Friday, November 15, 2019

November 15th, 2019 That Would Be Nice

November 15th, 2019 That Would Be Nice

Since our last edition, I've maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I've remained refined sugar-free, I've met or exceeded my daily water goal, I've enjoyed some good walks, and I've stayed well connected with exceptional support.

Mom called me the other day--and that's not unusual, we talk on the phone at least a few times each day, but this call was different. She was enthusiastically inviting me to have dinner with her at the nursing home's annual Thanksgiving dinner for residents and families. "Of course I'll be there!" Mom is doing much better these days and seeing her excited about something is a very positive thing. I walked in and there she was at the table surrounded by other residents and staff. Mom introduced me to a few I haven't met and within minutes the staff was serving us a meal. I asked if I could make my own plate and it wasn't a problem at all. I was able to assemble a good on-plan meal. It was a late lunch for me, pushing back my dinner plans, but it was worth it, 100%.

We had a company event the other day that included all kinds of "not my food." I'm grateful for the neutrality I seem to have in situations like this. I prepared my on-plan lunch and enjoyed my food along with everyone else. The fact that I didn't eat what everyone else was eating did not, in any way, shape, or form, take away from the special occasion. I'm not opposed to eating what everyone else is eating IF it fits into my food plan boundaries, but if it doesn't, it doesn't--and sacrificing the integrity of those boundaries doesn't come cheap. The cost is dramatically high. I'd rather not pay that price.

There was a time when I'd convince myself how if I didn't eat what everyone else was eating, then it would somehow ruin things--whatever those things are...or it might be insulting to someone who might have prepared something special for the occasion. What I've discovered in this daily practice is how those old tapes were not true and largely a product of my overactive imagination--helped along by the rationalizations created by my addicted brain. Granted, there are some people who will say things like, "oh, you've got to at least take a bite of this stuff." Uh, no, thank you. If that happens and someone actually does get offended by my decline, that's their stuff, not my stuff.

It's interesting to me because if somebody says they've been sober for ten years, the typical response isn't--"oh, but you've never tried my margaritas!! Come on, just a sip?" Yet, with food, it happens.

I prepared a fantastic dinner tonight. The best part was dancing around my small kitchen with 80's pop playing through my earbuds as I casually took my time.

I have a broadcast Saturday morning from a grocery store in the next town north of here. It's the same grocery store from countless broadcasts over the years. Their advertising works well! I'm glad. It works well for me too because it's as if I'm getting paid to grocery shop. It's truly one of my favorite places to do a location broadcast.

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Staying focused is a challenge for me. Certainly, there are things I've found a way to stay focused on or I wouldn't be here, but of all the things I focus on well, there are even more things that don't get the same level of attention. In an effort to change this pattern, I'm looking at the things I'm able to focus on and dissecting what makes those work. I'm hoping this personal study will help me unlock a few areas of progress important to me.

I think it starts with the importance level I subconsciously assign things in my life. My "importance level knob" seems to have two settings, "life or death" and "that would be nice." Does that make sense? From one extreme to the other--The life or death setting requires boundaries and daily practices designed to help keep me well. The that would be nice setting doesn't conjure up solid boundaries, daily practices, or action plans--because I can survive without the things attached to this setting. Not thrive, just survive.

Creating a few new settings between these two is critically important for me and my personal development.

Before I break each of my goals down into workable action plans they must receive a new importance level setting in my brain.

That would be nice is a setting best kept for things largely out of my control, like winning the lottery. Sure, that would be nice, but it isn't likely--especially since I hardly ever buy tickets. But winning, that would be nice, huh?

I have very real and important goals of mine that deserve better importance level settings. Clearly, they're not literally life or death things. But they do mean life or death for my dreams.

I don't want to reach the end of my life--laying there with my time up as family and friends stop by to visit, and I'm preoccupied with mental visits from unrealized goals and dreams that were never given a chance to flourish. "Oh, what could have been" is a phrase I don't want in my brain during my last days on this earth. I want to be full of gratitude for a life full of blessings.
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Examining these things is a good place to find me. I'm looking at what works well and pulling some of that structure into areas of my life that need structure and importance. I'm creating new importance level settings in my brain. I'm creating action plans for real progress. I'm changing that would be nice into that is a must.

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Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

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Wednesday, November 13, 2019

November 13th, 2019 Elements Of Chance

November 13th, 2019 Elements Of Chance

Since our last edition, I've maintained the integrity of my calorie budget, I've remained refined sugar-free, I've met or exceeded my daily water goal, I've enjoyed some good walks, and I've stayed well connected with exceptional support.

