Since our last edition, I've maintained the integrity of my food plan boundaries, I've remained refined sugar-free, I've met or exceeded my daily water goal, and I've stayed well connected with exceptional support.
I enjoyed a good visit with mom last night. She had some clarity and was able to enjoy our visit, too. It was good. There's really nothing new to report on her recovery. It's the same--some days are foggier than others for her--and it seems to be directly connected to how well she rested on her CPAP machine the night before. We are making plans to take a drive tomorrow. She would love to get out of there and see some different scenery. I believe we can make that happen!
Mom was able to get her hair fixed yesterday--and that always helps lift her spirits!
I'm doing well in my self-care. I'm keeping it steady and doing things each day that help me move forward in positive ways. I've made a point to increase my commitment level in certain areas--like staying connected with support and being extra aware of my food plan.
Every now and again, Facebook pops up with a memory to remind me of another time--and more specifically, "where" I was at that time. Adding the passage of time to that reflective "recipe" humbles me in dramatic ways. I didn't know what I didn't know. A few lines in the paragraph below completely ignores and in that, totally denies the power of my disease of food addiction/compulsive overeating. But that wasn't "where I was" at the moment it was written.
From my Facebook in early 2013:
Who said we couldn't do it? Who said we would never make it? Who said it was too hard? Who said it wasn't a good time? Who said we would “do it someday” as a deflection against someone or something reminding us of the truth? Did the chorus of voices include our own? What?? Why would we willingly and deliberately blanket ourselves with such an overwhelming cloud of negativity? Does it keep us safe? Did it avoid change? Did it keep us where we're comfortable despite our obvious discomfort? That mental dynamic is OVER. The perspective has now made a critical shift. We now know—we can do this, we're making it every day, it's as hard as we say it is, the time is always now—Yes indeed! Shout it, my friends----We're living our “someday” today.
Here's a powerful truth: That paragraph was written a few days before a complete meltdown/derailment that resulted in an epic relapse/regain period to the tune of 164 pounds. Read that paragraph again, please, and think about that! I have.
So, here I am, seven years later, doing my best to work a daily practice of things to help keep me well. I hope and pray I always stay in this recovery perspective. But all I have is right now and my next decision.
I hope and pray that what I do and what I share provides hope to someone who isn't in a place to feel any kind of hope at all. If you're a food addict/compulsive overeater like me, there's hope. If you're not, there's hope. In the meantime...
My foundational routine for today is complete, my food is planned and ready, and I have a plan to stay connected with support and most importantly, a plan to stay connected with gratitude and to stay in a very humble place of respect and importance for the "whys" of what I do each day.
I'm planning on having a good Saturday. I hope the same for you!!
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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Practice, peace, and calm,
Sean
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