Sunday, June 30, 2019

June 30th, 2019 Close Call

June 30th, 2019 Close Call

Saturday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The past 36 hours have been really difficult for my mom. The one thing I forgot to mention in yesterday's post is how the infection affects blood sugar in dangerous ways. Her blood sugar climbed to 600 yesterday. This morning, she bottomed out at 22. That's not 222--- 22. It got scary very quickly. She was unconscious and sweating profusely and the nurse and I couldn't wake her. The nurse grabbed the glucose meter, got the blood sample--then the 22. Suddenly it became an emergency situation. Mom's hospital room immediately filled with five or six people. They were working fast to get the number back up. It was a very close call. Thank God, they were able to get it back up and stable.

The cardiologist came in this morning for his rounds. Mom's heart scan looks okay, aside from the normal stiffness that comes with age. Just minutes after that visit, mom's doctor came in and gave me the rundown of their treatment plan. Their biggest thing is getting the fluid out of her system. They've already reduced the fluid by a liter and that's reducing the coughing. The antibiotics are doing what they do and all they can do is continue a very close watch on her blood sugar, continue the medications, and she'll get through this situation.

I ordered dinner from the hospital and ate with mom last night. My calories were really low, so I drove down to the Sprouts and picked up a couple of bananas and a few single serving packs of Justin's refined sugar-free peanut butter. That was good.

After mom was stabilized, I spoon fed her breakfast--she was too weak to do it herself--then, found some space to take the walk I meant to take last evening. I decided to do that first before breakfast. I walked through the old neighborhood where my grandparents lived during my formative years. No music, no podcast episode, no phone conversation--just quietly walking down the streets of my youth. I sat on the steps of the vacant house next door where one of my best friends lived. It was an interesting place to pause and do some of the things I reserve for my morning foundational routine.

With the tense events of this morning, I waited too long for breakfast and put together a makeshift breakfast in the cafeteria: Honeydew melon, another banana, and another one of the natural peanut butter packets.

I ran into an old friend in the cafeteria. Bill Holmes was sitting there enjoying a good lunch, so we seized the opportunity to catch up. Bill is a fascinating person and it was a nice treat to see him again.

I left the hospital late this afternoon and made my way back home. A good shower and a nap were needed. I didn't rest well last night. I'm currently waiting on the nurses to call me back and that information will determine if I go back down tonight or wait until after my morning show tomorrow.

I'm about to have dinner and then head down to the studio to get a couple things done.

I sincerely appreciate the tremendous outpouring of support. Mom enjoyed me reading the messages to her from everyone. She kept asking questions, "Do I know them? Where are they from?"

She's going to make it through this. So will I. It's just a rough spot.

I'm thinking fajita chicken tacos for dinner.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Saturday, June 29, 2019

June 29th, 2019 Finding What Can Work-An Update On Mom and Me

June 29th, 2019 Finding What Can Work-An Update On Mom and Me

Friday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Missed calls at 3am from the nursing home are some of the worst things to wake up and find at 4:30am. The last month and a half have been the most challenging for mom. It's a snowball effect; a chain reaction type thing--the UTI creates a lot of fluid, spreading infection--the fluid pools, then congestive heart failure, the intense coughing starts and stresses her heart...it gets very difficult for her body to absorb oxygen--plus all the strange symptoms of the infection, many of which resemble dementia. I certainly don't understand it all. But I'm learning a lot from the nurses and doctors involved in her continued care. It gets super-scary, very fast, especially when it isn't completely understood or framed in the right perspective.

I called her nurse and was informed they had to rush mom to the ER via ambulance. I made arrangements for a colleague to cover my radio show and I headed that way. Mom wasn't in good shape at all. The worst, really. Clearly, she's not responding to the current course of treatment. The challenge for the doctors and nurses now is to find an approach that does work. The decision was quickly made to transfer her to a hospital with a cardiologist on staff--mainly because on top of everything we know, her heart was showing elevated enzymes. Mom was in and out of consciousness during this time--but in a waking moment--when she heard they were considering a transfer to Oklahoma City, she muttered how she'd rather go to Stillwater Medical Center. Mom got her wish. OKC was an option, but so was SMC, so that's what I chose.

