Pitas sharing: 8oz 96% lean ground beef, 122g refined sugar-free tomato sauce, spices (mainly pepper and a smidgeon of an all spice), 29g freshly diced red onion, 15g (1tbs) sour cream, 50g lettuce, and 28g shredded mild cheddar cheese. Delicious! Yay. #dailypractice #foodplan #weighandmeasure 588 cal.
View this post on Instagram#whatsforbreakfast Big Omelet. 5 egg whites & 1 whole egg with 5.4oz mushrooms, 30g sliced black olives, and 28g shredded mild cheddar cheese. 230g (2srv) Simply Potatoes diced potatoes pan prepared with 76g orange bell pepper, 43g finely diced red onion, salt, pepper, and approximately 3 seconds worth of olive oil cooking spray. Big plate. #dailypractice #foodplan #weighandmeasure 605 cal.
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