I recently shared with you my seven year anniversary post. We revisited Day 1. In that Day 1 blog post, I wrote about envisioning my own funeral and how those moments were created any time I felt a twinge of pain in my chest. Will this be the time? Will my funeral be on Thursday? Those thoughts were very serious and quite scary.
Despite the frightening thoughts, I still struggled for almost two decades near, at or above 500 pounds. When those thoughts would race through my head, I was thinking of a wife and those two little girls who might lose their father at a young age. The thoughts of how that might affect them and the idea of not seeing them grow up was devastating, but still, I couldn't seem to find my way out.
When I look at these pictures of me dancing with my adult aged daughters, I realize. I made it. By the grace of God, I somehow made it.
Dancing with Courtney and Amber at Amber's wedding on May 30th, 2015
Today was an exceptional day. I prepared some good food in harmony with my plan and goals, I completed my training run (week 8 day 1 C25K--5 minute walk-28 minute jog-5 minute walk), I exceeded my water goal and I was involved with one on one and group support interactions.
I made the Winning Loser Video Blog Episode 1.5, too! And that was a bunch of fun! It's currently taking forever to upload to YouTube. My hope is, it'll be done by the time I get up in the morning and I will add it to this post here:
5:20am update: It's been uploading all night and it's still at 15%! Uhg!!! I'll try doing it from desktop.
Finally!
Monday morning dark roast w/2 tblspns half & half X 2 cups. Good morning! 80 cal. pic.twitter.com/OKhJ1KOzJc
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
Breakfast in MFP... pic.twitter.com/znBYaael2E
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
Avocado omelet w/2 whites-2 whole eggs & 143g avocado seasoned w/salt & pepper. 153g strawberries, 122g apple. 519cal pic.twitter.com/zbl0bPADNL
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
I've been known to fire up the grill any time of day! :) Lunch coming together. pic.twitter.com/6axFwrhgdU
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
Sirloin (8oz) tacos with one slice provolone, lettuce and 15g light sour cream. (Pepper used to hold em up) 565 cal. pic.twitter.com/W5q4VoObeL
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
2 cups water with lunch. #wateraccountability pic.twitter.com/Ria1VloLwk
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
My afternoon coffee brought from home. With 2 tablespoons half & half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/i084nUbe4z
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
Afternoon water. Goal is to have this gone by the time I start workout. 4 cups. #wateraccountability pic.twitter.com/g6RzHj52a7
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
Starting training run. 4 cup bottle refill. #wateraccountability Here we go!!! #c25k pic.twitter.com/Vpn1WTEF5R
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
GPS not working properly inside this building. 5 minute warm up walk, 28 minute jog, 5 minute walk. Yes. #naturalhigh pic.twitter.com/c8pZH7pRG8
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
Likely 2.5 miles. OMGoodness. That feels great! #endorphinrelease
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
After workout snack. 4.6oz banana with 32g natural peanut butter. 1 big slice cheddar. 374 cal. pic.twitter.com/1nWm1E2kng
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
Dinner side dish in the pan... pic.twitter.com/eKTaKlI5qb
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
Evening cup with 2 tablespoons half and half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/rfw9QhL0CD
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 21, 2015
Just the way I like it! pic.twitter.com/nA71FC6pUL
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 22, 2015
Dinner in MFP... pic.twitter.com/ZOUCqJqrHy
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 22, 2015
Grilled chick. drumstick qrtr (10oz), 301g swt. pot. w/mshrms, grn pepper & zucchini prprd w/3 sec. oospray. 649 cal. pic.twitter.com/4vH2f1QVgA
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 22, 2015
215g cantaloupe measured precisely in order to hit calorie bullseye square- just for fun. #lastfoodofday 73 cal. pic.twitter.com/852uzJvU3n
— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) September 22, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean
So, I watched. I didn't get a paper or pen or pencil like you suggested... I just couldn't.
ReplyDeleteI just don't find that in myself at the moment. I will perhaps with time. But I will def. give it a thought.
You sir are a nut! LOL Are you always a crazy kinda guy?? *Steve Martin* .... that's who you remind me of!
Good Vblog.. blog... V..blog.. not sure what it is.. but nice to put a voice to the words!
:)
Rosie
Rosie, thank you!! You're not the first who has told me they couldn't identify their core elements. Please don't give up trying. It's worth the effort, I promise.
DeleteI think my sense of humor will really come out even more as this Vlog, video blog--or whatever it's called, progresses! Thank you for the wonderfully kind words!
I did get pen and paper. You are so spot on. Thank you for putting into perspective in a straightforward, easy to understand manner. As you said, this can apply to so many areas of our life. I am a nurse. If I don't live up to my expectations or if someone makes a negative comment, my first thought is, I'm a failure. 35 years in the profession, it's where I put my identity because I don't like the fat me. Yet one comment and I tend to feel crushed. The difference being, I have had more success, more positives with this identity and although nursing is a major part of who I am, I am so much more than "Lori, the nurse". I need to start writing!
ReplyDeleteLori, yes-yes-yes!!! Please start writing. There are elements of you in need of nourishment!
DeleteI'm so glad the message struck a chord with you.
You're very welcome and thank you for watching! I'm looking forward to more!