Friday, March 4, 2016

March 4th, 2016 A Nice Problem

March 4th, 2016 A Nice "Problem"

I felt much better today. I was inspired to accomplish some things and have a productive day. I did just that. I knew my plan tonight was to focus on preparing for my Saturday night set at the Ronnie Milsap concert. I made sure I took a good nap and I dived into it.

I took some breaks this evening, prepared a nice dinner and returned to the task at hand. I think I've done all I can do. I'm about to call it a night.

I'm so glad I started doing stand-up again. It's very limited, but it's just enough. My previous stand-up career was completely different than my experiences now, in this more casual approach. As a 500 pound comic, I never once dreamed about what it might be like to walk onto a stage without my size being a major component of my material. I never imagined what the difference might show me. I feel real on stage, truer to my authentic self and personality than ever before. It's authentic. And I must admit, this realization tries its best to ignite that fire in me again because I know, without doubt, I could do well. And so, I'm challenged with the task of finding a balance between all of the things I dream of accomplishing and maintaining an awareness of the things bringing constant stability into my life. It's a nice "problem." 

One of the many gifts of this transformation is the opening up of my world. Suddenly, things that once seemed impossible, aren't...at all.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

9 comments:

  1. One of the priests at our parish was morbidly obese. At that size, everytime he spoke, no matter what the occassion, food came into what he was saying. (And it was trashy food, mostly.) Every single time.

    He lost all of his excess weight. He (pretty much) stopped talking about food. I have no idea if he is aware of the change or not.

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    1. I bet he is! He might have felt obligated to acknowledge the obesity/food connection.... and now he doesn't. :)

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  2. Vickie, that is so interesting..... as a food addict in recovery, all I thought about was my next meal and what junk food I was going to eat on my vacation.

    Sean, after I admitted publicly (on a podcast) that I was a binge eater, it freed me to not be so darn nervous public speaking, even at a normal weight. Glad you are staying within your abstaining plan.

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    1. It (priest talking about food) was more like I picture the 500 lb Sean doing stand up, where his weight was the focus. The (obese days) priest would talk about food and rub his belly, kind of thing.

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    2. Karen, absolutely can relate to that. This abstaining plan is made super important each day, for sure! I hope and pray I always keep it this way.

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    3. Vickie--it was exactly like that for me. I honestly felt like I didn't have a choice--that I had to make it the focus on my act. I'm so glad that's not the case anymore. It wasn't back then, either--but I thought it was!

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  3. Sean, can you share your before and after cholestrrol levels? It is a focus of mine.

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    1. Lee, I've always had naturally good cholesterol numbers, even at my heaviest. It must have been a genetics thing. Because I certainly didn't do anything to earn it--the opposite, as you know.
      But I'll check with my doctor and see if I can't get a comparison. I know the last time it was checked it was really--really good. :)

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  4. Thanks Sean. I envy your genetics! When I lost 20 pounds fast last year my cholesterol went way up for a while. It went from 212 to 300! I made the conclusion that my fat cells had dumped a lot of cholesterol into my blood stream at once because my diet had zero cholesterol and couldn't be adding to the numbers. My doctor had NO answer to that. Let me know what your doctor thinks??? Thanks!

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