All three of my meals today were prepared at work. It was a combination of a regular workday, an evening location broadcast and late in-studio weather coverage. I did manage to squeeze in an afternoon nap, so that was good.
I really like how I feel these days. It's a different feeling from when I was here before, at this weight; physicality. I feel somewhat leaner than before. Perhaps the abstinence from sugar and the increased workouts have helped make the positive changes I've noticed. The biggest difference is, I'm not scared--or better put, I'm not at a loss for what's next.
I recently received an email from a faithful reader asking "why do you continue trying to lose weight?" I get it--and I appreciate it, thank you. I'll take it as a compliment! I'm close to instituting maintenance mode. I'm close, but not quite ready just yet.
I wear my clothes well. I've always had this ability to be conscious of how to wear my clothing in the best way possible. My height also plays a role in concealing. When I weighed 505 pounds, people would often guess around 400, so naturally as I've lost weight--I still carry more weight than what appears. In other words--looking at the standing profile shot in the grocery store from a week ago, you might guess my weight to be well below 233. Nope! Well, maybe-- I don't know, weigh day is still a week and a half away!
Within the next 5 to 10 pounds, I'll be transitioning into maintenance mode. The differences between what I'm doing now and what I'll be doing then, are very small. The fundamental elements of my recovery will not waiver. The daily writing of this blog, the accountability tweets, the tracking and logging in MyFitnessPal, the active participation in support circles--it all stays the same. It must if I expect to continue living well.
The difference? Maybe I'll add some calories to the budget--some good calorie-dense snacks and get into some different workouts and more intentional weight training routines. And running. I'm seriously considering giving it an honest try. I've never really tried to run, at least not in the right way.
And really, I'm not sure what will happen when these changes are instituted. I could possibly continue to lose or, with increased weight training, gain. And that's okay. Whatever my body wants--as long as I'm holding sacred my elements of recovery, I'm cool as a cucumber.
Certainty is one of the basic human needs. I feel certainty in my plan moving forward. It doesn't mean I'm "fixed" or "immune" from relapse---I'll never be those things. But I am certain I can continue holding sacred the elements of my recovery as long as I stay connected and open. No matter how long I do this, it's never a "lock." I'm a student of the process forever more. And proud to be showing up for class each and every day.
Tomorrow is insanely busy with three different location broadcasts. The first six hours include two and will require me to plan, prepare and pack a good lunch. It's the Three P's! I roasted a turkey breast the other day and I've yet to carve it--so I'll do that, pack a few other things and be well.
My activity today, like yesterday, was my exercise. Same plan tomorrow. I'm looking forward to a great Y workout on Sunday.
My Tweets Today:
Dark roast w/extra scoop of dark. Sugar free hazelnut (1tblspn per cup) 2 cups. 1 now, 1 for sipping all morn. 60 cal pic.twitter.com/HUI7VMp75b— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 12, 2015
2 cheese omelet w/3 egg whts-1 whl, 1 slice each-provolone & mozzarella, 5.5oz orange, pear & strwbrs (133g). 447 cal pic.twitter.com/5Sz15x0YK8— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 12, 2015
Sure, I call 'em tostadas, but let's be real: They're bean & cheese nachos. :) Lunch tweet coming in a moment.— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 12, 2015
FF/SF bean (130g) & cheese tostadas w/provolone (1) & mozzarella (2), with salsa. Fresh cantaloupe (273g). 443 cal. pic.twitter.com/KxPwpbOoZL— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 12, 2015
I don't call it being predictable and boring. I call it being consistent and stable. With sf hazelnut. 2cups. 60cal. pic.twitter.com/tAnRxFOCKV— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 12, 2015
3 cups water with the easy drinking squeeze top! #fastwaterdrinker #watertracking #wateraccountability pic.twitter.com/CoBY8vO0RE— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 13, 2015
Chicken (5oz) & Zucchini fajita tacos w/lettuce & sr crm, 6 chips topped with shrimp & mozzarella, sr crm. 583 cal. pic.twitter.com/ZW6ZI2clnW— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 13, 2015
After a long day, a good cup of coffee is exactly what I want. W/sugar free hazelnut creamer (1tblspn). 30 cal. pic.twitter.com/7X4idZu89U— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 13, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,