Once stabilized, the ER prepared for her ambulance transfer and at that point, I made my way back to work for a little while. Our station had a big annual location broadcast to do from the All-American Fish Fry Blood Drive. I was scheduled as the on-air talent for this event--and it all worked out well, considering mom's transfer and how it would take a little while for her to get settled in at the new hospital. My plan was to finish the broadcast and head that way for an afternoon meeting with the doctor in charge of her care in Stillwater.

This blood drive gives everyone who donates a fried catfish dinner and a bunch of other incentives in appreciation of the donation. Even though I occasionally (every couple of months or so) allow catfish into my food plan, today wasn't the day. I made sure to carve out enough time to prepare a good breakfast at the studio before heading over to the broadcast. I proudly donated blood while on the air, too, which is something that always reminds me of when I couldn't at over 500 pounds with raging high blood pressure. My blood pressure checked in at 122/70. It doesn't get much better. I'm grateful.

The blood drive was a big success. Over 150 signed in and 130 were able to donate. We're doing another blood drive event on Tuesday--so important ahead of the 4th of July holiday, when the blood supply is low and the demand, unfortunately, is high.

I stopped by mom's room at the nursing home to grab her CPAP machine and some clothes and quickly headed South forty-two miles to Stillwater Medical. The doctor met with me a couple hours after I arrived to outline his care plan for mom. He's changing the antibiotic to combat the UTI, first thing. He also outlined several tests, including a heart scan, and also emphasized the importance of and the plan for getting the buildup of fluid off of her as quickly as possible. I was impressed with the doctor. He's looking at what's not working and he's taking on the challenge of finding what can work.

I stayed with mom until way into the evening. I took a break and ran over to Chipotle for a couple of chicken tacos and their incredible guacamole with a 1oz kids chips. It was perfectly on-plan and one of my favorite "standbys" when I'm away from home. Plus, it was super-fast and convenient!

Mom's brother, my uncle Keith, joined us for a visit last night, too. And mom's sister, Aunt Kelli, and her husband Tim visited with mom this morning. I made the trip home late last night--as I have a few work things I need to get done before going back down to the hospital. I'm planning on taking my laptop and staying at the hospital tonight.

One of the things I'm planning on doing this evening is a good walk into the neighborhoods just South of the hospital. My grandparents lived in that area during my formative years, so I have many memories from my childhood on those streets. I even had a paper route in that area one summer during my youth. It'll be good exercise and it'll be ripe with memories from those days more than thirty years ago.

My morning foundational routine is complete, I have a good food plan for today, I have a plan for staying connected with support, and I'm ready for my Saturday. I hope yours is a good one, too!       

Thank you to each and every person sending messages of prayer, positive energy, and best wishes for mom. I relay all of those to her and it makes her smile. She's always amazed by and grateful for the outpouring of love and support she receives. I am too.

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Thursday, June 27, 2019

June 27th, 2019 Defend The Fort

June 27th, 2019 Defend The Fort

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Just when it appeared mom was getting well and shaking this UTI, it seems to have ramped up. The past two nights have been very challenging for her. She's getting good care and the nursing staff is certainly treating it as aggressively as they can at this point. We'll see how this latest round of antibiotics affect her. I've been spending a little more time out there with her. She's also had a few family visitors today too, so that helps her and me.

When circumstances become more challenging, it requires me to amp up my awareness and mindfulness for what I'm doing and how I'm doing it. When stress and emotion go high, I must go tight on the fundamental elements of this daily practice. When things are smooth and steady, these are the things that, with practice and repetition, just become what we do. When it's not so smooth and steady, that's when the patterns can quickly develop resistance and require extra defensive measures. I must "check myself" often and make certain I'm staying between acceptable lines.

