I slept in this morning. I didn't have any work related commitments and I took advantage! I slept well for over nine hours and that's unusual for me, even on a day off. It was needed!
I relaxed today. I was active in giving and receiving support and I spent a fairly good amount of time memorizing lines for a character I'm playing in an upcoming play. It's a fairly small, supportive role--and a fun one, I'm looking forward to doing it! I have about 20% the lines I had in Call Me Henry several years ago, so I should be able to do this without too much issue. Why a play? Why now? Because it's something I love and I must do things that nourish the qualities in the core of who I am. It all goes back to finding that unique happiness code within.
It helps that the rehearsal schedule and time commitment required has been cut in half by the director of this project. Everything will be finished--everything, performances and all, within three weeks from now. I couldn't pass it up. I didn't want to pass it up.
I love taking extra care and giving special attention to envisioning, preparing and cooking my food. I don't always have the time--but I try my best to make the time. I took the time midday for my brunch. It was easily one of the most satisfying omelets I've created (see the brunch tweet below). Making the time to prepare the food we eat is one of the excellent ways we honor the commitment we're making to ourselves. We are worth the effort!
And I just love navigating the calories--and coming up with a fantastic plate of food within a reasonable count. MyFitnessPal is a big help in this navigation. I needed exactly 78 calories to hit 1700 calories on the nose tonight. I decided on some red grapes. With the help of MFP, I found 118 grams to be exactly 78 calories. It really isn't a big deal to hit it on the nose--and most of the time I'm a little under or a little over--but sometimes it's fun to hit it square...just for kicks.
My plan and goal was to swim tonight in the pool I share with everyone else in this apartment community. I've never used it. Not even once. But--instead of a Y trip today, I thought, why not?
(Warning: Excuses straight ahead) Well--I discovered the deep end was only 5 foot and the pool is small. I wasn't sure I could get a good workout without sufficiently deep enough water to tread and room to swim, so I took a rest day.
I made the decision and I'm cool with the decision. It was a beautiful night. I seriously could have done something--even a good walk. But again--made the decision to relax--and I'll be okay with it. It's okay. Seriously, I'm fine. :)
My continued recovery, always and especially now that I'm heading into maintenance mode, relies heavily on my commitment to the fundamental elements that have brought me this far. Part of those elements--a very important part, is staying connected--offering and receiving support on a regular basis. It's very important to me. Helping others helps me. I'm truly grateful for these connections.
Sometimes, when the schedule gets difficult, I do what I can when I can--and it is my best on that particular day. I spent some time catching up on some emails and comment replies today--and then I get to last night's blog post and find this comment, signed "anonymous coward," and punctuated with a winking smiley face:
"So, Sean... You're all thin and busy now. Don't forget your friends in the comments section of your blog. Don't disappear now that you are all thin and perfect now. ;)"
I really shouldn't let a comment like this get under my skin, but it did, I'll admit it. It did because I sincerely do the best I can. I care more than most know, I assure you. I'm not "thin and perfect," never claimed to be perfect in any way. If I take longer to reply to something you should NEVER take it personally. Some might say I shouldn't have replied to this one--but I was upset, so I did...
First of all, I'm NOT perfect--never claimed to be--and never will be.
Second, it's ironic that I've spent well over two hours of my day writing thoughtful replies to emails and in support of others through various other means---and I just spent a good deal of time replying to comments on previous blog posts--only to come here and find yours, A.C.
To make a judgement about me and an assumption that somehow I'm thin, busy and perfect and I haven't time for anyone, is absolutely ludicrous. People who know me well, know how I am and how important it is to me, to be available and supportive to others. You do not know me well, A.C.
"Don't disappear?" I post every single night.
Bottom line: I do my best.
I can't believe I just spent almost 5 minutes composing a reply to this nonsense.
Hitting the pillow tonight after a fairly good day. My calorie bank is solid, my abstinence from refined sugar is going strong, I was active in support and I did things that I love, things that increase my happiness level. All of it, a part of the fundamental elements that keep me well.
My Tweets Today:
Saturday off and I took advantage! Slept in well! Good late-morning! SF hazelnut creamer (1 tblspn) X 2 cups= 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/zXWgLTDVay— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 20, 2015
Avocado (94g) egg wht omelet (5) w/mini peppers (3oz), onion & provolone (1.5slices). Grapes (163g), pear. 582 cal. pic.twitter.com/PqM2QdAV1v— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 20, 2015
Whl wht linguine (2oz), 226g sf tomato basil (2srv), squash w/o.o.spray, orange (5.55oz), apple (125g). 426 cal. pic.twitter.com/QFmGZNcA2J— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 20, 2015
Dark roast w/sugar free hazelnut creamer (1 tblspn) X 2 cups= 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/pSkIzHr84L— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 21, 2015
Fajita steak (4oz) & shrimp tacos w/salsa dressing (15g lght sr crm mixed in) & 1 slice mozz. 6 chips w/salsa. 494cal pic.twitter.com/aUexIxB2fl— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 21, 2015
I checked MFP about how many grams of red grapes=78 cal. It's 118g. Hit cal budget on the nose. #lastfoodofday 78 cal pic.twitter.com/YGskXkdmcK— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) June 21, 2015
Thank you for reading and your continued support,