Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed connected with good support.
I mention the word "freedom" quite a lot in the more than 2,200 archived blog pages. I've discovered many definitions and descriptions of that word over the last nine years. Tonight, I'm sharing a post written in the middle of my greatest season of struggle. It was 2013--in the middle of a relapse/regain period that often times felt hopeless, depressing, and neverending. I suppose it was an attempt to understand why I was choosing certain "freedoms."
I believe we're on our way to an imaginary line, where suddenly we're not eating less and exercising more solely as a means to lose weight--we're doing it because it's what we do, it's how we live---and suddenly it becomes much less of a burden or deliberate action, it just IS.
And we discover that it doesn't take anything away from the richness of our lives--or the joy we experience, as our struggling thoughts might have convinced us--contrary, it enriches us, empowers us---breaks us free into a new perspective where we realize our greater truth, our truest reality about our relationship with food and exercise. Like coming out of a dense fog, we clearly see food for what it is, not what our old behaviors and habits tried to make it.
Now, I look at the earlier, deliberate phase as practice for what's ahead--because I know the biggest obstacle to crossing this line and keeping this new perspective is our own thoughts, emotional and spiritual health. This, without question, is the most powerful element.
I've discovered, our thoughts and emotions can effectively render our breakthroughs powerless, pulling us back over the line, as if a gravitational pull exists between our old perspectives and the freedoms we've enjoyed in the new. At this place we find ourselves in a position where we know the truth, we've experienced the freedom--and we have to decide: Do we surrender? Do we give back all of the power it had over us for years? Do we walk back into our cell and close the door?
Or do we stand up, declare our freedom and break free toward progress once again? It's a powerful choice we have and our most definitive answer isn't in what we say, it's what we do.
It's so much easier to give it all back.
In that cell, we simply exist--surrounded by the same old behaviors and habits that have consistently given us our reality.
It's easy because we don't have to think about anything--we just do whatever--despite the consequences. There's a freedom in that choice. It's the freedom from personal responsibility--freedom from caring---freedom from the uncertainties of positive change and a deliberate disconnect from the impending and most certain negative changes our inaction fosters.
That kind of freedom comes at a much greater cost. It costs us our health, it cuts short our life, it dramatically decreases the richness/fullness of our existence...and it's so easy to do, effortless to accept because it doesn't require us to change our actions or perspective.
Our quickest exit relies heavily on our self-awareness and honesty about what we're doing and why. The positive effort we exert repays us exponentially in ways we haven't even realized until we're there; living, breathing and benefiting from our good choices. The freedoms we enjoy because of the consequences our positive efforts bring, far outweigh the freedoms of inaction.
It honestly comes down to this: What kind of freedoms do we truly want?
Today's Accountability Tweets:
2 cups water, 20 push-ups, and 20 squats ✅✅✅Done #morningdeal before coffee. Coffee pass earned. pic.twitter.com/e4sJVtjKAr— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 20, 2018
3 tbs half & half in the first cup, another 3 tbs half & half in the refill cup, to-go, soon. 120 cal. pic.twitter.com/bcytR4D93h— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 20, 2018
Breakfast in MyFitnessPal. Not shown: 2.5oz apple slices. pic.twitter.com/rOXDpHfmQS— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 20, 2018
Ezekiel toasts. One with 2 whole eggs & 1 slice havarti. One with 54g avocado. 119g banana, 110g cantaloupe, and 2.5oz apple slices. 655 cal. pic.twitter.com/rFRNoR79Ri— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 20, 2018
2 tbs half & half in this midmorning cup of coffee 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/VWWfZTO9LJ— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 20, 2018
Lunch in MyFitnessPal. Not shown: 32g black olives, 30g lettuce, and 184g cantaloupe. pic.twitter.com/ZFEkcISaTs— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 20, 2018
Tostadas with 152g fat free refried beans, 2 tbs salsa, 2 slices havarti, 67g avocado, 15g sour cream, 32g black olives, and 30g lettuce. 184g cantaloupe. 690 cal. pic.twitter.com/eg4qXW6vGT— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 20, 2018
3 tbs half & half in this cup of dark roast coffee 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/VbcVQPTYtN— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 20, 2018
Dinner in MyFitnessPal. Not shown: 1 Joseph's flax-oat bran-whole wheat pita & approx.1 serving fried sweet potato fries. pic.twitter.com/tbcDnVLBmC— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 21, 2018
6oz 85% lean beef, 1 slice Swiss, sautéed portobello mushrooms, grilled onions, yellow mustard and red onion- on a Joseph's flax-oat bran-whole wheat pita. Extra mustard & approximately 1 serving fried sweet potato fries. 700 cal. pic.twitter.com/dPXqyvEx2C— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) February 21, 2018
Thank you for reading and your continued support,