Thursday, November 17, 2016

November 17th, 2016 Every Day

November 17th, 2016 Every Day

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget. I remained abstinent from refined sugar. I exceeded my daily water goal. I stayed well connected with excellent support. And I completed a wonderful workout at the gym.

A Facebook Memory from five years ago:
"I was discovering truths that I had never given thought. I was discovering that I wasn't a victim, this morbid obesity wasn't a hopeless situation, and that I had a power that had been untapped my entire life. I had the power to throw away every excuse that ever held me back. I could completely let go and live happily, while I consumed less and exercised. Instead of greeting each day with dread, I was actually thrilled to be so wonderfully alive. It was quite possibly the most powerful thing I had ever experienced."

It was a powerful message, albeit a little thin on substance--I mean, there's much more to it than just letting go, consuming less and exercising. A whole lot of inner work takes place in reaching a point of acceptance and as my friend Coach Kathleen calls it, "bare-naked honesty" plays a big role in getting to that point of embrace instead of resistance. Accepting the responsibility involved shedding the victim mentality that had played a convenient role in keeping me over 500 pounds for nearly two decades. Convenient, because if it wasn't my fault--if I could embrace twenty reasons why I couldn't change or why this was much harder for me than anyone else, then I could somehow feel justified in my continued deliberate and destructive oblivion.

I believe we each have a personal truth inside and for many of us, it's buried under layers and layers of mental/emotional trauma--held down by our experiences--and further secured by our need to be okay despite it all. The truth, regardless of what's blanketing it, is something I believe we can mine, breaking through to as real as it gets--then pull it out, accepting and embracing a perspective that brings us certainty and peace in at least this one area.

And in taking that exceptional care, we're in a position to sort through the "stuff" along the way. The brick wall is rubble now and I don't have to understand exactly how it was built--I don't--all I know is, I'm free. And that freedom isn't guaranteed. Maintaining freedom from morbid obesity requires me to maintain the consistency of my embrace of what's true each and every day.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,


  1. Well said! Let's touch base & catch up. Have a great weekend!

  2. The freedom from obesity isn't guaranteed. I like that. I mean I like how you expressed that. I sincerely wish we could get a guarantee that we will never go back, but I know there is no such thing. So every day I work hard to avoid so many temptations that are constantly lurking everywhere. I wonder if it ever gets any easier.....?


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