Even If I'm The Only Reader and Just Enjoying The Season Responsibly
It was good for me to write yesterday's post. I can't describe how this blog has guided me through this journey. It's had a profound effect on me. Sitting down everyday and writing it out, getting it out on the screen. This has been a phenomenally therapeutic experience. And it continues to help me step by step---all the way to my goal and beyond. Every blog posting I say "Thank you for reading," and I do thank you and sincerely appreciate your support. But the truth is, I'd still be writing this very same blog even if it were only me reading. It's extremely important, very dear to my heart.
I've been handling the goodies at work really well. I allowed for 200 calories worth of cheese today, but I refrained from having even a handful of the Poppy Cock. The boss called from the home office and suggested someone come and pick up the big container of homemade Chex Mix that was gifted Team Radio. He wanted it gone from his sight for the same reason I would rather it not be here at the studio. That stuff is addictive! I'm confident I could and would handle myself responsibly, but really---I don't want it around if I have a choice. I don't keep a half gallon of ice cream in the freezer anymore either, I just don't. I could and would probably be OK---No, I would be OK, but some things represent more to me than just overeating or being one of my "favorite foods." Some foods for me have symbolism. Buying a half gallon of ice cream was always a dead giveaway that I had given up in the past. Every bite would make me feel like a complete failure, but still I would eat and eat some more. It was so sick, it really was.
I've been asked several times recently "How have you handled/are handling the holidays?" And I tell them "I'm just eating responsibly and exercising---I'm still enjoying the treats of the season and the wonderful foods, I'm just not pigging out on anything." Too many times in the past I just accepted that it was too hard to do this during the holidays, but I was missing a very valid point. Our goal here isn't to temporarily proclaim everything bad and off limits, it's to learn how to handle food in a responsible way in real life everyday situations. I know what normal portions look like now, I obviously didn't before.
The girls had a night at Mom's planned and I had a Christmas party to attend tonight. They had dinner over there and I cooked a lean hamburger patty with mustard and some scrambled egg whites with mushrooms---I love it! It might not sound like anything you might like, or maybe it does, but I'm telling you---it's very filling and my entire plate came in 340 calories! And I even put some ketchup on the eggs! Call me weird, but I like it!
I arrived to the party late and found about a dozen revelers enjoying the festivities. They had some party snacks---including cookies and chex mix. I had both. I had a few small handfuls of the chex mix and over the course of the party, I consumed a cookie. I ate that cookie one bite at a time, every bite about thirty minutes or more apart. I just left it on the platter too...Nobody was going to touch a partly consumed cookie! It was a very tame party---and that works for me, I'm typically not the "party" type, but I had fun, and it was good to get out and see friends.
Today was a good day. Day 460, wow...we're really rocking at this point huh? 230 pounds lost and counting, and everything is changing. I'm riding the waves of change like a pro surfer---Keeping my thoughts in line and staying focused on the important things, and staying up!
Thank you for reading. Goodnight and...