I like analogies. I use 'em a lot.

I look at my daily plan like it's a fortress. The boundaries of my plan are the walls. My job each day is to defend the fort. I have help--I'll call them allies, whose support helps keep my defense strong.

A football team can have the best offense in the history of the game, but if the defense isn't strong, stress is created on offense and games are lost. The fundamental elements of my plan--the food, the physical activity, the logging, tracking--all of these are part of the offense.

The defense is where I find my personal accountability and support measures, my daily positive visualizations, spiritual time, and making myself available in support of others. I've put together powerful offenses in the past that were completely void of a good defense. And those times didn't work well.

But life happens, right? And I'm historically an emotional/stress eater. One thing I had to accept: Life wasn't going to stop long enough for me to "get it together."  I had to find a way to maintain a good measure of consistency come what may. Because life keeps coming. And my time keeps going. So the time is now, regardless of circumstance.



Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Tuesday, June 25, 2019

June 25th, 2019 Get Things Done

June 25th, 2019 Get Things Done

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Mom's results from her latest UA came back positive for the infection she's been fighting for the past three weeks. The nurse filled me in yesterday afternoon on their plan of action. They're continuing the antibiotics for another five days, then they'll test again. Mom is really wanting to get out and about again soon, so hopefully, this clears quickly.

Yesterday was a good day for me. The energy was focused on-task from one thing to another. It was a very busy day and could've easily become a chaotic day, but taking a one thing at a time approach made it work. I was even getting things done at work that honestly could have waited. It felt good.

I stopped by the farmer's market yesterday afternoon for some farm fresh eggs and straight from the garden red onions for last night's dinner kabobs. I've been meaning to stop by the market and just never seem to get there, so that was a good thing. I'm telling you, I was in get things done mode yesterday!

My morning routine is complete, my food is planned and packed for today, and I'm as ready as I can be for whatever this day brings. Let's go!



Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Monday, June 24, 2019

June 24th, 2019 Little More

June 24th, 2019 Little More

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, I enjoyed a 45-minute walk in the park, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I needed last night's walk in the park. It was beautiful outside. I enjoyed it so much, I walked a little more than planned. A good visit with mom after the walk--a store trip and then home to prepare dinner rounded out a solid evening. Almost three weeks post-hospitalization, Mom is still recovering. She's coming along, slowly but certainly.

My morning routine is complete for this Tuesday morning, food is planned, and I'm headed into my Tuesday.   

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Sunday, June 23, 2019

June 23rd, 2019 Made It Work

June 23rd, 2019 Made It Work

The past couple of days were 4-star days: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The weather radio blaring in the 4am hour was the worst thing to hear--a tornado warning in our listening area. I jumped out of bed and was at the studio within minutes. The storm didn't do any major damage and no injuries were reported. It wasn't long before the storms calmed to a more reasonable Sunday morning thundershower.

I made it home not too long after 7am and went back to bed for a little while. This unexpected change in schedule kind of tilted my day, but I've made it work for today.

I spent some time with Amber, Noah, and had a chance to visit with my youngest daughter Courtney, Phoebe, and Oliver too--not to mention a visit with mom this evening. It's been a full day. I didn't really plan it to be that full, but that's how it worked out.



















I've prepared some good meals lately. My food plan through the week normally includes eggs, but mainly 3 egg whites and 1 whole. On the weekends, I typically enjoy 3 whole eggs with breakfast. My avocado and cheddar omelet with a side of apple slices this morning was just perfect! It might not seem too significant, but coming from a place of chaos with food--this is very different. It's mindful, aware, measured, and logged in MyFitnessPal. The time and attention I invest in the process helps support my continued wellness.

I plan on resting very well, very soon--and no threat of severe weather overnight!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Saturday, June 22, 2019

June 22nd, 2019 I Am

June 22nd, 2019 I Am

The past couple of days were 4-star days: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met and exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

My daughter and her little family unit are all moved. Her mom, Allen, and I helped clean their old place this morning. They did most of the work, I must admit and give them credit! I was so happy to hear that their friends and KL's brother helped them unload on the other end.

