I've really been in a funk today. It was a reluctant rest day. Does that make sense? In other words, I wasn't planning a rest day--but it's as if my body and mind said, "oh no, you're resting today. Sitting this one out, dude." Pretty cool that my inner voice uses the word, "dude."
I just kind of disconnected in a way. Not completely. I still interacted and exchanged support, I still maintained the integrity of my food plan, staying within my calorie budget and abstaining from sugar--but not much else. No workout today and I failed to hit my water goal. My water goal! I rarely do that. Part of me says, get over there to the kitchen and get it down---and the other part of me says, #@^&***#@!@$#!! You ever feel like that, too?
I did some deep introspective studies today on the dynamics of me before relapse/regain vs. the dynamics of me, today. It's not a match, 100%, but there are enough similarities that I feel it's important to get a handle on a few things before they become issues, again. I'd rather not elaborate on these right now--simply because I don't have time tonight.
I do know that this is normal. There's nothing wrong with me. Mom--if you're reading this, your son is fine! It's just today. And it happens occasionally--especially when I start opening up and examining certain areas of my life, areas I would really like to improve. In time, I suppose, in time.
My Tweets Today:
Good Sunday morning! Dark roast with 2 tablespoons half & half X 2 cups. 80 cal. pic.twitter.com/KuRj5DydyP— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 30, 2015
3rd cup of coffee w/half & half (2 tblspns). 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/KGfUOCSPS3— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 30, 2015
Avocado omelet w/three whole eggs prepared in 1 tablespoon butter, filled w/119g mashed avocado. 6.65oz pear. 608 cal pic.twitter.com/UGuRCv3gII— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 30, 2015
Afternoon cup of French Roast w/2 tblspns half & half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/KQcVWO6zOp— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 30, 2015
7oz sirloin, asparagus, 110g swt. potato fries, 185g red potatoes w/15g lght sr crm, 1 slice-provolone & mozz. 680cal pic.twitter.com/WhjWB1ILjx— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 30, 2015
Fit&Active Flatbreads w/6oz beef, Hatch chilis, 1oz wht cheddar, 1sliceMozz, 1 srv tomato basil w/15g sr crm. 662 cal pic.twitter.com/wFsVZFIj5f— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 31, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,