Saturday, April 28, 2012

Day 1,329 Dynamics of Maintaining

Day 1,329

Dynamics of Maintaining

When I hit goal in November 2010, I had the benefit of twenty-six months and a day to prepare me for the next phase of the rest of my life: Maintaining my weight loss.

Had my focus been heavy on the food and exercise fundamentals instead of the mental dynamics along the way, this may have been an anxiety filled idea.  Would I spend the rest of my life constantly balancing my food intake with exercise in a never ending pursuit of keeping the weight off?  The answer is yes and no.

Yes--Because eating and exercise will be two things I do forever.
No--Because I've changed my relationship with food.

The illusion that food somehow makes my troubles and stress easier to handle is gone.  The tendency to abuse food like a drug is gone.  Does this mean it's some kind of effortless day to day existence?

Not at all.

I'm human.  I have cravings.  I love the taste of food.  The difference now is this: Instead of making food my number one focus and my number one go-to in the face of stress and emotions of every kind, I simply appreciate food and what it does for me.  I don't ask food to be something it isn't.  Food isn't a therapist.  Food doesn't fix anything other than my hunger and nutritional needs.  When I stopped putting inappropriate and unrealistic expectations on food, things started dramatically changing inside my head.

Figuring out the boundaries of "normal" portions was an educational process.  I always figured my giant 1/2 plate of mashed potatoes loaded with gravy neatly filling up the hole I made in the middle, was perfectly normal.  Discovering I was capable of enjoying a third of this in a regular portion was key for me.
I've written about my favorite foods before.  These favorites are foods I'm extremely cautious around: Peanut butter, cottage cheese, cheese of any kind and ice cream.  I recently threw away a jar of peanut butter from my pantry after a few spoonful trips.  Was it bad, these 100-200 calorie spoonful snacks?  Nutritional speaking, not at all.  Mentally speaking, yes.  I know my history with these favorites, so I'm ultra aware of my behaviors around them.  And this self-analysis is unique to each of us--and very important to assess, acknowledge, understand and monitor.

As long as I'm treating food the way it should be treated: Eating normal portions at appropriate times, then I don't have regaining issues or anxiety.  This isn't to say that my weight doesn't fluctuate to a degree.  Sure it does, especially if I'm missing too many workouts.  But the comfort is this: If my size 36 jeans start to get a little tight, I'm confident it's from lack of exercise and not because of my behaviors with food.

Separating stress and emotions from our daily behaviors with food is imperative to our success.  But how?  For me, it was writing.  The therapy found in writing out my feelings; dissecting my behaviors and really getting to the bottom of my motivations, has been and continues to be a stringent test of self-honesty.  I've recently learned about how every behavior, every action meets some kind of need.  What are we really after?  I highly recommend writing everyday in an effort to sort out these things.  And if you have the luxury of a professional therapist, that's awesome too.

The key to maintaining my weight loss is squarely on my ability to understand my needs in coping with stress and emotions.  I must always understand food's role and my role.  Food isn't a therapist.  Food doesn't fix my issues within.  It's my responsibility to work on my issues in handling and understanding stress and emotions in a very direct way.  Food cannot and will not be used as an escape from this responsibility ever again.

A normal day for me starts with breakfast.  I prepare a protein rich breakfast balanced with some fruit and yogurt most of the time.  I love the calorie value of egg whites, I do.  My breakfast calories usually run somewhere between 250-350 calories.  I pack some good snacks to take with me.  I often cut up an apple, grab an extra banana, fill a baggie with baby carrots and take along an extra yogurt.  These snacks serve me throughout the day.  And as long as I turn to them more often than a handful of salty snacks found in the break room, I'm winning.  Dinner can be a challenge sometimes.  My goal is to eventually eat only lean meats, fruits and veggies.  I'm not there yet.  But I do okay.  I occasionally eat out--and when I do, I'm always looking for the best calorie value on the menu--as long as it's something I enjoy.  I refuse to eat something I don't enjoy simply because it's a great calorie value.  I'm at my best when I fire up the grill and I enjoy veggies I never would have consumed before.  I can't believe I actually like asparagus and yellow squash.  I do!  It's an amazing evolution of good choices, because "old" Sean wouldn't ever allow those things to cross his lips.  Back then, I was too busy devouring everything else.

