I wasn't feeling 100% better early this morning as I slowly made it back to work. No fever, so I needed to be there. My original plan of leaving early didn't work out and it turned out to be fine, because as the day progressed, I felt progressively better.
I enjoyed some really good food today. My dinner tonight turned out to be a case of my eyes being bigger than my stomach (see the tweet below). I ended up not eating several ounces, adjusted the calorie count down and was fine. The lower dinner count made for a bigger #lastfoodofday!
Tomorrow is weigh day. Tomorrow could very well be the day I return to my previous goal weight of 230. As much as I write about not necessarily having a goal weight this time around, I can't help but feel a sense of "goal weight weigh day" coming on.
It makes sense. During my initial 275 loss, I was focused on the number 230 from the very beginning. Don't ask me how I knew it would be a good weight for me, a healthy weight, because I don't know. A good guess, I suppose. It is a good weight for me. But it may not be where I settle.
I feel fine, I love the way my clothes fit, I do double and triple takes when I see my reflection in a window--because it seems even smaller than it did before. Throughout my relapse/regain period, I noticed the weight gain happens in different places on the body. It only makes sense that it's lost differently too, especially considering my more consistent workout schedule and the light amount of weight training.
I don't believe I have too much left to lose, really, if any. Increased workout plans, continuing to eat well and basically doing what I've been doing--with perhaps some added calories, may result in more weight loss--or, when I commit to a much bigger weight training plan, a weight gain.
I don't know. And really, I think it's okay to not know, right now. The most important thing for me, I believe, is to maintain--not weight; maintain the fundamental elements of my recovery.
For me, I truly believe if I maintain these elements--the abstinence from sugar, the application of recovery principles--the support and accountability measures and the solid and sacred reverence for my overall food sobriety--then the maintenance will essentially take care of itself.
If I let go of what's brought me this far (I have ZERO thoughts and plans to do that), then I'm destined to struggle and regain. One day at a time, I'll embrace my normal. I'm actually digging my normal. And I'm not sure I could have honestly typed that onto the page fifteen months ago.
I maintained the fundamental elements of my recovery, today. I'll do my best to do the same, tomorrow.
My Tweets Today:
Dark roast w/sf hazelnut creamer (1tblspn) X 2 cups. Good morning! 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/zN3qlDyemu— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 23, 2015
Avocado omelet w/3 egg whites & 1 whole, 89g avocado, 3.9oz Honeycrisp apple, strawberries (142g). 368 cal. pic.twitter.com/UXFVvzuvvL— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 23, 2015
Two FF/SF Bean (130g) & Mozzarella (1 slice each) tostadas w/salsa. 94g fresh strawberries. 320 cal. pic.twitter.com/GDeCQx3gYR— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 23, 2015
Their dark roast pour over, my sugar free hazelnut (1.5 tblspns). 45 cal. pic.twitter.com/G3eKZQ5PHE— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 23, 2015
Fajita Chicken (1.5oz) & Zucchini Tostada, w/swiss (1slice). 5.35oz orange. 2 cups water. #watertracking 240 cal. pic.twitter.com/4isXessgmM— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 23, 2015
Pork loin (6oz) & chicken (7oz) kabobs w/mixed bell peppers, fresh cut & baked sweet potato fries (160g). 596 cal. pic.twitter.com/jsw61vnQHM— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 24, 2015
I couldn't eat it all. I've adjusted the count in MyFitnessPal. Revised dinner count -3oz chick, -2oz pork: 433 cal. pic.twitter.com/ejy6A3Q485— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 24, 2015
Workout time. Elliptical. Level 19. Here we go. 2 cups water. #wateraccountability pic.twitter.com/i7mG9GFeiJ— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 24, 2015
#naturalhigh #endorphinrush Great elliptical ride tonight. 2 cup bottle refill hits #watergoal pic.twitter.com/aRNArJme8t— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 24, 2015
Great song recently added to my workout playlist!! @RachelPlatten "Fight Song." Whoa. Highly recommend! pic.twitter.com/8205AJ2wHE— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 24, 2015
Yellow apple (197g), orange (5.2oz) & a little less than half a pear (3.7oz). Fruit Bowl! #lastfoodofday 235 cal. pic.twitter.com/S7ieXaRBsf— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 24, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,