A Good Sick Day
Today was another sick day for me. But it was a good day. I thoroughly medicated my sore throat with plenty of Cepacol Lozenges and hot honey-lemon tea. I had eggs, chicken soup with extra chicken and jello today. I may not have had enough calories, in fact, I'm sure I didn't. I was sticking with what I had on hand and what wouldn't be too rough on my sore throat.
I'll once again face the scales tomorrow morning. I've had a couple of days to reflect on the past four years and you know what? I'm okay with whatever the scale says. Considering I've had a decent string of days food wise, it might even be down a few pounds.
I'm very lucky to have experienced all I have along this road. I've learned so much in the past four years, and combined with incredible support, I'm in a much better position now than it might have been otherwise.
I could have just stayed astray and quickly returned to over 500 pounds, instead of gaining back only 59 of 275. I'm very fortunate. Oh--it very well could have happened, it does all the time. But I have many friends, much support and I've learned too much along this road to ever go back. I once heard a recovered drug addict say "recovery is a buzz kill." I get that completely. These truths we see can't be unseen. They can be ignored, and still they're always there asserting themselves even more when we try to go the opposite way. It's great news for people like me. It's a very good thing.
I'm a little behind on returning facebook messages and emails sent to firstname.lastname@example.org If you've recently sent one, please know I'll be replying very soon, and thank you for sending it my way and for your patience.
I've been taking this time to quietly assess where I am, where I want to go and what I'm going to do to get there. And I can tell you, I'm full of some exciting ideas. Some short term, some long. And all supported and made possible by my continued recovery...and the bottom line is, that's the most important thing... My recovery.
I've proven I can maintain when everything is sailing along beautifully. Learning to take the curves of life and still maintain control, is a practice; a pursuit of emotional balance. It's often been said that when we take care of our inside, the outside takes care of itself. I believe that. I've lived it. I've ignored it. And I'm living it again.
I must get some good sleep tonight. I hope you do too.
Thank you for reading, goodnight and...