I tend to watch my calories to the point of appearing obsessive.  I consume somewhere between 1700 and 2200 calories per day.  But every now and then, I come up short.  It's those days where I have to remind myself to eat more in a very normal and healthy way.  Imagine that!  This is nuts for me considering my past, but it's a pleasant reality.

The tendency to self-destruct or hold myself back--oh, it's still in there.  But it manifests in other areas.  I've clearly not achieved a level of physical fitness I would prefer.  And my development in relationships and in my business aspirations is often stunted by my tendency to turn around and go back to my comfort zone.

This "comfort" zone is rarely comfortable, but it's very familiar.  It's what we've always known.  Any change from what we've always known creates anxiety--and anxiety sucks.  To avoid this feeling, it's easier to revert back into old habits and behaviors.  Even though it's a place we might not like, we do it because it's familiar---we know what to expect.  The fear of the unknown is a horrible beast.

The above described process of almost "getting there" and retreating to what's familiar, is exactly the dynamic ending so many attempts to choose change.

Recognizing how we create this "fear," acknowledging and embracing our "iron-clad" decision to change and deciding right here and now that we will not allow any excuse or rationalization to send us backward, is all crucial.  And it's all practice.  Because as long as we're willing to change and we're willing to be open minded about the dynamics of it all, then we're always learning and most importantly: Growing.  In my experiences I've discovered a gradual evolution of good choices.  It couldn't be a sudden and unnatural change of everything I had become.  I've moved forward because I allowed a confident patience to accompany my journey.  Someday I'll be the man who eats clean and runs everyday.  Until then, I'm just Sean--the guy who eats reasonably and exercises regularly and maintains a 275 pound weight loss.

Speaking of exercise: I've really increased my efforts lately.  This week I've already accomplished two 5K's and a spinning class.  My evolution in exercise hasn't been the same as it has in the food department.  I have to push myself to give it more.  I have to remind myself to throw away the excuses and rationalizations allowing me off the hook.  I also understand how important exercise is to my ability to maintain.  It's crucial.

My sincere apologies for assuming everyone who reads here also reads my facebook "micro-blogs." I admire your decision to live without facebook.  I have a really good friend who recently decided to leave facebook and he's much happier!  I guess it all depends on your perspective.  I use it as a way to communicate what I've learned and am learning along this road---and what I'm up to in terms of my career.
Your support for me is greatly appreciated and I vow to continue making strides in keeping content up on this blog, regularly.

Below is some recent facebook "micro-blogs." Often, we start some good discussions from these--and really, that's why I like to post them!


"The endless offerings promise quick results. I certainly don't argue their claims. If the goal is simply to lose weight; get smaller as quickly as possible, you have some shopping to do! If you're tired of losing and gaining over and over and you want real weight loss success once and for all, you don't need to go shopping. You already own everything you need for the weight loss success of your dreams. It's in you. Your sincere acknowledgment of the power you possess, starts a wonderful transformation. You're choosing to fix the cause instead of simply treating the side effects. Any “solution” that doesn't include this self-examination and acknowledgment is temporary. Like constantly cleaning up a spill without ever capping the source."

"Your transformation is powerful. As you become physically smaller your world becomes bigger. You start noticing things you didn't before. You develop a deeper understanding and appreciation of the road behind, giving you a new perspective on the road ahead. You're able to zero in on the present and make choices, one by one, with a confident patience for results. And it's not just you, because everyone around you is affected by your transformation in some way, and this effect is beyond your control or responsibility. You embody inspiration. You're amazing. You're powerful. This IS you."

"I lost and gained weight for years before shifting my perspective enough to find a very different result. If a different result was desired I had to change my perspective about what it takes for lasting success. Never before had I considered the truth of my behaviors with food. The life-changing epiphany was about focusing on me and the compulsions leading me astray every time, instead of putting all of my energy into the food, exercise and constantly struggling to balance on a high wire of frustration. My relationship with ME improved and the food and exercise naturally followed in line. Trying to do it the other way around, would have been a constant struggle—just like every other time in my past. This time had to be different."

"Weight loss brings freedom physically. More important than this physical freedom, is the mental freedom our good choices provide. To me, it's about doing things that make me feel good about myself and my development. Because really, it comes down to how we feel about ourselves. If we feel bad about ourselves, the effects compound and lead to making more self-defeating poor choices. We have the power to change the momentum with our good choices. The more we make, the better we feel about ourselves—and one leads to another. Suddenly we realize we can choose to be our own best friend. Physical freedom is amazing--especially when it's accompanied and protected by mental freedom. It all starts with one good choice, then another, and..."

