April 29th, 2014 Staying Connected
When I look back at the fundamentals that kept me going strong while losing weight, I must recognize the power of sitting down and writing things out. And when I look at where things started to get bumpy, it was when I stopped writing consistently. And even after this short time of daily blog postings, I can tell a major difference in how I feel. My focus has sharpened, my attitude and resolve is in an optimal place and I'm getting back my confidence. My challenge to me is to explore other ways in which I can add to this positive effect. Reaching out more to others, being supportive, increasing the time I spend in meditation and prayer---all of these can only strengthen my stride and they're once again assigned a very high priority.
This feeling of renewal and strength doesn't mean it's easy. It's about being better prepared to handle the challenges as they come. Sometimes a giant ice cream shake seems like the perfect move. Putting some space, just a little, between the thought and the action--long enough to identify the what and why of the situation, is often all that's needed to correct the skid. If it doesn't quite work--reach out to someone and share the experience and feeling. It's very powerful. Expose it, shine a light--and discuss it with someone who gets it. As a food addict, I'll tell you this: I've had times where I've felt driven to the fat and sugar. Have you felt this too? When, despite the consequences--despite what you know is true, that a binge isn't going to fix anything and in fact make it all worse, you're driven like a moth to a flame? That's when it's really scary. The isolation that often accompanies such a leap is a dark, depressing place. And the only way out is to get connected, not only with your spiritual side, but also with people who understand what you're experiencing. And stay connected. Because you're not alone. We're never alone. If we isolate, then we're still not alone, but it sure feels that way. I'm staying connected.
Today's schedule was a little challenging for me because I wasn't feeling rested, yet I had important appointments keeping me from a nap allowing split shift. Remember HALT? (Don't get too Hungry, Angry, Lonely or Tired) Yeah, I was getting too tired, too quickly and finally, a little after 2pm, I had to take a break for a refresher nap. I was back at 4pm as planned and finished what I needed to finish by 4:40pm.
I prepared a wonderful dinner tonight (menu on MyFitnessPal and the picture is on my Twitter feed) and then I settled in for a good conference call with the weekly support group.
It's 9:15 and I've decided to post today's blog and hit the pillow early. I've been battling exhaustion like crazy today, so I'll give myself a pass on the walk tonight. Tomorrow I'll get a look at the results of my sleep monitoring. It's the next step in figuring out an immediate solution to my sleep issues. The long term solution is on me--it's getting the extra weight off and getting truly fit, and even then it may not be 100%, but there's a great chance it will be if it's coupled with effective therapy.
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Thank you for reading and for your support,