I made my way to the studio, prepared a good breakfast and accomplished a little bit of work. We're anticipating severe weather on-air coverage tonight, so I'm mentally ready for that quick change whenever the storms start popping. Other than that, nothing too exciting here. It's laundry day, I suppose that's exciting!

Somewhere in the middle is where life lives. The pursuit, for me, is to that place.

From the archives--July 2014:

Prior to May 15th, 2014, if you had asked me, "Are you going to the Class of '89 SHS 25th reunion in July?" I would have given a quick, "probably not, but I'll be at the 30th reunion." Never before has an epiphany rocked me to my core like it did on May 15th. I can't shake its effects and I don't want to. To be gifted a powerful mind-expanding epiphany focused on the very thing I've allowed to limit me my entire life was easily one of the greatest gifts I've received along this fantastic road of life.

Saying, "my worth and identity does not depend on the shape of my face, the size of my pants or the number on a scale," is something, if not explored, could be easily said but still not applied. Truly believing it, embracing--and wrapping my mind around the epitome of self-love, cemented something inside me. Still, like most everything, it isn't perfect. But it's powerful enough, that instead of avoiding the reunion, I wouldn't have missed it for the world. Flipping a lifetime perspective upside down doesn't happen without a little spillage of the marinade that seasoned me, as I discovered last night.

I turned up the radio super loud as I drove the forty-two miles to my destination. I was listening to the "Big 80's Weekend" on Tulsa'a Mix 96. The 80's groove was taking me back in time and I knew, in less than an hour I would be experiencing real-life encounters with people who were back there with me.

I was fine right up until I pulled into the parking lot, mere steps from people I haven't seen in what felt like forever. I turned the radio down, scanned the parking lot, thought to myself: this is it and then I froze.

I sat in the car staring blankly ahead for what must have been five minutes. What was I waiting for? Is it too late to back out now? It took exchanging some supportive text messages with a friend and some serious self-talk to get me out of the car. What was it? Body image/weight issues again? No, not at all, really.

To better understand my mentality you must know the rest of the story. I never walked across the stage with any of these people. I trashed my high school academic career. I'm self-educated, blessed with a divine gift of natural intelligence I've had my entire life. I've lived my life choosing and not choosing things on which to apply myself. School never received my focus, except when Mr. West challenged me to apply myself during an upcoming nine-week grading period. Mr. West offered: "I know you're smarter than the F you're making in my class. You're not trying. What would happen if you did?" I immediately started acing everything in his class and with extra credit, I turned what was once a low F, into an A+ in excess of 100%. The following nine-week grading period, I went back to not caring.

I enjoy taking things that seem negative and finding the positive, so here's this: I likely wouldn't be as studious along this road; as willing to dive into the deep dynamics of every facet affecting this journey, if not for carrying around a giant inferiority complex surrounding my academic career. When I go deeper in my introspective study and I unlock epiphanies stored like a treasure, it serves as another confirmation of my intelligence.

Despite my reluctance and mental noise outside the venue, I truly wanted to see these people tonight. And they wanted to see me. I was invited and the fact that I purposely obliterated my academic career didn't matter one iota to these classmates. From their perspective, I'm a wonderful success from the class of '89. And you know what, they're right. I am.

I chose to hold my head high and walk into the reunion with nothing but pure confidence. The confidence and peace in self I projected came back to me in the form of the warmest receptions from my fellow classmates. That's the thing about what we choose to carry and project: It comes back to us. And if we're not aware of this dynamic, we can easily mistake where we should place the blame when we suddenly feel less than good enough.

How we feel about ourselves has an energy all its own. If we wear it like a force field surrounding us, then everything we communicate and everything others communicate toward us is filtered through it, altering our perception in either direction, good or bad. In understanding this, assumptions and worry about what others think of us or what they might think of us, are revealed as the products of our fear and imagination and in effect, renders them powerless. 