I took my exercise indoors last night at the RecPlex. The frigid temps of late are likely temporary for us. We're expecting more seasonal mid 50's for highs the rest of the week. Mom's place isn't too far from the RecPlex, so I stopped for a visit on the way home. She had her hair fixed earlier yesterday. She's always happiest when her hair is looking great. It was a good indoor walk and a good visit-- the perfect ending to a relatively decent Tuesday.

Not my food. Those three words have helped me tremendously over the years. Not my food. I rarely write about temptations--and if/when I do, you know, I must have been in a compromising circumstance--likely hungry, angry, lonely, or tired--or, just plain unprepared, that can happen too.

I can only write and share from my experience, of course--can't speak for anyone but me. But the "not my food" approach starts with what is my food. I love the on-plan food I eat. It's a food plan containing only foods I enjoy, enjoy preparing--and it's a food plan with just enough balance between variety and repetition.

I fully appreciate the significance of my food plan in terms of what it brings. Peace, calm, and stability with food means, I'm well. I know what is my food and what isn't my food. The consequences of my food and not my food are very clear to me because of experience.

The "Not my food" approach is the only thing that works for me.

"Just a little" or "just this time" or "one isn't going to hurt me," are phrases found in perspectives that'll ultimately kill someone like me. Sounds dramatic, I know. But it's straight up my truth. Nearly twenty years near, at, or above 500 pounds as an out of control food addict, I don't take it lightly. But at the same time, I don't stress. With clear and honest vision, I know what fits in my food plan and what doesn't. On days when the lines get blurred and my choices are clearly affected or potentially affected by whatever circumstance in play, I must reach for support. Because I don't play.

I make sure to never put the responsibility of my food plan on anyone else--I don't depend on anyone or elements of chance to protect the integrity of my food plan. I must be prepared. I must be responsible for my food plan.

I really enjoy preparing food in the kitchen. I don't fancy myself a cook. I simply prepare most things. The process gives me pause. The weighing and measuring, the logging, the preparing, the social media posts--all of it has become ways to promote mindfulness, awareness, and pause. Those things are not part of my deeply ingrained natural settings. Doing these things act as speed bumps, helping keep me within certain "speed limits" with food. It's a practice each day.

My morning foundational routine is complete and I'm ready to launch this Wednesday. I'm full of gratitude this morning for a long list of things.

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#whatsfordinner Meatloaf with pan prepared sweet potatoes and green beans. What makes this meatloaf work is the 96% lean ground beef: Keeps the calorie count low. The mushrooms: Helps keep it moist and give it volume. The individual muffin tin: Packs it in and helps hold it together. 6oz 96% lean ground beef, 1 egg white, 77g orange bell pepper, 63g white onion, 4.9oz sliced and chopped white mushrooms, 53g refined sugar-free ketchup mixed in- and an additional 17g refined sugar-free ketchup on top after baking. Meatloaf calories: 362. 158g diced sweet potato, 58g white onion, 40g orange bell pepper, 3.5oz mushrooms, and approximately 3 seconds olive oil cooking spray. Pan prepared sweet potato dish: 216 cal. 134g green beans: 22 cal. #dailypractice #foodplan Total meal calories: Exactly 600. I love it when it accidentally hits a whole number like that. Lol. I know- I’m weird... in a good way! But I love it. Whatevs. #accountability
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Do you own an "I'm Choosing Change" wristband? Here's the deal, I'm not a very good salesman. I haven't offered these consistently on this blog--yet, I have them available! I wear mine daily as a constant reminder of why my daily practice of things is important. I'm not alone, either. This powerful message is worn on the wrists of people in a dozen states, maybe more, I haven't counted--but it's up there!! From New York to California and from Canada all the way to Scotland, they're out there! For me, it's simply a daily reminder to be open, willing, mindful, to pause, and to be intentional. If I'm not those things, I get stuck at the line of least resistance and back there is where the old patterns and behaviors thrive. Your order includes priority shipping so you'll get it quickly! Here's the link to order yours right now: https://imchoosingchange.com/product/wristband/

My website shares a phone number with my podcast, Transformation Planet, and it's always available for you! Have a question? Want to share your story? Leave a voicemail or Text me! 580-491-2228 I'll text you back!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

My website: www.imchoosingchange.com

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
MFP Username: SeanAAnderson
My Twitter: SeanAAnderson
Facebook: www.facebook.com/seananderson505
Instagram: SeanAAnderson
Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Questions or comments? Send an email! transformation.road@gmail.com





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