"The biggest difference between this time and every other? This time I identified, acknowledged and focused intensely on the number one obstacle to lasting success. It wasn't about finding the right “diet,” it was about finding this critical element completely responsible for sabotaging every other attempt. I'm still learning about this “element.” The study never ends and that's a good thing. Positively transforming an enemy into an ally takes consistent effort. The biggest reward is freedom. And the biggest obstacle was always...ME."

Before I wrap this post--I want to invite you to my redesigned website www.transformationroad.com I hope you'll visit--and if you're on facebook, please click the "like" button at the top of my website homepage.

Thank you for reading!  If you have any questions of me, you can leave them in the comments or privately send me an email to: sean@transformationroad.com

Good Choices,
Sean 

This audio is 27 minutes from my speaking event at the Stillwater, Oklahoma YMCA from January of this year:

11 comments:

  1. Sean... I listened to your talk at Stillwater YMCA. Self Honesty and Good Choices... If we can remember those two things we can change ourselves for the better.. I hope you don't mind that I posted your talk on my blog so as many people as possible can hear it. Thanks Sean.

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  2. Thank you, thank you, thank you for this post! You and I hit at goal about the same time and I continue to learn a lot from you and your posts. PS: I did a shout out to you on my FB page :)

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  3. ETL--Absolutely, friend! Thank you for re-posting! LBG--You're welcome, very much! And congrats on your success! I'll have to visit your FB page again!

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  4. Such a great post. Thanks, Sean.

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  5. "Because I've changed my relationship with food.... I don't ask food to be something it isn't."

    This was a wonderful post to me, Sean. Sort of pinpointed my current sticking point! I'm still expecting more from "food" than it was intended for. I'm doing fine eating what I should and when I should... but struggling to limit portions, so that I'm not making much progress. This was eye-opening to read... thank you for sharing. I'm going to re-read this, and do some thinking.

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  6. Hey sean, I was confronted with my own comfort zone today...pulled myself out of it too...not easy.

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  7. The way you describe the balance here is very accurate. I only wish that my upbringing had included some information that was outside the realm of one extreme or the other. Would have been super helpful- Ha! So what you are putting out here is so important to share and I'm glad you do. If we get to see more 'normal' examples, then it can become a new 'normal' for us as well.

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  8. Loved your talk at the YMCA, just terrific. Loved what you had to say about maintenance too. Doing a great job!

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  9. Thank you for posting for the "rest of us" (those who have decided Facebook is not a good fit). I appreciated seeing the Facebook posts but I will not be going back to that. I'm so happy that you are going right along maintaining and working at all that is involved. Take care. :)

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  10. Sean,

    I am happy to say I am once again caught up on your blog! I hate getting behind. I loved your redesigned website as well. I've been holding back somewhat in expressing my feelings regarding my health situation but wanted to share this last thing with you. On second thought, I'll post it on facebook and share it with my friends as well. You have been such an inspiration to me and I am so proud to be able to call you my friend. I can't tell you enough how proud I am of your success. Not only did you save your life, but you have inspired many others to save their own as well.

    Love and Prayers Always!

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  11. Hello Sean,
    This is my first comment on your blog site. I just wanted to thank you for being such an inspiration to me. I feel like I just landed in the 21st century. I am just now attempting to blog myself. I am trying to get my life together by eating healthier and starting to exercise. Your story is so encouraging to me. I will be one of your followers from here on out. If you want you can look at my blog, it’s a blogger.com website, 700poundsisasbadasitsounds.blogspot.com/

    You don’t have to if you don’t want to, I know you’re busy. You don’t have to post this comment either if you feel I am using your website just to get followers. Although I do hope to get people to help me by encouraging me along the way, I want to make sure that you know my motives are pure. I get strength from reading your journey.

    Here is a link in case you do want to look at it.

    Thanks again,
    700pounds

    P.S. I am going to be reposting similar comment on a couple other blog sites, like Who Ate My Blog and Jack Sh**t’s . I don’t want you to think this is spam. I just want to introduce myself to them and thank them for sharing their journey also.

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