Today didn't go as planned. It started well planned. I enjoyed 9 hours of sleep last night. In fact, it was the first Saturday night in recent memory where I was in bed before midnight. Naturally, I woke refreshed and ready to accomplish a big bunch of things today.
The expression "biting off more than you can chew" comes to mind. I've done that literally and figuratively my entire life. Then, after not accomplishing the list, whatever that might contain, I spend more time beating myself up for not--completely ignoring any kind of good as I successfully hold myself in a down position. Maybe my brain has a hard time determining what's reasonable in other areas, besides food.
How can we move forward in harmony with our goals if we're constantly holding ourselves in a down position?
I did go back to work in an attempt to finish things I didn't yesterday. I spent far too much time there and still fell short of getting everything done that needed done.
I had a phone meeting at 6pm, a visit with mom, a trip to the store--dinner...and what about the workout I planned to do--or what's up with episode 15 of the podcast??? Put that on the list of things I wanted to get accomplished today, but didn't.
Oh, and a bedtime plan? Uh, yeah-- not hitting my mark on that one either--unless I sleep until 5:30am--and I can't do that and still make it to work on time. Instead of 7 hours sleep tonight, it'll be 6.
I made a declaration--an accountability pledge on these things--and it's not happening, today.
It's no wonder why I left the nursing facility short of breath--a mild panic attack coming on, but this time I knew exactly why. I was focusing on everything I didn't do today--and as the minutes ticked away on the clock, it worsened, or heightened my focus.
I've got to flip it around. Instead of focusing on what I didn't get accomplished, I must acknowledge what I did do well. Aside from accomplishing several things at work...
Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed connected with support. I did those things. And I did them with precision.
Me not eating through times of high stress and emotion--trust me, that's a miracle.
Today's Accountability Tweets:
2 cups water-20 push-ups-20 squats✅Done. #morningdeal complete- coffee time. pic.twitter.com/vUi4icluY7— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 2, 2017
2 tablespoons half & half in my first cup. Another 2 tablespoons half & half in the refill cup, very soon. 80 cal. pic.twitter.com/SVEodo6IJn— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 2, 2017
Breakfast in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/l7wdpzwc1U— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 2, 2017
2 whole eggs, 2 egg whites & 105g avocado. 197g red potato slices, baked with 5 seconds olive oil spray. 6.4oz fuji apple slices. 609 cal. pic.twitter.com/akWCG0eoqV— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 2, 2017
3 tablespoons half & half in this midday dark. 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/dRIJeqi0BH— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 2, 2017
Lunch in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/bMBa7NRSZG— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 2, 2017
122g banana, refined sugar-free Quest protein bar & 280g cantaloupe. 394 cal. pic.twitter.com/SmtssQv5mV— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 2, 2017
2.5 cup bottle of water #wateraccountability 43g roasted almonds & 1oz sharp cheddar. 380 cal. pic.twitter.com/ht73JJTdmO— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 3, 2017
Dinner in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/Fb5kkHcEVm— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 3, 2017
6oz 96% lean beef, 25g red onion, mustard&1 slice muenster on sprouted grain Ezekiel. 205g fresh cut&baked swt.pot w/4secOOSpray. 660 cal. pic.twitter.com/yqtjkpp7Ac— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) April 3, 2017
Thank you for reading and your continued support,