May 18th, 2014 Sean 1, Buffet 0
I remember not too long ago when I felt so far removed from any semblance of control. In that place it seems so hopeless and scary. I'm grateful to be where I am today. I feel strong and determined, like in the beginning of this blog. It's a new day and I deserve to feel great. You do too.
I visited mom this evening and we dined at a buffet. I wasn't the least bit inclined to do anything other than stick to the plan. I selected a small lean sirloin, one slice of turkey breast, green beans, sauteed mushrooms, fresh strawberries, pear slices and a serving of cottage cheese with two crackers. My meal checked in at 559 calories. I added 15 calories for a non dairy creamer cup for my after dinner coffee and conversation with mom and my aunt Kelli and her husband Tim. Kelli has lost 50 pounds in the last year by simply eliminating sugary soft drinks. Way to go Kelli!
I picked up some fruit and eggs from the grocery department at Braum's Ice Cream and Dairy Store on the way home, then stopped at Walgreens for some paper towels. Both of these places have been my "dealer" at one time or another. It feels good to walk in, buy what I'm after and be proud of my choices for a change. I'm sure it's confusing for some of the regular employees, "No ice cream tonight?" No thank you, I got what I want and need.
I came home and decided to walk around my apartment community for a half hour. The weather has been beautiful here--perfectly cool for a nice neighborhood stroll.
I did a little cleaning tonight, planned out some food for tomorrow and I'm headed to bed!
Good day! By the way, I've explained the recent identity/self love revelation to a couple of people over the weekend and they related to it in a powerful way too. Lord knows it isn't something "new," but truly understanding how it works--experiencing the "click," after not properly understanding this my entire life has left me feeling renewed and even more empowered.
Thank you for reading,