I was free to enjoy just being myself. I was fascinated by my classmates and their experiences. I asked questions about their life and I listened and appreciated what they had to say. It was beautiful. We recalled stories, laughed and remembered the good times. Some of the conversations were so good, we had to "break" in order to make sure we made the rounds to everyone else.

In the opening paragraph of chapter three in my book, I wrote about the guys with the cool names in our school: Rob Lorenzo, Mike Van Pelt and Chris Holt. Movie star names, I tell ya! They were all there and what a treat it was to converse with them once again.

Many of my former classmates commented on my writings and how much they enjoyed occasionally peeking into my world via Facebook and this blog. It felt amazing to me. I was overwhelmed, wrapped in their sincere words and appreciation for what I do. I had a wonderful conversation with Lydia Morton and Sheryl Arthur, (whom I had a HUGE crush on in Junior High--I didn't mention that. :) And I enjoyed a profound discussion with Steve Troxel, whom I believe is one of the most talented, funny and artistic people I've ever known. I recalled how he would sit in drama class and draw the most amazing caricatures of the people around him. I told him how much his artistic ability fascinated me and how I didn't know how he did it. My brain doesn't work that way, it's incomprehensible. His reply gave me some perspective. He told me the same thing about what I do, saying: "I couldn't do what you did in your stand-up comedy or what you do on the radio. I would immediately freeze up. No way I could do what you do." The room was ripe with mutual love and respect.

Then, out of nowhere came Martha. My conversation with Martha was likely the highlight of my evening. You never know of the potential impact you can have on someone, simply by being honest and real in what you share, unless they come right up to you at your twenty-fifth high school reunion and tell you. Martha opened the conversation with "I just wanted to tell you how much your blog has meant to me." I remember that first line enough to quote her, but I'll need to paraphrase most of the rest. She related how when she discovered my blog it was at one of the lowest points in her life. She thanked me for having an impact on her in what she described as one of the "pivotal moments" in her life. What?? Are you talking to me? I hadn't a clue. I asked, "have we ever communicated via blog comments, email or facebook messages?" She said no. She was just quietly reading, relating and applying some of the explorations into her own life and wanted to express what a difference it had made for her. I was so touched, it took everything in me to keep from melting down into a pile of tears right there on the spot. Instead, I held it together, simply hugged her and thanked her for the kind words and for sharing with me. As if that wasn't enough, before the night ended, she expressed how she felt like I was building and leaving a legacy that will live on forever, much like fellow classmate, Dr. Bob Wetteman, a professor at the Air Force Academy in Colorado. I thanked her, then became immediately speechless.

I walked out of the reunion with a euphoric feeling created by nearly six hours of connecting with people I didn't realize I cared so much about, but I do. I wrapped the night by having a brief conversation with Chris Holt. He was the star quarterback and one of the most popular, if not THE most popular guy in school. Back then, he was everything I wished I could be. I wanted to be just like him. He was smart, funny, athletic and never at a loss for attention from the girls. In our moments tonight, he, without much effort it seemed, revealed a most loving and compassionate humanness rarely experienced these days. His calm spirituality came through without saying a word in that direction. He was at peace and it showed as he, his wife and I stood outside after midnight on Main Street, in the cool night air of our hometown. He expressed how happy he was to see me, said: "I love you brother" and gave me a hug. At that moment, I realized I was just like him after all.


Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Thursday, June 20, 2019

June 20th, 2019 All Or Nothing

June 20th, 2019 All Or Nothing

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I took a little time off work today and spent some time with Amber and KL, helping load their U-Haul. We have more work to do tonight. I'm headed that way.

I kept my dinner simple, repeating the same lean beef, cabbage, onion, and mushroom filled Joseph's pitas I've enjoyed recently. I love 'em--and when I need to simplify, they're super fast and easy to make.

