Over the next several days, a lot of people will be arriving at a mental and emotional place where they decide to make some serious changes. I don't know why September 15th, 2008 was my day. But it was. I found an excerpt from a year in, over six years ago, that describes what I found when I arrived at that place.
From September 2009:
I arrived at this place as a 505 pound man with raging high blood pressure, deadly sleep apnea, and swelling so bad in my right leg that painful open sores would develop when the skin refused to stretch any further.
I arrived at this place with a wife and two daughters that would often sit and cry together because they were scared to death that I would leave them too soon.
I arrived at this place with a mother that would stay up all night worrying about me, sometimes calling just to ask through the tears, “When are you really going to get busy?”
I arrived at this place scared to death of myself, my habits, my behaviors that had me cornered, beating me into submission with zero hope for survival.
The more my family cried for me, the more scared I became. I can't do this, I thought. But I must---But I don't really know how---
On and on the mental battle within me raged. Was this it?
Did I reach a point of wanting to give up the fight? Yes I did.
However, a couple of problems, let's call them character traits, stood in the way of me giving up:
I'm a survivor and I'm a dreamer.
A dream can't survive forever without positive action, so action had to start, even if I hadn't a clue where to begin.
If you're arriving at your place in the next several days, I encourage you to make it this important. I encourage you to keep it as simple as you can. I encourage you to just start. Even if you don't have a clue where to begin.
I started with a calorie budget I vowed to maintain come what may. I didn't put any restrictions on it at all. Whatever I could fit in that budget, worked. It was the simplest way for me to just start.
If you're a regular reader, you know my trek is very different now. I still maintain the integrity of my calorie budget but I also maintain abstinence from refined sugar. I also have a much more advanced accountability and support system in place. My daily logging in MyFitnessPal, the Live Twitter feed of everything that goes in my mouth and a constant connection with like minded friends in support, all make a powerful difference for me all these years later.
The adjustments to my plan was a necessary response in order to find recovery from a relapse/regain that resulted in 164 pounds of weight gain and all of my hopes and dreams fading fast.
Start simple. Just start. It's important. I'm important. You're important.
This transformation you're about to start is a big deal, spiritually-mentally-emotionally and physically. It's an exploration. It's an education. It's life changing and dream making. Are you ready to just start?
It's been a really long day. I promised myself I would be in bed by 9pm and it looks like I'm going to make it. I'm very happy about this.
Letting the Tweets take it the rest of the way...
My Tweets Today:
Dark roast with two tablespoons half & half X 2 cups. Good Monday morning! 80 cal. pic.twitter.com/5CuJQuEqc6— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 28, 2015
Breakfast in MFP... pic.twitter.com/k5w175nTN6— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 28, 2015
Avocado omelet w/3 egg whites & 1 whole egg, 99g avocado, 3oz salmon, 5.5oz apple & 1/2 a pear (3.3oz). 584 cal. pic.twitter.com/49MvvSbA5c— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 28, 2015
Dark roast with three tablespoons half & half. 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/2V4BawKpor— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 28, 2015
Lunch in MFP... pic.twitter.com/k0NXaFK6Zc— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 28, 2015
FF/SF Bean (130g) & Cheese Tostadas w/2 slices each-provolone & cheddar & 1.5 tblspns sr crm. 5.2oz apple. 508 cal. pic.twitter.com/4YrxK5c5gc— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 28, 2015
Awe... Nice cup of hot dark roast on a freezing afternoon w/two tablespoons half & half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/ZhkLEOPko8— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 28, 2015
Appetizer in MFP... pic.twitter.com/d7iDEnYpYO— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 29, 2015
Mshrm & Pnpple pizza w/90 cal sf flatbread, 1/2 srv sf tomato-basil, 3oz mshrms, 4oz pnpple, 3 slices mozz. 335 cal. pic.twitter.com/ON6L9PJ9KF— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 29, 2015
Dinner in MFP... pic.twitter.com/5vOMbm1lpZ— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 29, 2015
3 small grilled drumsticks (scaled back MFP entry to reflect), 310g swt.pot., 70g diced onion, 4 sec oospray. 611cal pic.twitter.com/igvU2DEDLn— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 29, 2015
5.8oz apple & two cups water. #watergoal #wateraccountability #lastfoodofday 81 cal. pic.twitter.com/ztRxTUQcgN— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) December 29, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,