Saturday, November 30, 2019

November 30th, 2019 Where Did He Go?

November 30th, 2019 Where Did He Go?

Since our last edition, I've maintained the integrity of my food plan boundaries, I've remained refined sugar-free, I've met or exceeded my daily water goal, I've enjoyed some good walks, and I've stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The past couple of days have been filled with many moments where a pause for acknowledging blessings and expressing gratitude for them was intentional. It had to be at times because it's a little more challenging when not everything goes as planned. We had family members who had to cancel their trip, some who were not feeling well, some who had to leave our gathering early, and we forgot to bring coffee to our gathering--and come on, post-dinner coffee is an Anderson family tradition!! The coffee "situation" did lead to a precious moment with my grandson Noah--more on that in a few minutes. But seriously...

Mom wasn't doing well. Honestly, had we realized just how much she was struggling, we probably wouldn't have picked her up for this gathering. Her Co2 levels were obviously up, if not for the oxygen supply we had, it would have been much worse---so she was generally in a fog, very unstable, not able to think straight or engage in her normal ways. Noah even noticed. saying, "Grandma, are you okay?" Mom didn't feel like eating either--maybe two bites the entire dinner and no dessert; her condition barely kept her awake. Between the restroom trips and transporting to and from, getting in and out of the car, she had more than a few "almost fall" moments. When I safely returned her to the nursing home, her nurse met us in the hall--spending fifteen minutes explaining what was happening and why--and she took time to thoroughly explain their plan of action for treating this situation before it sends her back for another hospital stay. Honestly, I wasn't sure if mom could make it through the night without a hospital trip, considering everything. But her nurses there are really good and very attentive to mom. By Friday afternoon, mom was doing some better. Not 100% by any stretch of the imagination, but noticeably better. Her lead nurse did inform me that "she won't be getting out again for a while until we can get her better and stronger."

Okay, the coffee thing... It wasn't too long after dinner when we realized we had forgotten the coffee. I checked on Starbucks and the info that popped up suggested they were open. Because the after-dinner visiting over coffee is a thing for us, Noah and I teamed up to save the day! We took coffee orders and made our way to the Batmobile--I mean, my car. Starbucks wasn't open after all. We sat for a couple minutes contemplating our next move. We could run to my place and grab coffee--or...wait a second, McDonald's! The Golden Arches has coffee--and it was just up the street---and they were open! Never mind it took a full twenty-minutes to get four large cups of coffee-- they were one of the few places open and totally slammed with customers--it happens. The real moment came as I was politely asking the McDonald's employee at the window about the cream they use for the coffee.

Me: "The cream for the coffee, is that half and half?" "Uh, I don't know--it's just creamer." Me: "Is it liquid or powder?" "Liquid. It looks like milk." Me: "Is it a sweetened type of creamer?" "I don't think so." Me: "I'm sorry, I know you're busy, but could you please ask your manager if the creamer is pure half and half? I need to make sure it doesn't contain sugar or any kind of sweetener."

The McDonald's employee asked someone and came back with a confirmed answer, "sir, it's just half and half, no sugar."  Here's where the moment with Noah happened...

First of all, some context-- Noah doesn't remember me at my heaviest. He doesn't know me in any other way than I am right now. As far as I knew, he was totally oblivious to all of this transformation and recovery business. He's six years old, I mean really, we don't discuss it at all. But he notices, yes, oh yes, he notices---and I discovered this when he said: "You can't have sugar PoPo or you'll get fat again." Whoa. Wow. "That's right buddy, PoPo doesn't eat the sugar so I can stay healthy. I didn't know you knew about that." "I've seen the pictures of you fat. People are probably like, hey--where did he go?" I just paused in that moment and said, "I love you, buddy." "I love you too, PoPo."

Where did he go? Powerful words from a six-year-old. I immediately felt a rush of emotion at that moment. I held back a few tears as we waited for the coffee. I was pausing for gratitude in a strong way. I'm still here. By the grace of God, I'm still here.

When we finally made it back to the lodge, Courtney, Lucas, and two of my grandchildren had left the gathering early. Courtney and the kids were all exhausted--Courtney after working all day--and Lucas, after being up all day ahead of his 11pm work time. It was understandable, completely, but still disappointing--we hadn't taken pictures. I had tried to get some of Phoebe but she refused, turning her head away at every attempt. This circumstance coupled with the constantly running preoccupation with mom's condition made things challenging. But still, we'd be blind if we didn't or couldn't pause for the enormous blessings in the room. They were right in front of us, literally...

Uncle Sig survived a massive heart attack and emergency open-heart surgery earlier this year. There he was, with us--and with a measure of calm, I don't remember seeing from him before. To have him with us, considering what he went through--was/is a miracle.

Lunch yesterday with Amber and Raegan, dinner last night with Uncle Sig, Aunt Jean (mom's sister), Amber, KL, and Raegan, and more visiting--my goodness, it's been a fantastic couple of days. This beautiful holiday weekend continues today with a trip to my hometown to take in the bedlam football game between Oklahoma State and Oklahoma. KL (my son in law) and I will have an amazing experience at the game, I'm sure. KL has never attended an OSU/OU game--and for me, I haven't since I was eleven or twelve--back when my best friend and I would ride our bikes to the stadium and sneak in at halftime. I'm planning some time with Courtney tomorrow evening, too--perhaps getting a little more time with Phoebe and Oliver, too.