Sharing a post from the archives tonight:

The following is an exchange I shared this weekend with a longtime supporter of this blog. Please understand, I DON'T know it all--and I don't claim to know it all. So when I speak or write, it's coming from my personal experience. The learning along this road never stops. Some of the perspectives I've come to better understand about me and my past experiences are shared within this exchange. Perhaps some of it might resonate with you, too.

Longtime reader: "Please Tell me some steps to eliminate "all or nothing" thinking."

Reply: All or nothing thinking comes from the self-imposed rules we create for our plan. These rules are developed from our lifetime of experience that has created our perception of what it means or what we believe is required to lose weight successfully.

What happens is this: We honor those old perceptions by creating our own set of rules- and maybe these rules are on paper or not- they can exist subconsciously, too... And then, when we do something that isn't in line with these old patterns of thinking- we feel like we've failed... When in reality, we haven't failed at all... But all or nothing thinking suggests we have- and then we get into the, "forget it, why bother" area of our brain.

Longtime reader: "That would apply to the number on the scale not matching what we are expecting also, wouldn't it!?"

Reply: Yes- the idea is to embrace our plan... And since the scale takes into account about seven different things... We let the scale do what it does. We just embrace our plan and move forward. The scale will catch up. And after a while, if it doesn't, we can modify our plan if needed. The idea is to take the power away from the scale. It's about finding our peace and calm in the embrace of our plan, rather than from a number on the scale.

Because the scale isn't a direct reflection of our plan. Yet, many times, we allow that number to completely negate our plan- and discourage us- when truly, it wasn't our plan the scale was reflecting on any particular number it shows. I'm so incredibly proud of you. Thank you for reaching out for support!

It is challenging- but it's completely possible, to simplify our plan. Throw out the preconceived notions, develop a plan where we can consistently hit these "new marks," --and we can feel great about it, instead of constantly feeling defeated because we're not living up to what we thought was required of us to be successful.

The smaller, simplified plan, is one that we can embrace. It's designed for our consistent progress- and it evolves in time. The more consistency we give this new, simplified list of "non-negotiable" elements, the better we feel... Because finally, we're able to focus on a plan we can feel good about-- and one that ultimately, gets us to where we're wanting to go along this road... And wasn't that the goal to begin with? :)

And when our brains start telling us things reminiscent of the old diet mentality- we must reach for support and a different perspective. It's important. You're important.

Longtime reader: "THANK YOU! Thank you! THANK YOU! SO needed to hear your explanations!!!"

Reply: You're always welcome. I hope that perspective helps!

Longtime reader: "More than you know! Your words caused a HUGE AHA for me!  I needed this even more than I knew!!! Thanks."

Reply: Awe, I'm so glad. :) That does my heart good!!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
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Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Questions or comments? Send an email! transformation.road@gmail.com

Wednesday, June 19, 2019

June 19th, 2019 Recover Well

June 19th, 2019 Recover Well

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I spoke with mom a few times yesterday. I typically don't visit on Wednesday's since that day is my busiest of the week, usually. She continues to recover well. I've really got to hand it to the nursing home, their care has been next level for mom since her return from the hospital. It's been hospital-level care right there where she lives. When I speak with mom and her biggest concern is getting her hair done, I know--she's doing okay.

My oldest daughter, Amber, her husband KL, and my little granddaughter Raegan will be loading up a U-Haul truck today for their move to the Western part of our state. It's only three hours away. I remind myself again and again of this because it's not like they're moving across several states. There will be occasional weekend visits! I'm proud of them and happy for the opportunities awaiting them down that way. I'm headed over to their place a little later in the morning, after working a 1/2 day, to help them load the truck. That'll be a good workout, I bet!

The new 8-week session of the accountability and support group I facilitate started very well last night. Our Thursday night week 1 group mentoring/coaching call is tonight, so there's still time to join our amazing team! If you're interested in finding out what it's all about, send me an email! transformation.road@gmail.com 


Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Monday, June 17, 2019

June 17th, 2019 Worth It

June 17th, 2019 Worth It

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I stopped by mom's after some weather coverage tonight. I didn't stay long, just long enough to check on her and see that she's doing fairly well, considering the healing is still in progress. They've started doing physical therapy too, so that's good.

