A Calm Reflection
I'm sipping my warm Natural Calm and reading a few blogs before I turn in for the night.
I awoke this morning with a painful sore throat, the worst I've had in years. I quickly called in backup to do my morning radio show. A sore throat to someone who talks for a living isn't good. I eventually made it to the doctor and found it wasn't strep. The doctor concluded sinus drainage the culprit. He suggested over the counter remedies.
I've stayed in all day and had plenty of time to think about where I am and what I'm doing and have been doing lately. I have been very hard on myself. And as much as I talk about putting the past behind and moving forward, it's clear that I've been doing the opposite.
So, not another word about the past 7 months from me.
I've said it from the very beginning, my goal--my truest desire, is to become someone who eats normal portions at appropriate times. To be someone who doesn't turn to food for emotional comfort. To be someone who takes care of himself and puts some careful thoughts into the choices and actions becoming me.
Getting reconnected with my blog and your support has been a wonderful choice. This blog isn't an outlet for self-abuse, where I pick a-part every single move I make. I know what I want and I'm making it so. I was going through some of my old notes and posts today and I immediately came across "This isn't about perfection. Pursuit of perfection is a detour to insanity. This is about living and learning, and applying the lessons along the way." Selective forgetting is sometimes so very easy.
I'll never forget certain things, though. I've been blessed with many wonderful experiences along this road. It's been beautiful in many ways. I'm very lucky, very blessed.
Today was a good day for reflection and healing. This Natural Calm feels so good on my throat...wow...Very nice.
Today was good. And I sincerely thank you for the wonderful support.