It's the strangest feeling to approach a scale without the desire for a loss. I find myself in this situation for the first time in my life. It's taking some intentional thought and meditation to really embrace this perspective. I've said it before--written it within these pages several times: It's not about the scale. Especially now.
It will always be about my recovery, overall food sobriety and abstinence from refined sugar. Those must be handled with loving care each and every day in order for me to thrive. It takes practicing proven recovery techniques and daily intentional actions for the maintenance of these critically important elements. Unlike my initial loss and first time at a healthy weight, I take these things very seriously.
I helped a friend move some things this evening in preparation for their out of state move in the morning. We traveled to Stillwater in two separate vehicles, loading one and leaving enough room to pick up my mom for a quick dinner out.
We decided on McAlisters Deli. When approaching a restaurant menu, I'm very confident in my ability to zero in on the items in harmony with my food plan. This place was a challenge. I asked for a nutrition guide and was referred to their website. My fault for not doing the research earlier--but standing in line with people behind us wasn't the time to google this on my phone. So I opted for water only until I could sit down and look at the website.
I was fully prepared to eat later. I simply will not sacrifice the integrity of my food plan and abstinence from refined sugar. Everything was a sandwich or a salad at this place. I don't do salads. Never have and not starting now.
I looked long enough to find the whole wheat wrap. I checked the nutrition and it showed zero sugar. I approached the manager and asked her to confirm this and she did. I kind of knew my next questions would be easy--this place is a chain and efficient. They weigh and measure everything. I asked how much turkey on a wrap--4oz--okay, how much cheese? 1oz--okay...good deal... I opted for the wrap, turkey, cheese, lettuce and tomato, with plain yellow mustard. It wasn't bad at all. I was surprised the calorie count exceeded 500. (Nearly 300 of that from the 12 inch wrap). It wasn't the most satisfying and it certainly wasn't the best calorie value--but it was more than enough to hold me over until I could eat something more, later.
Weigh day this morning brought another one pound loss.
My immediate adjustment is 100 calories extra per day. Now I'm at 2,300. Jonathon, a Facebook friend of mine, had some really good advice in light of today's weight:
"Now is a good time to replace your old weight goals with other worthy goals...like strength goals, endurance goals, nutrition goals, etc. I'm partial to strength goals because I believe strong is healthy, but find some that work for you.
Oh, and given the many variables of scale weight, one pound is likely completely meaningless. My 24 hour morning weight fluctuates as much as 6 pounds and is frequently 2-3 pounds which obviously isn't "real" weight loss/gain."
I agree with everything he offered in this comment. The perspective shifting must continue, That's my challenge these days.
My Tweets Today:
No Beatles mug. My daughter's alma mater mug. Go SWOSU Bulldogs! Dark roast w/2 tablspns half & half. X 2cups. 80 cal pic.twitter.com/cwSsMMaeDf— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
Incidentally, she did do a comprehensive gazillion word essay on the history of the Beatles her freshman year. #beatlesconnection— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
Stepping on scale and not wanting a loss is a new and interesting perspective for me. Weekly weigh-in: Down a pound. pic.twitter.com/yTMzJcCfTM— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
Italian omelet in the pan... pic.twitter.com/xnmaPwp88s— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
Breakfast in MFP... pic.twitter.com/RDxR4iiNfP— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
Omelet w/2 whl eggs-1 wht, 32g olives, mshrms & 56g (2 srv) 5 cheese Italian blend. 6.4oz pear & 130g grapes. 585 cal pic.twitter.com/FV9TIm90ie— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
Afternoon dark roast with two tablspns half & half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/GmTyziiPRQ— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
253g cantaloupe, 183g apple w/32g natural peanut butter, 101g green grapes & a slice of muenster cheese. 531 cal. pic.twitter.com/aXol2Y1g5I— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
Sugar Free whole wheat wrap w/4oz turkey, 1oz swiss, romaine lettuce, tomato slice & yellow mustard. 501 cal. pic.twitter.com/c1F4Y1yAC2— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
Confirmed wrap was sugar free. Asked how many ounces of turkey & swiss in wrap. Was cheerfully accommodated with the answers I needed.— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 26, 2015
Fajita chicken (6oz) & zucchini tacos w/sour cream (2tblspns) & lettuce. 430 cal. pic.twitter.com/Qeqoyh0r1T— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 27, 2015
Evening cup with two tablespoons half & half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/Qac2InICQf— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) August 27, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,