I made a quick grocery trip before coming home to prepare dinner. One of my favorite meals--and I haven't had it in a while (see the Instagram below), so that was really good. I'm headed to bed soon. We might have severe weather overnight--I hope not, but more is in the forecast!

If you're thinking about joining the accountability and support group I facilitate now's the time to register! Our next 8-week session starts tomorrow!!

What does $2.14 a day buy? A cup of coffee? A gallon of gas? A couple of items from a fast food value menu?

What if I told you an average of $2.14 a day could enter you into a private-exclusive weight loss accountability and support group? This group is NOT about dieting, it's about living.


It's not a weight loss plan. It's not a diet. It's a tool to help you identify, create, strengthen, and practice a sustainable plan for you. Like any tool, the more you pick it up and use it, the more it helps. This group is all about support and accountability--and those two things have been absolute non-negotiable elements of success in my ten-plus-year experience along this road.

What if that support group was much more than a weekly live-conference call? What if it was also 24/7 spot support via text and direct communications with fellow group members and me? You'll also be able to take advantage of daily accountability and support measures on the "secret" Facebook group page!

Could this make a difference for you?

Is it worth an average of $2.14 a day?

If you're tired of doing the same thing and getting the same outcomes, join our team!

Our 8-week support group is small, exclusive and personal. It's powerful support. It's different. And it's available to you from wherever you are located.

There's something special about this group.

It's the power of accountability and support. It's about not going it alone. It's sharing this commitment with fellow team members who can relate to your experience.

Our individual plans are unique, our goals are unique, our current status (weight loss/maintenance) can be different--my goodness, we have members just getting started and some who are in maintenance mode or real close!  We have members who have lost in excess of 200 pounds--and some whose goal was 20 or 30...it's all relative. 

This is a diverse group-- but one thing is remarkably similar. Each member who makes an effort to engage, commit to and embrace the accountability and support offered, typically experiences success.

If you're interested email me right away with questions! transformation.road@gmail.com


Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
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My Twitter: SeanAAnderson
Facebook: www.facebook.com/seananderson505
Instagram: SeanAAnderson
Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Questions or comments? Send an email! transformation.road@gmail.com

Sunday, June 16, 2019

June 16th, 2019 Not A Bad Thing

June 16th, 2019 Not A Bad Thing

Yesterday was a 5-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, I made it to the RecPlex for a good elliptical workout, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I spent some time with mom yesterday as she continues to recover. It wasn't a trip out and about like she prefers, but it was a good visit. As soon as she's well enough, we'll do that again. Mom's sister (my Aunt Kelli) is getting similar care in the Stillwater hospital. Mom expressed how she'd love to go there for a visit, but she just isn't well enough for a trip like that right now.

My daughters were both fairly busy yesterday, but we three connected and communicated on Father's Day. We didn't have a get-together as in years past, although we will soon, I'm sure. It was a fairly calm and relaxed Father's day and that's not a bad thing at all.

The next 8-week session of the accountability and support group I personally facilitate starts Wednesday! It's not too late for you to sign up and join us. Our team is something special!! If you're just getting started or anywhere along the way, I'm certain you'll find the structured support and team dynamic helpful! We have a "secret" Facebook group page for daily interactions and each member is on one of three weekly hour-long group mentoring/coaching calls. If you're ready to try something different, let me know as soon as possible! Send an email: transformation.road@gmail.com

My Aunt Connie and Cousin Doug will be visiting this evening at mom's place. I'm headed out there to see them and mom before hitting the trail for a good walking workout followed by dinner.


Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
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My Twitter: SeanAAnderson
Facebook: www.facebook.com/seananderson505
Instagram: SeanAAnderson
Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Questions or comments? Send an email! transformation.road@gmail.com

Saturday, June 15, 2019

June 15th, 2019 What A Relief!