The food? It was great. I honored the boundaries of my food plan and that too, in and of itself is a miracle and a big source of gratitude for me.

Mom is getting plenty of visiting time with her sister, brother in law, and a cousin that'll be stopping by for a visit with her this afternoon.

My morning foundational routine is complete. My houseguests are up and in the next room--and I'm about to prepare a wonderful breakfast for us all.

My food plan today will require some preparations and diligence. I'm willing to do whatever it takes to take care of what I need today.

I'm still here and I'm immensely blessed and overflowing with gratitude. 














































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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

My website: www.imchoosingchange.com

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Wednesday, November 27, 2019

November 27th, 2019 Thanksgiving!

November 27th, 2019 Thanksgiving!

Since our last edition, I've maintained the integrity of my food plan boundaries, I've remained refined sugar-free, I've met or exceeded my daily water goal, I've enjoyed some good walks, and I've stayed well connected with exceptional support.

The changing of the seasons from summer to fall was always a popular time for me to start weight loss attempts. Thanksgiving was never far away and it almost always signaled the beginning of the end. The only time it didn't stop my efforts cold, was when I started losing weight in the fall of 2008. My approach to that Thanksgiving was structured with a plan. I fully believed if I could maintain the integrity of that plan I could accomplish two things: I could enjoy Thanksgiving and stay on track beyond the special day. I made my plan important. I made me important. And for once in my life, Thanksgiving didn't signal the beginning of the end. It was the beginning of many new perspectives.

Tomorrow will mark my 12th Thanksgiving since I started along this path. I require a plan each and every day and this Thanksgiving will not be different.

I will start my day like I do every day, making time for prayer, meditation, my gratitude list, positive visualizations, and positive affirmations. I'll stay connected with support buddies throughout the day and that always strengthens my resolve. In fact, I always ramp up my support reach-outs on big food holidays. I don't have to be in crisis mode to simply send a, "How are you doing? Happy Thanksgiving!"

I'll indulge in conversation, take pictures, give hugs, and catch up with loved ones. I'll focus on gratitude, giving thanks for my many blessings and expressing to people how much I appreciate them, I'll make some form of exercise activity important, and I'll assign a secret mission or two into my plan. A secret mission is a focus on a task I intend to accomplish throughout the course of the day. Last year the mission was being the family photographer and learning a few things I didn't know about a relative I've known my entire life. My focus will not be on the buffet line. If left unchecked, without a plan and structure of intentional actions, my food addict brain will focus on the buffet line. It will be a time to focus on the purest reasons for the day--and if I make this important, it'll be the most wonderful day possible.

I never truly enjoyed the best things about Thanksgiving before I started along this path because I was always in a food fog. My focus was on all of the food--and how much I could eat. I hardly noticed or cared about much else around me. I would stuff myself wildly and then pop some antacid tablets and find a place to sleep it off. It's not too far removed from what has become completely acceptable and expected on Thanksgiving---but for me, a food addict/compulsive overeater, it's a dangerous thing...it doesn't just sacrifice a more meaningful Thanksgiving experience, it potentially sacrifices everything after the special day...up to and including my very life. Dramatic much? Yep. But that's the importance level I require to remain well. 

I recorded a special 30-minute audio presentation on Monday afternoon all about Thanksgiving. You can listen by clicking the play button below.

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My aunt (mom's sister) and uncle from Michigan will be staying with me through Sunday. Amber, KL, and Raegan will be traveling into town as well. Courtney, Lucas, and my three other grandchildren, Noah, Oliver, and Phoebe will be here, too. Irene (my ex-wife), Allen, my uncle Keith, Aunt Kelli and Uncle Tim will be a part of this big get-together. We're eating dinner around 4pm to accommodate everyone's schedule. I'm sure I failed to mention a few. And there may be more, we'll see! It'll be amazing! I pick up mom around 3pm. She's beyond excited about this family time.
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Do you own an "I'm Choosing Change" wristband? Here's the deal, I'm not a very good salesman. I haven't offered these consistently on this blog--yet, I have them available! I wear mine daily as a constant reminder of why my daily practice of things is important. I'm not alone, either. This powerful message is worn on the wrists of people in a dozen states, maybe more, I haven't counted--but it's up there!! From New York to California and from Canada all the way to Scotland, they're out there! For me, it's simply a daily reminder to be open, willing, mindful, to pause, and to be intentional. If I'm not those things, I get stuck at the line of least resistance and back there is where the old patterns and behaviors thrive. Your order includes priority shipping so you'll get it quickly! Here's the link to order yours right now: https://imchoosingchange.com/product/wristband/

My website shares a phone number with my podcast, Transformation Planet, and it's always available for you! Have a question? Want to share your story? Leave a voicemail or Text me! 580-491-2228 I'll text you back!

Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean

My website: www.imchoosingchange.com

If you're interested in connecting via social media:
I accept friend requests on MyFitnessPal. My daily food logging diary is set to public.
MFP Username: SeanAAnderson
My Twitter: SeanAAnderson
Facebook: www.facebook.com/seananderson505
Instagram: SeanAAnderson
Also--I'd love you to subscribe to my podcast Transformation Planet! You can find it in Apple Podcasts, in the Google Play store for Android, and listed wherever you find your favorite podcasts! If you haven't listened before, you'll find 20 episodes waiting for you!

Questions or comments? Send an email! transformation.road@gmail.com





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