Today's schedule came as a surprise. I knew I had two location broadcasts, but I didn't realize the first started at 10am. This dramatically shifted my plan. I had to make some changes on the fly. And that happens sometimes and I'm grateful I can do that without too much trouble. The key for me is being prepared. A 10am-2pm broadcast after a 6-9am morning show, with production in between, doesn't leave much time for planning and preparation.
I relied on my trusty backup plan of almonds, cheese, and a banana--this trio has come in handy on several occasions where I needed something fairly substantial but didn't have the time to prepare something or anything or anything, for that matter.
"Grab a bun, the burgers are hot and ready." Many of the location broadcasts I do involve free food. Today's 10-2 involved free hamburgers, hotdogs, potato chips and Halloween candy. "You ready for a burger?" I just kept saying "No, thank you, I'm good." But this particular grill master was becoming somewhat of a food pusher. After my third decline, he finally stopped suggesting.
It wasn't my food.
And I don't sacrifice my plan.
I can adjust my plan on the fly, if needed and IF the adjustments remain within the overall boundaries of my plan, but I don't sacrifice the integrity of the plan. I'd rather go without and eat sometime later than do something like that.
This recovery business, for me, requires a commitment to taking extraordinary care with my food--and that means maintaining the integrity of the food plan I've designed--the one that fits me very well--the one I truly enjoy.
If I started sacrificing the integrity of my food plan to fit in or in the name of convenience because I didn't plan well--then it would be the beginning of the end and I'd quickly go back to 500 pounds. The key is in remembering: I make the choices for me. I refuse to be a victim of circumstance with my food choices. Because the truth is, these circumstances along the way never had to derail me--I always wanted them to derail me---I used them in my arsenal of rationalizations for the choices and food behaviors that were killing me while conveniently denying any amount of responsibility for my own behavior. But why?? Because a few basic human needs were being met: Certainty (or the appearance of certainty found in the illusion of comfort), variety and connection.
Anyway, not that I need to explain, but the buns contained refined sugar, for one--(I've been abstinent from refined sugar for 912 consecutive days and believe me, I'm not sacrificing my streak easily or casually--oh no, if ever I do that--and I pray I don't--but if ever I did, it would be an epic meltdown requiring me to ignore powerful truths I've learned about myself along the way) And although I could have eaten a burger with mustard--these were high-fat/high-calorie burgers--so then it becomes a simple calorie-value decision.
Do I really want to invest somewhere between 325-375 calories for a relatively small hamburger patty dipped in mustard?
I had my "holdover" food--the almonds, cheese, and banana--and I quietly enjoyed these, then during a break between broadcasts, I made it home and prepared two veggie pita pizzas for 345 calories, total--now there's a good calorie value comparison-- a small & greasy hamburger patty dipped in mustard or what was essentially four slices of pita pizza? I'm going with the low cal veggie pizzas. But that's just me.
I almost grabbed a to-go order on the way home tonight. It was late and I was really tired. But honestly, what I made for dinner really didn't take too much effort--and considering I'll likely dine out again over the weekend at some point, I decided to cook dinner at home. I really didn't want salmon two nights in a row--but it was a use it or lose it type thing. I picked up a little over a pound of fresh salmon on sale, cut into four servings--it came out to about two bucks a serving for fresh salmon and that's a steal, really--unless I let it go bad--so I had to cook it tonight. I didn't want to freeze this never frozen fresh fish.
I get to finally sleep in really well tomorrow morning. I'll easily exceed 7 hours.
Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget. I remained abstinent from refined sugar. I met my daily water goal. I had a decent amount of natural exercise from being on my feet and moving during six hours worth of location broadcasting. And I remained well connected with great support contacts.
Today's Accountability Live-Tweet Stream:
2 cups water, 20 push-ups & 20 squats✔️✔️✔️Done. #morningdeal It's coffee time! pic.twitter.com/6erxoVIg05— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 28, 2016
Three tablespoons half & half in the first cup, same amount in to-go cup. Happy Friday! 120 cal. pic.twitter.com/RMvkIDptQe— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 28, 2016
Breakfast in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/Dbx5OogvAy— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 28, 2016
Two whole eggs, 1 slice mozzarella & 1 slice provolone on sugar/flour free sprouted grain Ezekiel bun. 6oz pear & 5.9oz apple. 599 cal. pic.twitter.com/VvxLp8IAyx— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 28, 2016
On the go lunch, in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/u8ahgqajHm— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 28, 2016
On location. Backup food from my man bag. (Please don't call it a "man purse.") 42g smkd almonds, 1oz cheddar & approx.4oz banana. 434 cal. pic.twitter.com/xmEj41fevP— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 28, 2016
Back home, in between location broadcasts- nice cup of coffee, with two tablespoons half & half. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/NxqDf8CJnR— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 28, 2016
2 Joseph's Flax-Oat Bran-Whole Wheat pitas w/121g Priano sugar-free marinara, 20g red onion, 52g yellow pepper&2oz fresh mozzarella. 345 cal pic.twitter.com/islXgJIU6x— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 28, 2016
Dinner in MyFitnessPal... pic.twitter.com/n1bKuMM9Kj— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 29, 2016
Really didn't want salmon two nights in a row- but it was either use it or lose it. And I didn't want to freeze fresh salmon.— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 29, 2016
5.25oz salmon, 93g grilled asparagus, 300g red potatoes prepared with 83g grilled red onion, 2 tbs half&half & 1 tbs (15g) sr crm. 623 cal. pic.twitter.com/H8NycQ17B5— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 29, 2016
After dinner cup of coffee with two tablespoons half & half. Long day. 40 cal. pic.twitter.com/TTEvp5EuhT— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 29, 2016
5.6oz Japanese apple-pear & 2oz (1/2 small) banana #lastfoodofday 99 cal. pic.twitter.com/xcfr9GrDdq— Sean Anderson (@SeanAAnderson) October 29, 2016
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