When I share a post like yesterday's and I get into recalling where I was, it leaves me feeling vulnerable, uneasy--like maybe I shouldn't have shared so much. It took me the better part of the day to get over myself and be okay with yesterday's content. Being straight up real can feel this way at times and it's okay, because it's important for me to never forget how far I took the descent into relapse and most important, it's critical for me to believe I'm never beyond such a detour. If I'm to have the best chance at continued recovery, weight loss and long term maintenance, I must continue to hold sacred the critical elements of my recovery. I also want to express hope for anyone who can relate: Recovery--stopping the regain--getting your life back: It is not impossible, it's not hopeless. It's real and is very much within your reach.
Today's schedule was tough. I was busy all day--and planned to go to the OSU-Texas Tech game--in fact, I agreed to be the designated driver for this Thursday night ESPN game in my hometown, and I did drive but I gave up my ticket and decided to spend the evening with mom and getting my workout done instead of going to the game.
It's super late, I'm horribly exhausted and I must drop in bed. I had a great visit with mom tonight! We dined at Applebee's and I worked out over by her place, doing a brisk walk around her neighborhood. Getting to the stadium for the pickup and the drive home came a little quicker than I expected, so I had to cut my exercise short. Still, it was an effort. And considering the pace of today's schedule, I'm counting it as good.
There's so much more I wanted to write about, but I'll do the best thing and hit the pillow instead.
My Tweets today:
Travel mug. 1.5 cups coffee in one, to go--in a hurry this morning! 1.5 servings= 45cal. pic.twitter.com/1ovgWunQOO
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Forgot eggs yesterday! Only had 1. Improvised a steak & egg pita w/5.8oz sirloin & swiss. Pineapple (9oz). 594 cal. pic.twitter.com/pVm1tW8fDs
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Late morning snack. Anjou pear and cantaloupe (215g). 163 cal. pic.twitter.com/gZBY9oYtr2
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Gluten free penne pasta with sugar free marinara and a slice of muenster melted on top. 350 cal. pic.twitter.com/SeqxHBayzY
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Having dinner with mom this evening. We're at Applebee's. This is what I'm ordering! Sounds delicious! pic.twitter.com/014kvU7a0d
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 25, 2014
Napa Chicken & Portobellos at Applebee's. 490 calories. Delicious! See menu picture tweet for fabulous description! pic.twitter.com/ocjrUu5Cn6
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 26, 2014
After dinner coffee & conversation with mom. Forgot my Pyure Brand Stevia packets! 2 Half & Half thingys. 15CX2=30cal pic.twitter.com/I1uh6RAP9B
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 26, 2014
1/2 a large Honeycrisp Apple. #lastfoodofday 65 cal. pic.twitter.com/w2taKB6wY9
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 26, 2014
Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean
I watched a doc on PBS called "Addicted to Pleasure" and thought of you and me. It was on addiction to sugar. One study showed that when rats where given a choice between sugar and cocaine, they chose the sugar. Interesting documentary. Also how when we are fed sugar, especially at a young age we develop a palate that wants sugar. It can take months to reprogram your palate off of sugar. How our brains and bodies are bombarded with sugar and how difficult it is to rid our bodies of it. This is a documentary that people need to watch to only see why we gain weight and are addicted to something that rivals cocaine. Of course you and I already know the destructive nature of this devil called SUGAR!!
ReplyDeleteI agree! About the only thing worse than added sugar is artificial sweeteners, at least for me. The latest article by Kris does a good job of explaining how damaging fructose is in comparison to glucose found in whole fruits. Interesting short read. Here it is. http://authoritynutrition.com/agave-nectar-is-even-worse-than-sugar/
DeleteI read an article in New Scientist today about how research is starting to emerge to show artificial sweeteners cause glucose intolerance (diabetes) even worse than real sugar does. Horrible stuff.
DeleteMichael_I'm really looking forward to watching this documentary at some point this weekend! Thank you for sharing it with me!
DeleteJon--Thank you for the link!! VERY interesting!
DeleteHey Sean, you just convinced me it would be OK to eat out at Applebee's when traveling. The information you share in your blog is most important to you which is why yesterdays post was a great one. IMO sharing difficult times makes you less vulnerable going forward.
ReplyDeleteI agree with you 100%--It does give strength moving forward! I've had negative impressions of this restaurant before, but this menu has improved dramatically. Thank you, Jon--so much, for you support!
DeleteSean, I thought that your blog yesterday was great, and you did not overshare. Regaining is easy...I know that just when I think "I have this!" is when I find out I don't. I think that your blog (and situation) proves to people that if they slip up, all is not lost, learn from what happened and get back on track. And you have done that so well!
ReplyDeleteDede
Thank you, Dede. You're spot on!! I will not ever utter those words again unless I modify it to: "I have this...today."
Delete:)
PS: I LOVE your travel mug! LOVE swirly designs!
ReplyDeleteDede
It's actually my daughter's mug--she left it here and I claimed it--that is, until she comes back to get it! I conveniently keep forgetting to take it to her.
DeleteCongrats Sean :) talking from our hearts is never wrong :)
ReplyDeleteDawn, thank you. You just wrote a powerful truth. Thank you for that.
DeleteAnother yay for the travel mug. Enjoyed, as always!
ReplyDeleteIt's nice! I love it too! Hoping my daughter keeps forgetting about it. ;)
DeleteYour post yesterday gave me the encouragement I needed to win the wrestling match with a package of oreos. Thank you for that! That package will probably not stay closed now as I opened and closed it so many times without taking out a cookie. Yes, I was battling the sugar addiction but thankfully won the battle. Your posts always encourage me whether they are difficult or fun to read. Thanks again for your honesty.
ReplyDeleteLeah, I'm so glad you won that battle. I'm honored you found encouragement in my post! You're so very welcome, Leah. Thank you for your amazing support.
DeleteAbout last post. First, I thought it was a great post. :) And, scond, you need to realize that you didn't tell us anything that most of us didn't already know...without you writing it.
ReplyDeleteWe've all been there, those of us who eat addictivley have been there, at any rate.
On of the things one learns in a 12 Step Group is that we all thing we're terminally unique. It's part of the addictive mindwarp--and it keeps us in hiding. Hiding our unique actions, thoughts, and behaviors. And, of course, nothing gets healed in the dark.
And, then, one day we tell our unique secest and find out that everyone listening already knew...because they thought/done those things, too.
Every person is unique, of course. It's our addiction, and the behaviors it produces, that is common to man.
Deb
Great points, Deb. Absolute truth right there. Wow! "nothing gets healed in the dark, " Oh my... Thank you for your incredible insight.
DeleteI'm glad you share as much of yourself as you do, Sean. It really helps me to read posts like yesterday's. It lets me know that I'm not alone in what I go through.
ReplyDeleteYou're never alone, Connie! Thank you for your amazing support!
DeleteMy sweet (newish to me) friend:
ReplyDelete1. sorry I was about and about all day yesterday and did virtually no blogging visits. I just now read your post from yesterday.
2. I wub wu. :)
3. not oversharing. It was totally a selfless GIVING post.
4. which is why I wub wu. (all 63 years of me. LOL)
:)
Awe Gwen--no apologies necessary! I've been so busy lately, I've failed to make it by many of my favorite blogs!!
DeleteWell, I "wub wu" too. LOL
Thank you so much--you're the best!