June 15th, 2019 What A Relief!

Yesterday was a 4-star day: I maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Reader email/question: "Sean-I've been reading you for years. I sometimes fall in and out, so I don't read every single post. Every time I come back, you're here and I always find that consistency and commitment inspiring. I hope your mom gets well soon. That situation sounds stressful. I'm on the fence about whether or not I'm a food addict and that brings me to my question. How do I know for sure? I don't know because I have periods of doing really well followed by periods of not doing well at all. When I'm doing well, I feel like maybe I'm not. But then, when I'm struggling I think, I'm totally an addict. I once read a post from you about your own denial and I could relate a lot. How do I know for sure?" -Jenna in New York

Jenna, thank you for writing to me. In my opinion, denial is fueled by the enormous stigma that feels attached to the word "addict" or "addiction." It's tough to admit I think because it suggests there's something wrong with us, a flaw that runs deep in our internal code...and maybe if we can somehow control our behavior, then we're not an addict... and what a relief that would be! There comes a point--and it's a point unique to the individual, and sadly, some never reach it---but there's a point where the truth and consequences overpower the denial.

Most everyone is familiar with the term "rock-bottom." That's the point where the truth asserts itself so strongly, it's very difficult to deny. It's completely unique to the individual. My rock-bottom might be just getting started for someone else, or mine might be several layers deeper than someone else's experience. The shift in perspective needed, in my humble opinion, is this:

I'm an addict; what a relief! Great!!! Because now I know. It explains a lot! Once that personal declaration is made, without question, the measure of self-honesty needed to connect the dots of our behaviors becomes available. Denial keeps us on the merry-go-round of chaos and insanity. Once we embrace our addiction, we have a brand new opportunity to jump off that ride. Suddenly, we're not on another diet plan. Instead, we're inspired to create a recovery plan. Creating that all-important daily practice of things helps keep us fresh, one day at a time--because the merry-go-round is always sitting there waiting--and its deceptive allure offers a million false promises. The more we're immersed in our daily practice of recovery, the easier it becomes to see through the falsehoods offered by the merry-go-round. Here's the deal:

I'm not an expert in any way, shape, or form. My personal daily practice isn't perfect and I have a lot to learn. There are many things I must do to strengthen my recovery. I'm working on those things. All I have is my experience and a willingness to remain open to the possibilities. I listen to those who have much more experience than me--I study and learn from the experts with an open mind.

The experts, including Phil Werdell at Shift-Recovery By Acorn, have put together a serious of questions to help you determine if you're a food addict. Here's the link: https://foodaddiction.com/am-i-a-food-addict/
 
I hope that helps, Jenna! Thank you for reading!

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Last night included another round of late-night weather coverage at the studio. Usually, by this time of year, it starts slowing down considerably. Hopefully, the stormy pattern will slow soon. I did get home and took delight in not setting an alarm clock. I slept in very well. I needed it!

Mom is doing fairly well this morning. Her biggest issue so far was not getting coffee with her breakfast. Lately, that isn't the type of thing we're discussing. So, that's a good thing. She's pretty much the same as yesterday as far as her condition. She obviously still has the infection and side effects of the infection happening, but the care continues--and they're constantly monitoring her, and that gives me a large measure of comfort.

It's Father's Day! I'm not sure what the plan is for today, just yet. But I'm ready for whatever it becomes. My morning foundational routine is complete, I'm about to prepare a good meal, and I have plans to get a good workout today. Mom and I will not be doing our weekly Sunday outing, although that was also a topic this morning during our conversation. She's always ready to go, sick or not, oxygen tank or not--let's go!! But no, not a good plan and we're not doing that until these health issues have passed. I will go and spend some time visiting with her later today.

If you're a dad, have a wonderful Father's Day!!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
MFP Username: SeanAAnderson
My Twitter: SeanAAnderson
Facebook: www.facebook.com/seananderson505
Instagram: SeanAAnderson
Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Questions or comments? Send an email! transformation.road@gmail.com





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