Monday, August 8, 2016

August 8th, 2016 Like A Dance

August 8th, 2016 Like A Dance

The weather last night wasn't severe in our immediate listening area. But it was strong at times, and that's enough to qualify for on-air coverage. When storms roll through, our listeners know they can depend on our stations to give them the facts: Is it severe; something to be seriously concerned about? Or is it below severe limits and nothing to worry about? With storms around here, it's sometimes hard to tell the difference. We offer a voice of calm when it isn't severe and a firm informative voice when it is dangerous. Part of my job description, aside from morning radio personality, is weather coverage anchor for our stations. And sometimes, that part of my job makes taking extraordinary care a little more challenging.

I enjoy delivering good coverage. No complaints here! I'm simply saying it creates challenges for me in other areas when my sleep is severely cut short. For someone who isn't in recovery, perhaps it doesn't make a difference--if they're extra tired, they're not at risk for relapse from anything. For me, being exceptionally tired is a red flag warning, requiring me to be extra aware and in closer contact with support connections.

I was up this morning after a little less than two hours sleep. I had a colleague fill in on my show until I could arrive at 7am. I had a great rest of my show, took a break long enough to prepare and eat breakfast--then I dived into production. My goal was to get what I needed to get done, done, in order to leave early--so I could sleep!!! And that's exactly what I did. It was necessary.

I do what I do each day, not to maintain my weight. I do it to maintain my recovery. If I maintain my continued recovery, then the weight takes care of itself. My recovery requires the daily disciplines I make important. Over the years, I've tried several times to not make these things important. I tried not giving this the level of importance I do today--and if you're familiar with these writings, you know what happened when I let go of the disciplines utilized during my initial 275-pound loss. I regained 164 pounds.

Today, I'm grateful for so many things. The acceptance and embrace of my personalized recovery plan--the one best suited for me, has brought me an incredible measure of peace and calm. And so, I protect it fiercely. Sacrificing my plan or putting my recovery at risk in any way, shape or form, is something I take very very seriously. And yet, as Life Coach Gerri taught me, I live life on life's terms--and when the twists and turns weaken the strength of my recovery plan, I must zero in on the source--and make corrections immediately, if possible. And if it's a circumstance involving a sometimes challenging work schedule, then I must--and I do, utilize the incredible power of support and accountability.

Once upon a time, it was very easy to dismiss my plan in the face of challenging circumstances. In those moments, I would fully embrace a victim role--a victim of circumstance--and that's where I could release the responsibility of taking extraordinary care.

I am not a victim anymore. I no longer look for outs, I look for solutions.

My challenges of late--a recent breakup from a relationship, too little sleep--these are elements of my life-stream. And when the life-stream fluctuates, my fundamental elements stream must keep step, like a dance--never crossing, just mirroring the movements as it responds accordingly.

Today, I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget. I remained abstinent from refined sugar for the 831st day in a row. I met my daily water goal. And I stayed well connected with solid support connections via a few text messages at key moments throughout the day/evening.

I had to adjust rather quickly tonight. I wrapped our two support group conference call meetings tonight and immediately made my way to the fridge for fresh salmon. It was going on the grill. UNTIL, I opened the package to discover it wasn't fresh, at all. I tossed it--and then realized everything else was frozen. Uhg. I calmly made my way to the store, bought what I needed and made it back home to prepare dinner.

I made the necessary adjustments!

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1 comment:

  1. Youi didn't mention the frustration of finding the salmon wasn't fresh and the rest of the meal was frozen. That, on top of the weather reporting responsibility plus the breakup, would have sent me into a spin. possibly out of control. This accumulation of stress has been my downfall. I admire you for sticking to your plan no matter what!!


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