I couldn't be more pleased with how maintenance mode is proceeding. That kind of sounds like a removed perspective, as if I'm watching it unfold instead of being in the middle of it all. I'm certainly in the thick of it each day.
More than once I've heard a variation of "maintenance is happening so easily for you." It's meant as a compliment, so I don't launch into describing the structure that keeps me well. I simply say, "thank you, I'm very grateful." And I am, immensely blessed and tremendously grateful.
Without the daily structure found in the fundamental elements of my recovery, this entire maintenance mode would be a very different story. You see, the truth is...
I have the heart, desires, behaviors, reactions and chemistry of a 500 pound man. My body, without a structured plan, influenced by all I am, will march directly back to over 500 pounds. Is it scary? No.
I have a spiritual peace with it all. I've been down this road, I've been humbled to a place and level I felt was the point of no return and somehow, through the grace of God, made it back to where I am today. My place here isn't guaranteed forever. It is dependent on my willingness to do what is required.
I have fully embraced and accepted what is required of me to continue enjoying this multi-faceted freedom. And it's in this acceptance and embrace, I find peace and calm affording me the ability to carry on another day, and another...and another.
I don't proceed each day kicking and screaming or whining about how life isn't fair because my normal isn't the normal I wanted. They get to eat whatever they want without ever weighing or measuring any of it--they don't log it and they dang sure don't photograph and tweet it---and they eat sugar whenever they fancy. And they never gain a pound!!! That's great for them! That's their normal. I can try to live their normal, but it wouldn't end well. I would completely lose myself along the way.
I accept and embrace my normal and suddenly I discover the truest sense of harmony.
These dynamics get deep, my friend. It's an expedition worth taking. It's also one most of us are not conditioned to entertain in the slightest. Thank you weight loss industry! Prime example this evening...
I ran into an acquaintance in the meat department of the store who shook my hand and was clearly in shock over the physical side of this transformation. He doesn't read this blog. I know he doesn't because he asked if I had purchased a weight loss plan of some kind. "Is it something you bought?" No, not literally. Figuratively, perhaps.
I fully invested in the idea that it was possible without purchasing a predetermined plan or product.
This "magic plan/product" perspective is a product of decades of weight loss industry marketing that has done a very good job at convincing millions they need this plan or that plan, this product or that pill, or shot or whatever.
And many of these things work. And they work well.
And the (often times very short term) success stories are used to convince more and more of the same: If you want results, this is what you need. "Look what it did for so and so!!" But here's the deal:
The manufacturers/creators of these products base their formulas and procedures on proven science. And they make millions and some make billions of dollars. Rarely do they consider the most critical element of them all: The human element. The human element is where it gets real.
And when it gets real, truths are revealed. Ultimately, these truths, rejected, determine how it all goes regardless of the science involved. These truths accepted and embraced, have the ability to change everything for that person--different from any other weight loss or maintenance attempt.
But all of that doesn't matter to the weight loss industry, because at the same time it's becoming real for many, many more are reaching the point of desperation...and another sale is made.
It's an industry fortified and nurtured by our ability to believe in a product more than we believe in ourselves.
And we gotta believe that the spiritual, mental, emotional and the elemental tools needed, exist for each of us. I believe they do. They're not all the same. Our combinations are all slightly different. But they exist for me and they exist for you.
Today's bi-weekly maintenance weigh-in at the doctor's office:
This represents a .8 pound gain from the previous 211.2. This is a good fluctuation. I see a nice pattern developing...
I don't get too caught up in all of the statistics and numbers today's technology provides, but I really dig these numbers.
Today was an incredible day. I'll let the tweets handle the rest, while I get some rest.
My Tweets Today:
Good morning! Dark roast with two tablespoons half & half X 3 cups. 120 cal. pic.twitter.com/crpNN188FZ— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 23, 2015
I spread out those three cups over a few hours. A couple before leaving home and one for work.— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 23, 2015
Bi-Weekly maintenance weigh-in: Last time- 211.2, today 212.0 representing a .8 gain. Great! #blessed #grateful pic.twitter.com/RxeNgI3oTD— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 23, 2015
Breakfast in MFP... pic.twitter.com/YrpNiWrQ7D— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 23, 2015
Avocado omelet w/3 egg whts-1 whl egg, 91g avocado, w/1 slice mozz. 5.8oz apple, 4.1oz orange & 4.4oz banana. 522cal pic.twitter.com/PQJ3N7ZgjZ— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 23, 2015
Lunch in MFP... pic.twitter.com/Lrm7kbEyN3— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 23, 2015
Steak & Potato Nachos. 262g red potato, 3secOOSpray, 4.4oz sirloin, 2 slices mozz, 30g sr crm & 3tbl salsa. 570 cal. pic.twitter.com/Tr9lTOsLue— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 23, 2015
Workout time. Cardio warmup on treadmill for 15, followed by weight training routine. #timetomove #letsgo 3cupsH20. pic.twitter.com/VIJ19tRoNG— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 24, 2015
Workout done ✔️. 15min cardio, pushups, planks, weighted step ups, hi lat pull down & jumping squats. And yes, that's enough tonight. :)— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 24, 2015
Venti dark roast pour over with three tablespoons half & half. 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/5bfsoykcCB— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 24, 2015
Dinner in MFP... pic.twitter.com/JZBDBPjCa9— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 24, 2015
8oz baked cod, 348g sweet potato, red onion & zucchini pan prepared w/2secOOSpray. This meal is a favorite. 634 cal. pic.twitter.com/zwbWGOfCdN— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 24, 2015
2 cups water > #watergoal 6.3oz pear, 4.8oz banana & 24g (1.5 tblspns) natural peanut butter. #lastfoodofday 336 cal pic.twitter.com/rBCAIsHHdt— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 24, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,