May 1st, 2014 In Search of Good ZZZZ's
I slept horribly last night. I made it to work looking half dead on a morning I needed to be at my best and somehow I made it through and did well. I had nine in studio guests and one special co-host this morning. I have no idea how I got through the show. I suppose after 26 years I've learned how to "fake it" when I'm not feeling my best. I doubt anyone listening could tell, and that's good. My in studio guests had to have noticed; I was rough.
I've employed the same strategy with this sleep issue. It's something I should have addressed a very long time ago, instead I put it off--pretended to be okay, sought therapy and when it didn't work, carried on pretending I could be fine, while the effects of sleep deprivation were wreaking havoc on me in multiple ways. Just as we say "never give up" with our weight loss efforts, I declared the same on this sleep disorder. I reached a point where it was breaking me down, making everything harder and becoming an immediate hazard to everything important in my world.
Yesterday I ran around trying to get everything done and I missed my opportunity to get my sleep monitor reading and some kind of suggested solution. Today I did make it in and the statistics clearly supported the obvious effects on my face, or is it the other way around? Anyway, for whatever reason, I can't seem to keep my mouth closed during the night--and that's a must with most cpap masks. An open mouth, even just a slight bit, is enough for the positive air pressure to escape thus rendering the therapy pretty much useless. Tonight I'll try a full face mask. I can't wait to experience the difference good sleep will make in my day to day. It really doesn't matter if my mouth droops open while using the full mask. Considering I've been a lifelong nighttime drooling kind of guy, I probably should have had a full mask from day 1.
It's strange to say what I'm about to say, but I'll say it because it's true: I didn't feel much like eating today. I know! Strange! I fell a little short of my 1700 calorie budget, checking in at 1544. I didn't do a mid-morning or mid-afternoon snack. The urge to eat didn't occur. I still ate well today. Despite feeling completely exhausted, I held my ground on food--because I wasn't having any compulsions to do otherwise. That's a good thing. I don't understand it, but I'm not complaining.
You're invited to take a peek at my daily food pics on Twitter. Most all of them get posted--simply follow @SeanAAnderson
My corresponding food and exercise diary is online too at MyFitnessPal, username: SeanAAnderson
The best thing I can do right now is fall into bed.
Goodnight and thank you for reading,