When I share a post like yesterday's and I get into recalling where I was, it leaves me feeling vulnerable, uneasy--like maybe I shouldn't have shared so much. It took me the better part of the day to get over myself and be okay with yesterday's content. Being straight up real can feel this way at times and it's okay, because it's important for me to never forget how far I took the descent into relapse and most important, it's critical for me to believe I'm never beyond such a detour. If I'm to have the best chance at continued recovery, weight loss and long term maintenance, I must continue to hold sacred the critical elements of my recovery. I also want to express hope for anyone who can relate: Recovery--stopping the regain--getting your life back: It is not impossible, it's not hopeless. It's real and is very much within your reach.
Today's schedule was tough. I was busy all day--and planned to go to the OSU-Texas Tech game--in fact, I agreed to be the designated driver for this Thursday night ESPN game in my hometown, and I did drive but I gave up my ticket and decided to spend the evening with mom and getting my workout done instead of going to the game.
It's super late, I'm horribly exhausted and I must drop in bed. I had a great visit with mom tonight! We dined at Applebee's and I worked out over by her place, doing a brisk walk around her neighborhood. Getting to the stadium for the pickup and the drive home came a little quicker than I expected, so I had to cut my exercise short. Still, it was an effort. And considering the pace of today's schedule, I'm counting it as good.
There's so much more I wanted to write about, but I'll do the best thing and hit the pillow instead.
My Tweets today:
Travel mug. 1.5 cups coffee in one, to go--in a hurry this morning! 1.5 servings= 45cal. pic.twitter.com/1ovgWunQOO
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Forgot eggs yesterday! Only had 1. Improvised a steak & egg pita w/5.8oz sirloin & swiss. Pineapple (9oz). 594 cal. pic.twitter.com/pVm1tW8fDs
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Late morning snack. Anjou pear and cantaloupe (215g). 163 cal. pic.twitter.com/gZBY9oYtr2
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Gluten free penne pasta with sugar free marinara and a slice of muenster melted on top. 350 cal. pic.twitter.com/SeqxHBayzY
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Having dinner with mom this evening. We're at Applebee's. This is what I'm ordering! Sounds delicious! pic.twitter.com/014kvU7a0d
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Napa Chicken & Portobellos at Applebee's. 490 calories. Delicious! See menu picture tweet for fabulous description! pic.twitter.com/ocjrUu5Cn6
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 26, 2014
After dinner coffee & conversation with mom. Forgot my Pyure Brand Stevia packets! 2 Half & Half thingys. 15CX2=30cal pic.twitter.com/I1uh6RAP9B
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 26, 2014
1/2 a large Honeycrisp Apple. #lastfoodofday 65 cal. pic.twitter.com/w2taKB6wY9
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 26, 2014
Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean
