“Investment” Decisions and Living On Water
I felt really good today! Getting six hours sleep may not be enough, but it is enough for me to have a great day without feeling like I must have a nap. The added sleep last night really made a difference. I'll be up late tonight, but I can sleep as late as I want in the morning. I'm going for a solid eight tonight!
I spent some time all alone at the studio this afternoon. Just me and the donuts from yesterday. Yep, they were still sitting on the conference table. Some were missing (yes I looked), but again I resisted. I could have had that coconut flake donut, but I knew it was a cake donut, and those are the worst calorie offenders. I just couldn't “invest” probably 300 calories in a gourmet donut. That's the great thing about my “Calorie Bank and Trust,” it forces me to make wise “investment” decisions throughout the day. Because like money---when the calories are gone, they're gone. And I'm not issued another “bundle” until the next morning! There was a time, not that long ago, when the life expectancy of a box of donuts at the studio was somewhere around thirty-eight minutes. Now, more of us are calorie conscious, and they sit there until they get hard and somebody finally throws them away. Same with the pizzas the other day. They were discarded, a bunch of it, because nobody wanted to take it home. It's cool to see such a profound change in the habits of everyone around here.
I flew like a bird today across the top of the water on Lake Ponca. It was one of my greatest experiences. I had never viewed the lake from that perspective. I always stayed on the shore and watched other people zip across the water as I sat miserable in the sun wondering what they must feel like to experience such freedom. I found out: They feel great. I was one of them today. The owner of Team Radio has invited me to his private dock to ride his Sea Doo jet ski no less than five times over the last month or so. Today I decided I would do it. Doing things like this that were once nearly impossible is one of the quickest ways for me to get really emotional about how far I've come in the last 313 days. This is what it's all about. It's living my friend. Really living. You know what I mean? Feeling that jet ski lift up and skimming across the water as the wind hurried through my hair was simply amazing. I felt like I could fly. As I rode atop the surface I thought about how things have changed for me and continue to change. It would have been so easy to never have started on September 15th of last year. I did that my entire life. You know, think about starting, even plan starting, get excited about starting and then when the day would come (always a Monday for me), nothing but fear and giant overwhelming feelings of I can't, it's going to take too long, how am I going to do this under so much daily stress? It certainly wasn't that I didn't want it---Oh I did...but I was so busy trying to complicate the process, I couldn't get a handle on figuring out how to really do it. I always claimed “Oh, I know how to lose weight---just eat less and exercise more.” But there's more to it than that. Until I really analyzed the psychological part of the equation, I couldn't solve the problem no matter how bad I wanted it. This time is certainly like no other for me. It's the real deal my friend. The way out was found because I completely surrendered the dishonesty within, the excuses, and the rationalizations that always gave me reasons to fail. I decided to give this mission the importance level it deserves, so it wouldn't be easy to rationalize bad choices---because it's just too important. And here I am 313 days later, flying across the top of a lake, viewing a perspective reserved only for those who choose to live.
I was pleasantly surprised to find a friend and long time reader of this blog at the dock this afternoon. Whitney has read this blog from Day 1. I spoke of her not that long ago in these writings. She reads every single morning. She started her weight loss journey in February 2008. She's lost over 50 pounds and is currently 6 pounds from her ultimate goal. She's a completely different person, full of confidence and sporting a bikini. Now that takes confidence! She's got it. We snapped a pic and I've included that below.
You'll find another “On The Go” Video along with a bunch of pictures below. I sincerely appreciate your readership! The weekend is here and I plan on catching up on my blog reading and commenting. My schedule this week has kept me very busy and away from the computer. I also plan on mowing this weekend, fun! Goodnight and...
This video was shot right before I took flight!
The serious look.
The Indirect look.
The this shirt doesn't really fit look.
Maybe hard to tell, but the fit and feel of this tux was really loose compared to May 14th
Same tux May 14th—over two months ago.
With Whitney at the lake. She's lost over 50 pounds and is now 6 pounds from reaching her ultimate goal. She's read from Day 1—and continues to read every single day.
Standing on the jet ski—pre-flight.
Profile—I look angry, oh my. I wasn't. Can't stand the chin---I guess the next 81 pounds will take care of that!
Strange shot in the lights.
Huge before pic, 500 plus pounds! From a co-workers iPhone. I never realized I looked so big.