The last full day in New York City was an amazing one. Kristin enjoyed the Museum of Modern Art while I did my business--including an afternoon trip to CBS Radio New York!
Broadway Bill Lee is legendary in broadcasting. He gave me an amazing behind the scenes-all access tour of their amazing facility. The experience, courtesy of Broadway Bill's generosity, was something I'll never forget.
I found the most fantastic farm to fork restaurant called Dig Inn, right across the street from the CBS studios. I sat there, enjoyed an incredible lunch (see tweet below) and just tried to completely absorb what just happened.
It's challenging really, in one way, because I know very well--and this isn't boastful, I'm just saying--as an on-air personality, I know I'm capable of this level--the major leagues. But I didn't take that path. And I didn't because I've spent the majority of my broadcasting career as a 500 pound man, and that--and all the insecurities it brought, severely limited my ability to dream, to stretch, to believe in myself...to even try. I never even tried to pursue larger markets.
I had these same type feelings after my appearance on The Today Show. I felt so at home--so at ease in front of those cameras. I felt at home again today, right there at CBS Radio New York.
How would my life, my family--how would everything be different, had I pursued bigger markets earlier in my career?
I let those thoughts sit and simmer while I enjoyed the wild caught salmon and roasted sweet potatoes. Twenty-seven years in radio and I feel like I've accomplished a fraction of my capabilities.
Then, it hit me.
Wait a second! What am I doing with these thoughts?
In a split second--I dismissed these downward thoughts and negative emotions and turned my focus in the direction of gratitude.
My goodness, how easy it is to fall into a negative perspective! It's also easy to shift the other direction, all things considered.
I left the restaurant feeling energized and inspired. I'm going back home and I'm ready to do the kind of work I know I'm capable of doing.
And please, don't get me wrong. My initial thought process wasn't lack of gratitude for where I am today--it was more about how I allowed my weight to severely limit my personal and professional growth.
If you're a regular reader, you know all about "Epiphany Day," right? That day was May 15th, 2014. On May 19th, 2014, I elaborated a touch more about the dynamics in play when identity and self-worth is measured by anything that naturally fluctuates. For me, it was the scale--and how much I weighed.
I put so much focus and energy into feeling horrible about myself all those years--and too little focus on the core elements of me---and when that happens, in my opinion--the natural talents and abilities we possess don't get watered, so to speak. And they survive, but they're limited--their growth is stunted.
Since Epiphany Day, I've accomplished a bunch. I not only successfully returned from relapse/regain, I resurrected my stand-up comedy and started booking speaking engagements again. I'm more in touch with my natural talents and abilities, today, than any other time in my life.
I'm no longer limited by how I think and feel about myself. Now, how I think and feel about myself actually encourages huge things.
So what do I do?
I do exactly what I do each day. And quietly, calmly and confidently, I continue pursuing personal and professional growth in the areas I'm most passionate-- broadcasting, writing, speaking, mentoring and making each day just as important as the previous in my pursuit of personal extraordinary care.
I'm incredibly blessed to be right where I am. I'm a lucky man. And tonight, as I lay my head on the pillow in NYC one last night, I'll say some prayers of gratitude--because, let me tell you--things could be tragically different in so many ways. And they're not. They're actually really really good.
Kristin and me at the Empire State Building tonight. This is our last night in this incredible city. The top of the Empire State Building was lit up red, white and blue!
Today, I maintained the integrity of my maintenance mode calorie budget, I remained abstinent from refined sugar, I exceeded my daily water goal, I participated in support exchanges and according to the activity tracker on my phone, I burned more than a thousand calories. I promised myself I would take the stairs all the way up here to the 9th floor at least once during my stay--and I did it, today--twice.
Continuous Live-Tweet Stream:
3 cup bottle of water, 20 push-ups & 20 squats. #morningdeal DONE. I get coffee. Yay. ;) pic.twitter.com/9VZUlYVIPT— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
Good Monday morning! Two tablespoons half & half in this. Another and another after that one. 120 cal. pic.twitter.com/35xVZxbBW4— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
Breakfast in MFP. Not shown: 4.6oz banana pic.twitter.com/owGXDUDzoI— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
3 whl eggs, mshrms, onions, approx.14g cheese, approx.2oz ham&exactly 33g avocado. 3.9oz pnapple&4.6ozBanana. 527cal pic.twitter.com/A8drOW6PxC— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
Three tablespoons half & half in this midday dark roast. 60 cal. pic.twitter.com/5jtiMD2Dbk— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
Incredible lunch at DIg Inn Seasonal Market! Love this place!! In MFP... pic.twitter.com/96vjFAoPR6— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
4oz wild caught pan seared salmon, 1 cup wild brown rice, 6oz roasted sweet potato & approx 175g cantaloupe. 646 cal pic.twitter.com/aEqAlOSHS6— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
TY @diginn NYC for the best lunch & for kindly answering my ingredients questions accurately & with a smile! #thebestfood Glad I found you!— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
Thank you @dantaylor for allowing me in for a few minutes. You're amazing. It was an honor to meet you!— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
An amazing afternoon at legendary CBS-FM! It doesn't get any bigger! In awe. #grateful for the experience. pic.twitter.com/Q9AuU9Cc7s— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
@BroadwayBillLee I sincerely appreciate the above&beyond generosity w/your time, today. Thank you! Pure class, sir. Amazing experience.— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
Two tablespoons half & half in my evening coffee. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/MXRBoAfmQU— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 11, 2016
Dinner in MFP... pic.twitter.com/Pa7VdYjw6f— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 12, 2016
Walked 20 blocks for this! 6oz chicken, 4 tbsp guac & 1.4oz pepper jack on a multi-grain tortilla. 28g chips. 680cal pic.twitter.com/U5QwNn8u7F— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 12, 2016
After dinner, bold coffee... Tamed with two tablespoons half & half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/3lUIzVRw2V— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 12, 2016
Last night in NYC- ain't goin' down till the sun comes up! Might be a slight exaggeration. 2 tbsp half&half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/FoskXX4prq— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 12, 2016
I might have unintentionally lost weight today. #maintenancemode Haven't had a calorie burn like that in a while. pic.twitter.com/SvPUmdgW8y— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) July 12, 2016
Thank you for reading and your continued support,