The stress level has been set to the high position. We're changing software and hardware at the studios--and we're going on-line with it as early as Sunday evening. The goal is for the listener not to really notice the switch--it's behind the scenes stuff, but believe me, it takes a bunch of work on the entire team. I suppose I'm not feeling as confident as I need to feel with these challenges. We have great support direct from the manufacturer--they're actually in-studio with us, to help--and full support for the software on the phone, anytime--so, now it's up to me to alleviate my stress by asking lots and lots of questions and paying close attention to the answers. Learning new things can be stressful if I try to figure it out on my own. Good thing we don't have to figure it all out on our own. The parallels between this and other very important things in my life are not lost on me.
I'll be spending a number of hours working on the transition at the studio this weekend.
Today was another long and involved day. Aside from the morning show and normal production responsibilities, I worked a four hour/two station location broadcast until 5pm. I ran a few errands afterward--and by the time I made it home, a nap was in order. I was simply spent. My voice was wrecked from thirty-two approximately 3 minutes each on-air breaks.
Dinner was late--and it was okay by me. I typically don't go this long between meals, like I did between lunch and dinner because it isn't necessarily a good thing for my food plan. Part of the plan is keeping a somewhat consistent schedule and steady pacing. Today was an exception, not a rule.
Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded today's water goal, and I stayed well connected with exceptional support, including a very nice conversation tonight.
Oh--and about the stress-- For me, when it combines with tiredness, that's when I'm most vulnerable. In fact--it was just the other day when, after a prayer and some holy moly, I'm feeling super unstable feelings--I called Gerri in the middle of these tilted food thoughts--and after a few minutes of speaking, I was okay--and I could carry on, on-plan. But yes--of course those thoughts come. The difference is, I'm not relying solely on me to resist the temptation of those wonky thoughts that do their best to convince me a binge might alleviate the stress or somehow fix my tiredness. If I tried to rely 100% on me, I'd be 500 pounds or more right now because I don't have willpower. It isn't willpower that keeps me well, I assure you.
A binge never alleviated stress in my life. A binge might have distracted me from many stressful situations for as long as it took to plow through the food, but the stress was always waiting for after the last bite. And a binge never rejuvenated or restored me to a well-rested state.
Today's Accountability Tweets:
It's Friday! #morningdeal ✅Done. 2 cups water, 20 push-ups & 20 squats before coffee✔️☕️X pic.twitter.com/Gb96KdGe20— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 24, 2017
3 tablespoons half & half in this first cup of dark roast. Another 3 tablespoons in the to-go cup refill, soon. 120 cal. pic.twitter.com/izkNj0Soif— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 24, 2017
Breakfast in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/3M6yMQxUXg— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 24, 2017
3.8oz 93% lean beef, 1 slice asiago, 1 slice mozz, 2 egg whts & 1 whl on a Jos.flax-oat bran-whl wht pita. 5.2oz orng&169g strwbrrs. 568 cal pic.twitter.com/KCl3zoEY6W— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 24, 2017
2 tablespoons half & half in my midmorning cup of dark roast. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/pb10xeMaAK— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 24, 2017
Lunch in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/VY7zZhpnfN— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 24, 2017
I've reached my pita limit today. 2 Jos.pitas w/143g ff beans, 2 tbs salsa, 2 slices swiss, 50g lettuce&30g sr.crm, 112g banana. 546 cal. pic.twitter.com/vIkksvLS1B— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 24, 2017
2 tablespoons half & half in this afternoon cup of dark roast. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/XhmPFbWTQN— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 24, 2017
Late Dinner in MyFitnessPal. Not shown in screen shot: 46g yellow pepper & 37g orange pepper. pic.twitter.com/GcUAnxMMy2— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 25, 2017
Measurements give me a sense of certainty in my logging. Except for dining out, my brain lost its guesstimating privileges a long time ago. pic.twitter.com/GGq8mdp2TP— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 25, 2017
7.4oz sirloin, 62g red onion, 32g red peppr, 46g yllw peppr, 37g orng peppr. 274g redPot.w/2 tbs half&half, 1 tbs SrCrm, & 7g butter. 693cal pic.twitter.com/4Dv2KwI3AZ— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 25, 2017
1.5 cups water exceeds #watergoal 108g avocado mxd w/26g lettuce & 15g sour cream, salt&pepper and 14g (1/2srv) chips #lastfoodofday 276 cal pic.twitter.com/6RzinL7P8e— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) March 25, 2017
Thank you for reading and your continued support,