I haven't felt the best today. Mom hasn't either. In fact, her nurse called me today to inform me of her condition. It's nothing serious, but certainly, includes unfavorable symptoms. I'll spare you the graphic details. I haven't had the same extreme symptoms she's had, but I've felt not well. I slept well last night and I've made rest a priority today. I'm over 400 calories short of my maintenance calorie budget and I'm going to let that be okay for today. An occasional day below budget isn't a bad thing. Besides, since I'm about to retire for the night, I'll have been up less than 12 hours--so actually, it seems reasonable.
I need the rest tonight. Tomorrow is a heavily involved day from start to finish.
I didn't accomplish everything I wanted to accomplish this weekend. I did maintain the integrity of the plan that keeps me well. And that is a wonderful thing to me.
I had fun with dinner tonight. I made pita pizzas. Let me be clear--pizza, like the kind from a pizza place, is certainly on my list of trigger foods. I do not, under any circumstances, eat take-out pizza, not because there's something wrong with it--rather, it's my brain--If I eat a slice, my brain wants 8 more. That's how I'm wired. It just is. And that's precisely why I must make my plan important each day--otherwise, I know what happens--I've lived what happens when I don't make a daily plan important.
Is it the refined sugar in the crust and sauce? Is it the prominence of take-out pizza in hundreds of binges from my past? Maybe all of those combined. Pizza from a "pizza place" isn't my food and it will not be my food for as long as I live with continued recovery. That's just me. Maybe you can do it and be perfectly fine. I know myself well enough to know, I can't.
But for whatever reason, when I take the time, consideration, and care in making certain all ingredients are refined sugar-free, and I take the time to meticulously chop and weigh, to the gram and ounce, each ingredient, then I log it all in MyFitnessPal--it changes it for me. Now, instead of my brain categorizing it as an "indulgence," it's simply categorized as an on-plan dinner--weighed, measured, logged, refined sugar-free--and enjoyed.
Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget (as in 'didn't exceed'-I was over 400 calories short), I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support.
I really hope and pray mom is feeling better tomorrow. I hope to feel better too. I stopped by for a fast visit this evening. The anti-nausea medication had rendered her absolutely out of her head. She was in a zombie state and wasn't making any sense with her speech and thoughts. I'm grateful that she's in a place where she's getting the immediate medical attention she needs at any given time.
I'm grateful for many things, actually.
Today's Accountability Tweets:
Big sleep in. Needed it. Late #morningdeal 2 cups water, 20 push-ups & 20 squats✅✅✅Done. Coffee pass earned. pic.twitter.com/lGicO9VMso— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 30, 2017
Three tablespoons half & half in the first cup. Another with same, soon. 120 cal. pic.twitter.com/Xk5cpyOtTf— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 30, 2017
Breakfast in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/WnWlBKp56h— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 30, 2017
Extra cup with brunch. 2 tbs half & half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/fiGsYOi6gw— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 30, 2017
Brunch. 6.5oz petite sirloin, 3 egg white/1 whole egg omelet w/116g avocado. 220g cantaloupe. 674 cal. pic.twitter.com/qXln58r2DG— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 30, 2017
7.1oz fresh pineapple & 141g cantaloupe. 147 cal. pic.twitter.com/8FKM2e88W4— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 30, 2017
Toppings. pic.twitter.com/N0xSt7zUvJ— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 1, 2017
Dinner in MyFitnessPal. Not shown in screen shot: 4 slices mozzarella cheese. pic.twitter.com/LEjKbUHNjp— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 1, 2017
3 cups water with dinner #watertracking #wateraccountability Not the best water day so far- some catching up to do! pic.twitter.com/vPa72HNJga— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 1, 2017
Ingredients prepared, weighed, and topped. Joseph's Flax-Oat Bran-Whole Wheat Pita Pizza dinner is happening soon! pic.twitter.com/iAMoktxZPW— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 1, 2017
2 Joseph's pitas w/62g rsf Priano tom-basil marinara, 6oz 90% lean beef, 4oz mshrms, 81g red pepper, 69g red onion & 4 slices mozz. 707 cal. pic.twitter.com/I5t9TxzouT— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 1, 2017
3 more cups water meets today's #watergoal 248g cantaloupe & 119g banana #lastfoodofday 190 cal. pic.twitter.com/CQ5mIRNnBr— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 1, 2017
Thank you for reading and your continued support,