The social differences that come with weight loss can be interpreted in different ways, good or bad. I've noticed how I'm treated differently at a healthy body weight. I attract more smiles and attention than I did at 500 pounds. And on the surface it's easy to fault the other person. But since allowing myself to dissect it a little further, I've drawn some alternative conclusions.
I believe it starts with me and what I'm projecting in any given situation. Let's be real, at 505 pounds I was fairly miserable most of the time. I didn't like getting out too much and if I could help it, I didn't. I was super self-conscious and my confidence level was extremely low. Doing what I've done and what I do for a living, I could put on a smile and show, as if it were a uniform--and get the job done, all the while projecting how I felt about me onto everyone else.
If I didn't like me, they didn't either. If I was judging me, they were judging me. If I considered myself grotesque, so did those horrible people! Perhaps a few might have been doing these things--I mean, some people just suck, sure--but I would safely bet 90% were never really treating me the way my self-loathing brain perceived.
I was giving some fairly negative energy a lot of the time. It's no surprise I received the same. And not necessarily bad things--just less smiles and much less attention.
I now walk with more confidence. The physical changes have made an impact, or course. The mental/emotional changes--the strength of perception and source of my self-worth and identity, have changed too, and it's really created a different, more positive energy around me and emanating from me. It's no surprise I receive the same.
I'm a firm believer in we get what we give. It isn't a flawless law of course, some get way more than they give and others still get short changed, receiving much less than they give. But on average and most of the time, we get what we give. If I'm now projecting something completely different from once upon a time, I shouldn't be puzzled by the different returns.
I had a location broadcast this morning from a grocery store. The main draw to this broadcast was fire roasted Hatch Chili Peppers from Hatch, New Mexico. This is Hatch season, a short window every year when these world famous peppers can be found. I bought some near the end of my broadcast. After two hours of talking about all of the wonderful ways you can cook with them, I had to come home and give it a try. Lunch was incredibly flavorful; amazing, really.
Amber and I had a great dad/daughter night out. It was dinner and the big Sara Evans concert. We had an exceptional time. The best part is always found in how much alike we are in some of the smallest details, like what we notice and what we find humorous. Our sensibilities and sense of humor are almost identical.
My workout today was a walk/jog in the park, on the trail and in the sun. It really wasn't too bad. I've discovered the differences between real world terrain and an indoor track. I have a much more challenging time jogging outside. I'm making some great progress, though--and I'm confident I'll be ready for the 5K come the end of September.
My Tweets Today:
Good Saturday morning! Dark roast w/half & half (2 tblspns) and cinnamon. X 2 cups. 80 cal. pic.twitter.com/eNy0r8rvSq— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 15, 2015
Avocado omelet w/3 whl eggs prepared with 3/4 tablspn butter & 76g avocado, 131g apple & 99g red grapes. 545 cal. pic.twitter.com/GZNGWymjfa— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 15, 2015
Several things... pic.twitter.com/hfx6CfR4uD— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 15, 2015
2 cups with lunch. #watertracking #wateraccountability May need another considering the heat of this lunch! pic.twitter.com/7PIdDBNQBH— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 15, 2015
Hatch Chili "enchilada" burger w/6oz 90% lean beef & roasted peprs, cheese & cream cheese stuffed peppers. 524 cal. pic.twitter.com/NzAHPDwBR5— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 15, 2015
Hatch burger topped w/Hatch Red sauce (1/2 srv) & mozzarella (1 slice). Peppers stuffed w/1 mozz-cheddar stick & 1 tblspn cream cheese.— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 15, 2015
Afternoon cup w/half & half (2 tblspns). 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/EV1iwIDiUp— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 15, 2015
Ready for an outdoor walk/jog. 2 cups water. It's warm, but nice breeze. Only 30 min. Easy. Let's go! #watertracking pic.twitter.com/JhFf4PrkTx— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 15, 2015
Outdoors is more challenging, for certain. Almost half jogging. Outside in 95 degrees. I'll take it. #sweatyman pic.twitter.com/WMRFzAmmQX— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 15, 2015
Dad/Daughter night out. Dinner and Sarah Evans concert! pic.twitter.com/yYOoTtEr2I— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 16, 2015
Sirloin steak trimmed to approx 6oz, 1.5 srv 2% cottage cheese w/4 crackers & a pork & veggie egg roll. 655 cal. pic.twitter.com/VrNAOPY1Cc— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 16, 2015
Challenged server. She was all smiles. Me: "Can you go in the kitchen & find the box the egg rolls come in & find a calorie count, please?"— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 16, 2015
180 cal. Good tip for her. Awesome!!— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 16, 2015
3rd row from stage! We're getting the #viptreatment tonight! Ready for @saraevansmusic Good times. pic.twitter.com/Tpbny6MCBN— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 16, 2015
Late night post-concert cup with 2 tablespoons half & half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/inDcrYmMb8— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 16, 2015
Stopped at a roadside fruit stand on the way to show tonight. This cantaloupe was in a field 24 hours ago. #farmfresh Harvested today. :)— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 16, 2015
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