Wednesday, September 13, 2017

September 13th, 2017 So I Don't Miss It Now

September 13th, 2017 So I Don't Miss It Now

I have a lot to be grateful for in my life. I'm grateful for the teachers along this road, the people, and the experiences. I'm grateful for 2nd, 3rd, and 8th chances. I'm grateful for a place of peace in my relationship with food. It's a temporary peace in need of renewal each day--and the renewal comes with the daily practice of my personal plan.

I had special guests on my radio show this morning. They brought baked goods for everyone. It's hard to put into words what it feels like to not be controlled by food circumstances. I'm so grateful to be at a place where I can look at something with a perspective that isn't about deprivation, it's not about white knuckling, or about will power. It's about, "that's not my food." It's about feeling content within my food plan and a full appreciation of the power and potential consequences of "just one bite." It's a perspective where the perceived charms of the food no longer exist for me. Instead, the charms have been replaced by truth. It's my truth. The truth is if ever I start flirting again with the charms of my personal trigger foods and food substances, I'll quickly fall back into the deep dark recesses of addiction, relapse, and the resulting side effect of dramatic weight gain. And this truth is kept fresh, top of mind each day. And if not, I have many support contacts to remind me in the amount of time it takes for a fast text or call. I'm grateful.

I still enjoy food. But it's my food. And I get joy from preparing it in appealing ways, to me, for me. 

My broadcast this evening from the fair came after a day where I was really tired and to be honest, I'm still not 100% over this crud I've been fighting. Trying certain fair foods has always been a part of the broadcasts. I remember, oh--about seven years ago, trying a deep fried Oreo. My food plan was different back then, it's evolved toward my personal food truths in the years since, and now, I dare not sacrifice myself for the sake of an on air endorsement of the latest-greatest fair food. So, instead, I take along someone willing and able to be the official food taster! Autumn, our midday personality on KPNC, was enthusiastically willing to try things on the air. It was fun! The fair broadcasts continue every evening through Saturday. Long days!

The best part of this evening's broadcast was my daughter Courtney, Lucas, and my two grandkids showing up for some fun at the fair.
Oliver is so incredibly precious!
He didn't get sad when I picked him up! Yay!

Noah's fair trip didn't start well. He hurt his finger just minutes before
arriving on the midway. But it didn't take too long for something to
catch his attention...

His favorite ride so far: The giant slide!! He rode it three times!
Finding the moments of real joy--the moments of life that bring true fulfillment, contentment, and gratitude--that, to me, is really what it's all about. I spent many many years trying to find something within the false promises of food addiction, all the while, life was happening around me--unfortunately, I missed a lot of it back then. I'm doing my best each day to keep my mind, eyes, and heart open, so I don't miss it now.

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, I had plenty of natural/active exercise, and I stayed well connected with good support.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,

1 comment:

  1. Congrats on staying within your food template, even when your food environment had a lot of old memories. It's so cool to have arrived in this place. Where you like what you eat and it's within your plan. Good stuff.


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