It was a very stressful day at work. I dropped the ball on something that takes me literally an hour to complete every six to eight weeks. It was a critical programming responsibility and this wasn't the first time I've dropped this same ball. I could have easily been terminated today.
When the discrepancy was brought to my attention, I immediately dropped everything else and handled it, then I set up a reminder alarm that will not leave me alone, reminding me daily after its initial sounding, until I manually delete the event and set a new one. Had I done this to begin with, today's situation wouldn't have been a situation at all.
When something like this occurs (thank goodness it isn't too often), I get into "high alert" mode, where I'm hyper aware of how I'm handling the circumstance. Today's thing didn't affect my food boundaries because I dealt with it head on. I owned it and fixed it immediately. It was fixed and a system was in place to prevent future relapse before lunch time. I could breathe a little easier and I did.
That was the difference, though. Handling it straight up instead of letting it dwell on my brain for too long. Because when I dwell on an issue without handling it directly or correctly, my brain quickly runs down possible options--and when we're talking about my brain, it likes to suggest more food.
More food doesn't ever fix anything, but it sure can take us away from the problems with a little pleasure trip of textures and flavors. When the trip is over, the issues remain--and they're usually worse.
I thought about this difference earlier while I considered the elements of today. It was a very solid food day despite the stress. Facing the issue head on, finding some resolution and making positive progress, it all occupied my brain space and didn't allow time, space and energy for errant food thoughts.
If only every issue were as easily handled and solved. Of course we both know they're not like this every time. And sometimes handling the issue takes much longer. So we do our best. I do my best to remember that food's job isn't to fix these issues and if I'm turning to food, it's a sure bet I'm not handling the issues properly, at all.
My workout tonight felt great. I'm enthusiastic about my progress! I accidentally hit 1700 calories on the nose--and at the same time my calorie burn registered 505...My starting weight on September 15th, 2008 was 505lbs. I'm weird with numbers sometimes. I've actually made an effort to stop noticing every 505 that pops up in my life. I believe in the law of attraction and there for awhile I was seeing it all of the time...at the grocery store, on clocks--adding up calories...and crazier coincidences, like the security code on one of my cards---all 505. I don't believe it's ever meant anything other than I was carrying around a subconscious awareness of the number. You know when you hear a particular word you weren't too familiar with before--and suddenly you notice it being used in different places by different people, all the time? It's like that.
My Tweets Today:
Good Morning! Sugar free hazelnut creamer flavors my dark roast (1tblspn per cup). 2 cups. 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/MLLmq6FmhG— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 11, 2015
Breakfast is coming... pic.twitter.com/sfP889DEY1— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 11, 2015
Steak & cheese omelet w/3 egg whts-1 whl egg, 4oz lean beef, 1 slice provolone, 1 slice mozzarella. Apple. 431 cal. pic.twitter.com/YyLuQgt4H3— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 11, 2015
SF/FF bean & provolone tostada & chicken, provolone & zucchini tostada both w/salsa & sour cream (15g). 405 cal. pic.twitter.com/RROsYCLM4b— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 11, 2015
Resisted spending $$ at Starbucks by looking forward to this home brew. SF hazelnut. 2 cups. 30 cents & 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/l5yEvyzyr5— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 11, 2015
One of my favorite side dishes. The entire pan, including the olive oil spray, checks in at 212 cal. Worth every one. pic.twitter.com/k9fVxbvhrY— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 12, 2015
Chicken brst (8oz) sliced & topped w/salsa dressing (93g salsa+30g lght sr crm), squash, sweet pot, & onion. 539 cal. pic.twitter.com/qk6xVlsFOB— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 12, 2015
Workout starts with weights tonight, followed by elliptical. 2 cups during and post. #wateraccountability pic.twitter.com/lDwF1PolFh— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 12, 2015
#endorphinparty going on over here! Feels good. Nice sweat, good form...very well! 2 cup refill. #watergoal pic.twitter.com/M8HASGrifQ— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 12, 2015
Fruit run!! pic.twitter.com/ptZfjFzaZf— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 12, 2015
Accidentally hit 1700 on the nose- at the same time burning 505 calories today. 505 was my starting weight. Cool. pic.twitter.com/yKBAhkw4LU— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) May 12, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,