If Everyday Was Like Monday and Getting My Picture With Grandma
Mondays are special. Monday was always the day. The day it would all turn around. I would convince myself that Monday, all would be right. My resolve, my consistency, everything would be perfect or as near to perfect as possible. If I could have put all of my Mondays together, I would have lost this weight a long time ago. I had some good ones! What would happen when Tuesday rolled around? Well, it wasn't Monday anymore, but no problem! Another Monday was always less than a week away! And since I was waiting for another great Monday start next week, let's eat like we're never going to eat again! This inconsistent pattern left me scared, feeling hopeless, and over 500 pounds. I guess you could say that I've had an unstated goal this entire time: Give everyday that fresh start Monday feeling. It's not always easy and it's never perfect, but it doesn't have to be for success.
I started my Monday with three whole eggs, over easy--my favorite! I didn't have mushrooms or cheese, just eggs. It was simple and good, and 210 calories. I had a banana for desert, checked in with some blogging friends and then dropped onto the floor for some non-weighted strength training exercises. Yes, desert for breakfast, it was a banana! Anyway, I didn't do my squats this morning. I don't have a good reason really, I mean---I usually do the squats first. For some reason I decided to give my quads and gluts a break this morning. I quickly ran out of time and had to jump in the shower, brush, and dress for this day, all in about fifteen minutes! I cut it a little too close much of the time, I do...it's a bad habit really.
I felt horrible all day today about something I didn't do yesterday. I didn't realize it until I was looking through the pictures from our 83rd birthday get together with grandma. Did I not take a picture with my dear grandmother? What? Kelli is always snapping pictures. It's nothing for her to fire off fifty to a hundred or more at one gathering. How did I not take one with grandma? Some may not like all of the pictures all of the time, but I've always had an appreciation for what she's doing. Even though I kind of don't like not having control over what pictures she chooses for her blog. I want to say, "use that one, and toss this one, and don't dare post that one, and..." But I don't and I wouldn't. She's giving us plenty of pictures that we'll cherish someday. I wouldn't have near the catalogue of before pictures if it were not for Kelli's love of pictures. I always hated those 500 pound-plus pictures back then, but I love them now...the bigger the better! Oh grandma...I'm getting a picture with you today!
I decided, I was making a special trip for my picture with grandma! I had a nice little visit with everyone and we took some good pictures! Kelli and my mom are doing so wonderfully with their food and exercise--and they're both making some mental breakthroughs that will carry them along this road. I couldn't be happier for them!
I made it back home and headed straight to Wal-Mart for some "Sean staples." You know...mushrooms, eggs, cheese, apples, bananas, flatbread wraps, chicken breast, and coffee. I'm such a creature of habit huh? I guess! Oh well...it is all good! I ran into an old co-worker in the store. You can always count on running into people at that place, something I always dreaded at my heaviest. I look forward to running into old friends now.
I hurried home and decided that I was getting to bed relatively early, well, actually it ended up being just after 10:30, not too early afterall. But it was a good Monday, it was. I feel good. And I love the pictures below. Grandma is so sweet, happy 83rd grandma! I love you!
Thank you for reading. Goodnight and...
I also took some pictures with Kelli and Keith. I'll post those tomorrow!